12. Um...Awkward Much?
I had to admit that it felt good, but I was still in love with Christine. Even though I hadn't initiated the kiss, I still felt guilty for not pulling away sooner. I forced myself to believe that it was just because it was familiar and I had missed Katniss for so long.
I asked Katniss so many questions about what happened but she just said it was complicated. I still deserved a valid reason but she still denied me one. Girls and their crazy hormones. Eventually I gave up and left her alone but things got really awkward after that. Every time we bumped into each other we would glance at each other and glance away.
I knew there would be a moment where we had to speak to each other but we were both avoiding it. And of course, it did happen. I was with Christine in the middle of making dinner when she gathered everyone, even the kids and talked to us. "So, there is going to be a party in the new capitol to celebrate the beginning of a new era. One where we hope to maintain peace and equality. Everyone is invited and it starts at 9 o'clock in the evening on Saturday. We only have a couple of days to go shopping for nice clothes, shoes..." She got into a frantic hurry and tried to schedule everything so that we could get everything ready by then. "Oh, and the 'President' which is the new public icon of power would like Katniss to make a speech, since she is famous and all, and he would like Peeta to come as well." That's when Katniss and I had a conversation through our eyes. I'm not ready to tell people what happened Katniss glanced. Well, then we'll have to say that he isn't available. I looked back. "Um, Chris? He's dead remember?" I can't believe she forgot.
"Oh my god, your right."
"Katniss isn't ready to tell people what happened. I'll go with her instead. As her best friend." She gave me a suspicious glance and said, "Fine, we can just say that Peeta isn't feeling well so he couldn't make it." Great. Now Katniss and I had to stick together at a party for a few hours. And we can't exactly not speak can we? I didn't think so. And she'll be wearing a gorgeous dress. Damn it, what did I get myself into?
Sorry for the short chapter but i have a lot going on right now. I should really stop making excuses, but what can I say? I'm a lazy person. There will be a longer chapter coming :)