After being stared at for about an hour we finally finished our food and left. We walked down the street just walking through town not knowing really what to do. We didn't really wanna go home yet. Well they didn't I did because I really wanted to charge my phone.
"God dammit." I said loudly stopping on the sidewalk.
"Kara? What's the problem?" Luke said as the guys turned around.
"I left my charger at my house. And you all have a different kind of phone then me." I groaned.
"Can't we just go and buy a new one at an electronics store or something?" Luke suggested.
"Luke that would be a great idea if I even had money. I guess I'll just go without a phone for a bit longer I guess." I sighed continuing to walk.
"So Kara what's the plan from here?" Michael asked.
"I don't really know. I guess we could go back to Calum's. I don't really care." I said.
"Yeah can we go back I think I would enjoy a shower." Calum said.
"Ok let's go." I said turning around.
Soon enough we got to Calum's. Calum wanted to be the first one in the shower. And I said I'd shower last so I just waited. I told the guys I was going to change in Calum's room but all I really did was lie in his bed and stare at his ceiling.
While I was staring at the ceiling I realized I couldn't keep living like this. Don't get me wrong living with Calum and hanging out with the guys all the time was great but, I couldn't live here knowing that my parents are always going to be looking for me and to get the guys. I just felt like I was in a hole and it kept getting deeper and deeper the longer this went on. I needed out. But I didn't know how. After a while I heard a knock on the door. Michael walked in with his hair still wet.
"Hey Kara it's your turn in the shower." Then he saw my expression and walked in the room closing the door behind him. "Hey are you ok?" He asked.
"Ya I'm fine. Just thinking." I said getting off the bed.
"You sure you had a really deep thought expression on your face." He said.
"Yeah just thinking about random stuff that's not really important." I said grabbing a fresh change of clothes.
"Ok the guys and I were going to go out just to do something fun. Wanna come?" He asked.
"No I think I'll stay here and just chill." I said.
"Do you want one of us to stay here with you?" He asked. Jeez it's like they think I'm five.
"Michael I'm not five I can handle being alone by myself." I chuckled.
"Sorry just wondering. We might be gone when you come out of the shower just thought you should know so you don't worry when you get out." He said.
"Ok see you later then." I said walking out of the bedroom and walking into the bathroom.
After the shower I got out and the guys were gone. I went and sat on the couch wondering what I should do. After a while I went to the bookshelf Calum's family owns and grabbed the first book I saw. I read the cover and the book was called Speak by Laurie Halse Anderson. I didn't really know what it was about and I didn't really want to read the back so I just started to read.
About an hour later I was about half way done the book and I was in love with it. So far it's about this girl who becomes depressed when something happened to her at a party and it was just amazing. I soon realized I was thirsty so I grabbed a random piece of paper and put the book on the couch and went into the kitchen.
Once I had put the book down I realized it had distracted me from my earlier thoughts of getting out. As I poured myself a glass of water I realized that the only way I felt was the best way of getting out was running away. And I realized that this time I'm going to stay lost because I need to stay lost. I need to get out for me but especially for everyone else.
I didn't want o keep thinking about it so I quickly went back to reading my book. By the time I had finished the book the guys were walking through the door. I realized I had to tell them now or I was just going to get up and leave. I took a deep breath and stood up.
"Hey guys I think we need to have a talk." I said trying to not sound upset.