Well... let me tell you something.
Many things happened, and I can't write it... the exam is there and I have to study blah blah blah. But now it's over!! And now I could tell you things...
First. I get a new nickname. Psychopath. -_- I know, I know, it's worst. Fortunately I wasn't the first person with that tittle. There is this girl, N, she is the first one with that tittle. So, I assured myself that it's okay because I'm psychopath 'junior' and she's psychopath 'senior'.
Well, that's pretty boring.
Maybe you're wondering who is the freak? Maybe your answer is right... it's him.
Actually, this happen long times ago, but I'm unsure to write it out or no... but now I know that it's okay. Well.. I know maybe you're wondering why he become 'the freak'. Let me tell you why.
I don't know where or when, but this nasty rumors spread through the whole class. And when I heard about it, I'm shocked to my core. The first thought in my head is, 'I do the very same thing like you..'
I don't know if this is true or not, but I think it is. So I just kept quiet and commenting at the right time, while thinking that if my friends know, it will make me a freak too.
I really remember this one time when me, S.D, and A is walking to S.D's place... (SD is at the same class with him)
A : He's a total freak. I mean, why would he do that? He's weird. He just count on his look. (mixture of facial expression)
SD: You're right. He is weird. (disgusted looks)
Me: (a little bit acting) Yeah, he's weird! (looks down and crushing some dry leaf)
I remember it so vividly. And I remember when I things get nasty and he gots detention...
SD: He, R, E, Z, and Y got called by the teacher.
Me: (shocked) Why?
SD: They almost fight with other school.
A : (sad face)
Uh... I never mentioned A's crush.. right? Okay. A's crush is E. Well... he's now her bf. sigh. And SD's crush, R, is there too. And mine too.
Oh, I remember this one... it's at SD's place.
A : He gave me this again!!! (holding up a piece of paper with some hand-made draw and their birthday's date and some 'I love you'.)
SD: (acting like crying) Owhh... I hope I had fb like you do!! K is just like that way, this way... (btw SD already have bf. She is like that ever since I know her)
Me: (dry laugh) Haha... and I don't even have a hung to talk about.
A : Then go get a bf.
Me: (in heart) I already crushing..
I'm so tempted to tell them. But I think I has trust issues.
It started at second grade. Me and U is playing under the table, and we were asking about stuff. And this one isn't serious guys, we we're little kids...
U : Do you know? I like this guy called ... (I forgot).
Me: I like this guy ... (I forgot too).
U : I have one secret guy I like. And I won't share it. (:p)
Me: Oh please.. I will tell you mine too. (I'm so stupid this time)
U : Okay. I like ... too.
Me: I like ...
U : I will tell the others!
Me: I will tell them yours too.
U : But none of mine is at the school. They won't get it.
Me: (damn you face)
And that leads to the bullying I had. This one start from second grade to fourth grade. And ever since then I never tell anyone who I liked... at least people at my school. I have something is my mind that kept believing if I told them, I get doomed. And he got the name 'freak' too. And my time here at school almost end.
So.. so far that's for today. I'm writing this at 23.22... so sleepy. Good bye.