1. Hi, I'm Kaya.
Dreaming about the first time they're gonna meet is ruining Kayas sleep... She wakes up in the middle of the night because she's feeling her way around the bed, but no one is there, obviously. She does this multiple times during a night... A few nights ago she dreamt about having him right there, next to her and her parents loved him. Sadly, that's not the truth.
Hi, my name is Kaya and I'm in love with a guy who lives way too far away from me... I'm 17 years old at the moment, but when I turn 18, I'll have the money to go to America. Wisconsin, to be exact. Especially my mom disapproves of me meeting him. But when I'm 18 she can't say anything, I'm legal when I'm 18 due to the Danish laws. She can tell me it's not a good idea, but can't stop me. And nothing is going to stop me. I wake up in the middle of the night, a lot. In my brain and heart, we're together, but not in real life. It's so damn hard to know that I'm in love with this guy, but still, I'm not with him.. We've known each other for 6 years, since we met on a chat that I downloaded to get some more foreign friends, a lot of pervs were on the chat, but then this guy, named Tony, came along. We could chat for hours and soon we videochatted, all the time!
Sometimes I dream about how it's going to be when I meet him. If I'm really in love with him.. My life has just been such a huge mess that I never know if I'm actually in love with a person or if I just really need the comfort of someone always being there. Tony is a perfect example of a person always being there. No one has ever been there as much as he has, even though I've turned him down a few times he's still there which really surprises me.
Tomorrow it's my 18th birthday and omg! I can't wait until it's June so I can go to Wisconsin to meet him! FINALLY!