18. It's all gone
Everything went faster then the doctors thought. I'm cancer free!!!!
I never thought I would get to say that. I know that I should be happy, but I aren't...
I can't stop thinking about the others, who didn't survive. Why me? I once believed there was a god. But not anymore. If there truly is a god, how can he just let all those people die? How can he let us consume by the darkness we have made?
I don't understand, and I never will. But how can he not care, how can he be so souls loose? He gave us emotions, so he should have them to. So he understands how we feel. Now I understand, how people can be so cruel. We got it from him. He made us, so we where already doomed the day he created us.
I know I can't make a different, but I will try. I have a plan now, and I'm not gonna give up.
I love you all