16. To recognize and forgive
On Sunday I woke up early and I took a shower. I didn't know if I would go home to Niall or wait for him in my home. I was insecure and I felt nervous. Still, I wanted to talk to him and check after what he wanted. I chose a simple dress and I put no energy on how I looked. I couldn't, and was just inside all the thoughts that spun around.
I made it down to the kitchen before I saw how mom flinch. She was standing by the dishwasher and peered out the window.
I became nervous.
"What should I say?"
She laughed and looked at me.
"Go up to your room, so I send him up?"
I nodded and ran up my room. I was inside the door and then I heard the doorbell rang.
I sat down at the desk and took out a book. It seemed obvious that I was reading on a Sunday, but at the same time it felt silly. I heard Nialls voice and I heard him coming up the stairs. I was shaking and I was nervous.
I just wanted to cry, but I managed to keep my cool. He came in and I saw his curious eyes peeping into my room.
I wanted to throw myself over him, but I chose to remain still.
He smiled weakly and closed the door behind him. Then he pressed his hands in his pockets and looked at me.
"So are you studying?"
I nodded and swallowed. He laughed a little bit and looked at the book.
"That was last week's test?"
I realized that he had realized that I wasn't busy. I blushed and put away the book.
"So what do you want?"
He looked around and chose to sit on my bed.
"I spoke yesterday with Eleanor and I realized that maybe I should have told you about Louis before all this happen."
I looked at him and wondered what he would talk about. Niall looked down at the floor and then he looked at me again.
"You know why I'm such a coward when it comes to girls and that stuff?"
I shook my head. He smiled and continued.
"Every time I got a girl to like me, will always Louis or Harry come between. They take the girls away from me, leaving me alone behind. It happens every time, but I thought you were different."
I blushed and looked down at my hands.
"I'm no different."
He laughed a little bit.
"Not when it comes to them, but I spent all night thinking about you."
I wanted to ask him to stop, but I chose to let him continue. He blushed slightly and took out his hands out of his pockets.
"I guess everyone had high thoughts about you and I thought maybe that Louis would drop you." he swallowed. "I thought he'd lay off and realize that I was something that girls want."
I just wanted to hug him.
"So you're still friends with them even if they treat you like crap?"
"I find it hard to make friends, real friends and I guess I'm as guilty as you are. I've just let them be, but I will stop with that now." he looked at me. "That's why I'm here."
I was startled and realized that he had a plan.
Niall smiled weakly.
"If you promise with all your heart to put down everything associated with Louis."
"How do you mean?"
He laughed a little bit.
"Emma, you know I love you and you love me. Your mom said she understands that you made a mistake and I realize that you are too valuable to let go."
"So you still want me?"
"But only if you stop to flirt with Louis."
"I didn't flirted with him."
Niall laughed a little bit.
"Maybe not, but you get to make an end with him."
I don't know what happened in my room that morning. I was blown away over that Niall was ready to take me back and I was surprised how easily he did it. I didn't tell him that I had had sex with Louis, but Niall had already guessed that part.
When evening came, I sent a text message to Louis.
//It's all over! I don't want anything to do with you any more and forget that you get to poke at me again. I don't even want to talk to you one more time. So stay away.//