Sigh. Two days. There is just TWO MORE chance to see HIM. Other than that, it's just my luck. And I'll tell you, my luck isn't siding with me.
Tomorrow is a big chance. And then the next day after tomorrow is a PERFECT chance. He'll be there, I have no doubt about it. But the only chance to steal glance at him without 99.99% of being caught is tomorrow. Tomorrow, if he's there, and he's around, and no one watching, I could steal glances. It's creepy, I know.
Okay. That's it. Except that I'm very possessive of my own things. I can't stand seeing my own family took my iPod and use it. And I almost cry when my brother took out my old violin (I play violin back then) and start to play it. It went horrible. So I snatch the violin from his hand and try to teach him. That's impossible. And then when I'm searching for the guide to play violin, I found an old book. I can't believe my father out his book at my bag. Sigh.
Okay. That's enough of today (22 June '14) and I'm going to sleep.
23 June '14
Today is the first chance of two. And HE'S THERE!! Okay, so my friends and I practicing our performance, and then he's watching with his friend. WATCHING. I'm extremely nervous that time. Fortunately I didn't do any mistake. When he's sort of playing around with my friends, I try to come along smoothly. Not looking too desperate and not looking uninterested. But not looking like a stalker too. OMG I think I'm really nervous. I can't hide my nervousness.
Okay. But that's for this day, and bye!
24 June '14
The last day. The L.A.S.T day. All along the day and before this day, all my friends fill the 'Timeline' at LINE with sad songs and 'good byes'. Me? I only say 'I would say 'see you soon''. That's it. OMG I think I'm broken. :'(
BUT my friends have an emergency plan. So, Y, U, A, and I are going to our favorite foodpark near a meadow, and then we'll go to Y's house. All of it went well, and I love the food. And then at Y's house, all of us is going to have sleepover. And then a bell rang in my head. I have a celebration dinner with my family at House of Balcony!
I excuse myself, and I didn't have a sleepover at Y's. I ate at House of Balcony until I can't eat anymore and then I go home and sleep.
05. 05 AM / 25 June '14
I woke up at the sound of 'Paradise' by Coldplay. It's my morning alarm. I felt the excitement of practicing for today, and then I remembered it's all over now. And then I cry. I open LINE and looking at all the Timelines and still crying. I'm relieved I remember the dinner at House of Balcony, that my friends couldn't see me crying like this. I update my "What's Up?" into something sad, and then I spent my time chatting with my already woken up friends.
I start to woke up completely and start thinking that my breakdown is childish. And then I update my "What's Up?" into 'Emotion Rollercoaster'. I don't know what I'm feeling.
My friends are coming to my house so we could go to Happy Puppy. Well... all of it went well.
Well, you see for yourself that I've go through hard time. And I think this is the end of 'Obsessed'.
So... see you later, and I'm sorry if this story is disturbing you, or my language is offensive to you.