11. Emotions Gone Wild
It took a long time for me to fall asleep. It was a new house, a new bed, and worst of all, Peeta wasn't with me. I laid awake for hours just thinking about him. I cried silently and eventually just got out of bed. Chris let me borrow some her clothes, but a lot of them weren't exactly my taste. Eventually, I settled on a tight green shirt with sleeves down to my elbow and jeans. I grabbed my brown boots and a jacket and left the house.
In District 2, there wasn't much for forests, but there was this small lake with quite a few evergreen trees surrounding it. As I approached the lake, I contemplated my feelings about everything that's happened. Ever since Willow's birthday, everything has just been a blur and I haven't had time to really let what was happening actually soak in. Sure, I grieved when Peeta died but it still never really felt like he was gone. Now, the absence of my mother and Peeta crashed down on me like a wave. Suddenly, I couldn't breathe. My feet collapsed from under me and I fell to the ground. I heard footsteps but I was too much in shock to move. I felt strong arms around me and they pulled me up. Naturally, it was Gale. He set me on a nearby rock and we just sat in silence for a little, because he was just that good at understanding me and leaving me alone when I needed space.
After a few minutes of silence I said, "It's peaceful here. It reminds me of the woods at home."
"Of course it does. That's why you're here. I already knew where to find you." I smiled at him. Then I felt a weird longing feeling in me. It was impossible to describe but that is my only explanation for what happened next. I just leaned forward and kissed Gale. It was sweet but short. He tasted faintly of mint and it felt good. I didn't realize how much I had longed for this. I wanted to go further but I suddenly felt guilty and pulled back, we both stared at each other awkwardly and agreed never to speak of this moment again.