We arrived at Justin's house
"thank you so much. seriously I owe you" I hugged him
"it's no problem. I promise" he chuckled as I got out of the car
"so I'll see you soon?" I said turning back toward the window
"I hope" he smiled
"me too" I smiled "have a good night. good job today by the way"
"text me when you get home so I know you're safe. yanno like you used to"
"of course. now go inside before you get even more soaked"
"I don't think that's possible" I turned around and walked to the door where Justin was already standing at with his arms crossed
he stepped aside so I could walk in
as I was taking my shoes off the questions began
"how long does it take to say goodnight?"
"just like this goodnight"
"don't act like this to me!"
"then how do you want me to fucking act Justin? we never faught! and now that's all we do. I'm just over it!"
"what are you trying to say?"
"I'm not trying to say anything but goodnight"
"don't push me away"
"I'm not the one pushing anyone away. that would be you"
"what do you mean?"
"when Chantel is around, it's like I'm not even there. Justin how the fuck do you think that makes me feel?"
"she might be pregnant with my child"
"yes. I know that. but I'm still your girlfriend. Justin I just want ugh"
I began walking to the steps when he grabbed my arm to turn me around so I was facing him
our eyes looked deep into each others eyes
I was trying to hold back all my tears of anger
"don't push me away" he said again
"I'm not trying to! you're pushing me away"
"whenever Chantel is around"
"I don't try to"
"I'm sure you don't. but she does"
"don't blame this on her"
"here you go defending her again!" I threw my hands in the air
"she's my friend. what am I supposed to do just let you talk shit about her?"
"yeah kinda!" I took a deep breath "Justin do you realize that every fight we've gotten into is because of her?"
"well i don't know what you want me to do"
"do what you think is right"
"I have to think about this"
"you'll have a lot of time to think when I'm gone"
"what do you mean when you're gone?" he walked towards me
"I leave in 4 days"
"to go back home. I have to pack for freshmen orientation for college"
"college? we didn't even talk about it"
"well I didn't think there was anything to talk about"
"yes? you can't just go to college"
"and why is that?"
"I don't know, maybe you're my girlfriend, famous. Megan come on! you can take online courses and stay here with me"
"so you just think I'm going to put my life & my dreams on hold? you've got to be kidding me"
"well I don't know how you were expecting me to react to this?"
"how about fucking supporting me!"
he started running his hands through his hair
"Justin, look at me" I said sternly
he turned so he was facing me & he took my hands and interlaced both of our fingers & rubbed my hands with his thumbs
"I just don't wanna lose you" he said with tears filled up in his eyes
"no. there are gonna be college boys, college parties. what if you become so busy you forget about me? what if I never see you again?"
"is that what you're worried about?" he didn't say anything "yea. there will be college boys, but you're the only boy I want. I'll go to college parties, but I'll go with my girlfriends. I might be busy with studying, but I'll always make time for you. I'll see you on Thanksgiving break, Christmas break, Spring break and any weekend you're free. you can come to the college parties with me"
he picked up my chin with his hand and cupped my face then gently kissed my nose
he said "I love you so much Megan"
"I love you so much Justin"
"let's do something"
"right now? it's like 2 am"
"yes right now"
he took my hand and he got a blanket from the couch and then we walked to the backyard
he laid out the blanket and then laid on it. He patted the spot next to him telling me to lay down next to him, so of course I did
he wrapped his arm around my neck & I scooted closer
It was such a peaceful, perfect moment
my phone dinged
"who texted you?"
I looked at my phone.
"Austin. I told him to text me when he got home, so I knew he was safe"
just got home. It was good seeing you today. goodnight :)
glad you made it home safe, it was good seeing you too! goodnight :)
I turned my phone on silent and put it next to me
"thank you to a perfect ending to the night"
he chuckled "sorry for all the arguing"
"me too" I kissed his jawline
Justin took out his phone & we smiled for a picture
@justinbieber: great way to end the night. laying in the backyard looking at the stars with my beautiful girlfriend :) @meganwilliams
The next morning I woke up in Justin's bed. I guess sometime after we fell asleep watching the stars, he carried me up to bed. what an angel
I sat up & noticed Justin wasn't here
but I spoke to soon
literally seconds later, Justin walked through the door with a tray of food
he set it down on my later & the greeted me with a kiss
"what is this for?"
"It's a sincere apology. I know it doesn't compare to what happened, but I am willing to do whatever it takes to make sure you know how sorry I am. You didn't deserve how I spoke to you, or treated you. I love you so much. I am so sorry"
"thank you" I smiled admiring the food "you made all this?"
"yea" he smiled a little looking down "I hope you like it"
I took a bite of the waffle "this is amazing Justin holy shit"
he let out a little chuckle
After I was showered & changed Justin came into the room
"so Scooter just called me. he wants to have some meeting today, and he wants you to come"
"okay" I smiled
"I thought you hated each other" Justin scrunched his eyebrows
"we did. but we talked a yesterday & we are all good"
he nodded "you ready?"
"mhmm" I unhooked my phone from the charger and grabbed Justin's hand as we walked to his car
"good! you're here" Scooter greeted us with hugs
we walked into this conference room that was in some condo Scooter rented out
It was annoying, the cameras from his reality show got to be in on this whole thing. Every fight & make up. I was over this whole "being filmed thing"
In this conference room was Scooter, Usher, Pattie, Jeremy, Alfredo, Ryan Butler, Ryan Good, Chaz, Dan Kanter, and Me & Justin obviously
We greeted everyone with a hug & then sat down
"So Justin. we have a few things to talk about" Scooter began & Justin nodded
"it has come to my attention, that people you have recently surrounded yourself with are not who you should be associating yourself with"
"what do you mean?"
"Well the one I've really noticed is Chantel"
"here we fucking go again" he threw his hands up in the air
"Justin!" Pattie said
"hear me out" Scooter said sternly. Justin rolled his eyes but nodded indicating Scooter to continue
"when I met her in Panama, she was very nice. You have what seems to be a good friendship. But I cannot help but to be concerned about the things she brings you into"
"She got you smoking again. when you are with her, you party very hard & make bad decisions. such as a sex tape that she is threatening you with"
It broke my heart to know he was smoking again. he hadn't even told me that..
"woah woah woah. we never made a sex tape"
Scooter pointed to the monitor & then turned on a little clip. It was absolutely disgusting to see my boyfriend having sex with someone else. especially her. I wanted nothing to do with this meeting anymore
Pattie on the other hand looks like she was going to faint. I can't imagine what she could possibly be able to feel right now.. probably heart broken
"Justin. you have 2 sex tapes that I know about that are out there. One with Selena, and the other with Chantel. It's not that I don't like Chantel, I just feel like she's a very bad influence on you"
"well you're gonna have to get used to her"
"and why is that?"
"it might be mine"
and that's when it happened. Pattie threw up all over the table
She must be so hurt. I don't know what her opinions of Chantel are, but I can see they must not be very good.
I honestly felt terrible, but I knew there was nothing I could do.
Justin was in this hole that he dug for himself
While they were all cleaning up the puke, my phone rang so I answered. It was Johnathon
"are you busy right now?"
"I'm at a meeting with Justin, but it should be over soon. why what's up?"
"I was wondering if I could meet with you tonight or something so we could discuss the last things about your album, before you head out to college and if you'd be up to an interview tomorrow? "
"oh sure! we can go to dinner or something!"
"okay. I'll make reservations & text you with the details"
"sounds good. see you later"
"who was that?" Justin came around the corner
"Johnathon. he wants to have dinner tonight to discuss the latest on my album"
"I'm so excited for you"
"thank you" I smiled
We went to a different room to finish the meeting
"so. how sure are you that this is your kid?" scooter asked
"truthfully. I don't know"
Scooter took a deep breath and rubbed his forehead "so what do you want to do?"
"I of course want to be apart of it's life. I mean that's my kid"
"and if it's not?"
"then it's not"
"are you planning on being with her for 9 months & then when the kid is born doing a DNA test or like what's your plan?" Alfredo asked
"i'm not going to be with her in the dating circumstances. I will be there for her and obviously be supportive. After the kid is born, do a DNA test, and if it's mine, it's mine & I'll be there for the kid forever & if it's not. it's not"
"Justin she's using you!" Ryan butler said
"yea bro, she's a model. why the fuck would she ruin her career unless she planned to have your kid & she knows you'll be dedicated to it, she will get so much more money, from you & the media for having Justin Bieber's kid" Chaz agreed
"so what the fuck do you want me to do? abandon the kid & her and get that rep?"
"are you even positive she''s even pregnant?" Alfredo asked
"well she said she was"
After what took way longer than it should have, we finally finished the meeting.
Scooter is going to talk to Chantel's manager and see if there will be some way to work this out without ruining one or both of their careers.
I hope they can work this out. Justin has worked way to hard to let it all go
I went to meet with Johnathon at this beautiful restaurant. Justin & I had come here before. It was just so beautiful here
After we ordered our food we began discussing all the last minute details
I was so happy with how my album turned out
I am going to have an interview with Ellen tomorrow. She is actually going to be in LA, so I won't have to fly which saves a lot of time
"and she wants you to perform"
"which song am I going to do?"
"well I was thinking the one you wrote about Austin"
"I wanted to talk to you about that"
"what about it?"
"Well, uhm I was wondering if we didn't have to publish it"
"and why is that?"
"well Austin has recently come back into my life"
"and you don't want him to leave"
"I will talk to the record company. but the album is coming out in a week. I really don't know if we'll have time to take it off"
We finished up dinner
"I will see you tomorrow"
"sounds good" I hugged him
we took a picture
@johnathonrichardson: be sure to catch @meganwilliams on Ellen tomorrow!! she will be announcing the release date of her album #MYHEART and performing a never heard before song!!!! so proud of you!
I got into the car and banged my head against the steering wheel, because the truth was eating me alive.
I will always have feelings for Austin