"What? Why?" Niall questioned full of concern.
"It doesn't matter." I sighed.
"Well obviously it does.." Niall mumbled. "Just tell me!"
"Things aren't the same! Not between you and I, not between me and the others! Whats the point of staying.." I whispered the last part.
"Because were here! That's why! Were more like family than you're parents, Autumn! You know that."
"Why do you even care? You'll be gone on tour and when you'll be home you'll be with your girlfriend the whole time!"
"I'll always have time for you.." Niall looked down at me.
"Maybe that's the problem.. Maybe we shouldn't see each other at all." I sighed standing up and walking off the dock.
"But.. W-Why?" Niall asked. I could hear his footsteps behind me on the dock then they stopped when he hit the grass right next to me.
"Because Ni!" I felt awkward for using his old nickname but it just came out. "It hurts! Just hearing your name kills me inside which is nothing compared to seeing you!" I cried out.
"You don't understand how it feels to be madly in love with someone who you think you'd spend your life with, and then the whole thing be completely over in a matter of seconds! And then that person come back 2 years later and act like nothing happened!"
"Just go back inside.. Please just forget what I even said. It's nothing. I have a lovely boyfriend who I love and am thankful for." I said not facing him.
"Okay.." He whispered before I could hear him walk away and the door to the house creak open and then close, signaling that he went inside. As soon as I heard the door close I ran up to the small gravel road surrounded by trees. It was dark, the only light coming from the crescent moon in the sky. I was on a mission to find my destination.
I walked down the gravel road for about 10 minutes and took a couple short cuts through the woods. I was too upset and had too much on my mind to be scared.
I finally reached it. I walked to the cliff edge that Luke showed me the last time we stayed here. I sat down, careful not to get too close to the end. I looked down and remembered the beautiful waterfall. The sound of it was calming. I laid back on the cold stone of the cliff and stared up at the sky, praying to see a shooting star. Yeah, call me old fashioned, but I still think their good luck.. Which I could really use about now.
I thought about Justin and all the good times we've had and have still to come.. Maybe I do have a future with him. I closed my eyes and for one minute, all my problems disappeared.
I walked back inside the pitch black house. Ashley is probably still in my bed and I don't feel like sleeping with her. I creeped over to the couch and laid down with only my thoughts keeping me awake.
"I don't know if I can do it.. I need her. I wanted to run over and kiss her and tell her that I love her! I wanted to get on my knees and beg her to take me back. I wanted to express my love for her and tell her how much I needed her to stay and not move away.. But I can't."