We were told Jess had depression from all the hate and what happened to her sister. She wasn't completely healed from her sister when she started getting bad pictures and messages.
One night we were on the bus, she was asleep and I was still up watching TV. We were on our way to a new city. This was near the end of the tour. She was kicking and turning in her sleep, I remember rubbing her back but she woke up screaming.
"Jess is everything ok?!" I know she had a bad dream, I took her in my arms and stroked her back and hair.
"I had a b--nightmare."
I cupped my hands on her cheeks.
"Want to tell me about it.." she was breathless, sweating "Take it easy, breathe."
"You can't even call it a bad dream. It was a nightmare. We were walking from your dance studio to the car. Kenny was with us, there was a crowd. About the size at the mall...you were trying to say hi to everyone but you couldn't...A girl out of the crowd grabbed me from you and pushed me to the ground" she was sobbing, my chest getting wet from her tears, "she beat me, and the worst part is you didn't notice, you were rushed into the SUV you couldn't save me. She just beat me and beat me and beat me until I wasn't alive anymore. I was standing over my body watching you drive away and her still beat me."
That was the night when it clicked that could really happen. I kept Jess close, I never let her out of my sight. I made sure she had more protection than me. Things were getting better, she continued to take her meds and visit her mother every now and again. Everything was fine.
"So, Justin, is this about the time when you went on my show for the first time and we interviewed you."
"Yes ma'am it is."
"Okay, now I remember after that you and Jess split up, is that correct?"
"Yes ma'am and that was the hardest time of my life. Jess went back home to get help. We help fund the doctor trips. Jess didn't know that we were helping but her mother was grateful. "
"Now about five months later you publicly came out and said you were back together correct?"
"Yes ma'am. Our first appearance as a couple after the five months was the Teen Choice Awards. I made sure no one knew about about it except for close friends and family."
"And how were things after that?"
"Umm, they were better, honestly they were. She knew how to control her actions. I didn't see anymore cuts and she was still taking her meds daily. We were going steady."
"That's fantastic. Now Jess began getting deals with buisnesses about advertising correct?"
"Yes, she did adds for different places and she was honest with those. She agreed that she would never advertise anything she didn't agree with or didn't like. She was always very honest and positive. She then began getting negative comments again. I found a couple I'm going to read if that's ok?"
"Sure Justin go ahead."
"Ok, well I'm not going to say the accounts but the first one said, "You are such a dirty whore, you only get popular cus your dating Justin." another one said 'Why are you dating our king you nasty P.O.S.' the last one I will provide is 'You should just go cut a little deeper, apparently it didn't work the first time. Stay away from my man dirty bitch.' And that was just the start."
"That last one was appauling."
"And people get away with it is the worst part of it. My beliebers need to know I will always love them, there is a part of my heart that is always for them, 100%, but there i another part for my girlfriend, wife, whatever. My beliebers will NEVER be replaced. However, I want to be happy, and this doesn't make me happy."
sorry this chapter is kind of boring
however i got an idea so here it is
im trying to keep writing for you guys
b/c i dont just want to end the book
hope you guys are well
dont forget to COMMENT LIKE and FAVORITE
and check out TROUBLE my other movella
i love you guys
<3 <3 <3