I watched Niall awkwardly walk in with a huge bouquet of multicolored roses, daisies, and tulips. The nurse patted him on the back and walked out, as if to say 'I'll leave you two alone.'
"These.. Uhh, they're for you." He said setting the flowers on the end of my bed and scratching the back of his neck.
"Thanks.. They're beautiful." I smiled picking them up in my arms and looking at all the flowers.
"How ya feel?" He asked biting his lip and sitting down in the chair next to the bed that the nurse was previously just sitting in. He looks tired.. I wonder if he's gotten any sleep.
"Fine. How bout' you? You look tired.." I said setting the flowers back down and looking at his charming tired looking face. He has dark circles under his eyes.. They make his blue eyes pop even more.. What am I saying?
"I slept on that couch in the waiting room.. Not very comfy.." He chuckled awkwardly. Just as I feared, the awkwardness has set in between Niall and I.
"Yeah I've slept on it before.. Not comfy at all." I sighed looking away from him and staring out the window. I could see cars passing by on the street down below and fans all crowded on the sidewalk. I didn't realize how far up I was.. This has to be the highest floor.
We sat there in silence for a minute. It wasn't the nice silence it was the awkward kind of silence. We have so much we need to talk about but neither of us know how to start it or what to say.
"Autumn.. You're truly my hero." He said wiping away a loose tear.
"Why..? All I did was what was best." I whined instantly feeling the shooting pain in my stomach. Ouch! I forgot about the severe bruising there.
"Because you're the person people would kill to be. The person people look up too, not for being a singer or dancer or famous. People look up to you for being the person that you are. You put others first whether you know them or not, you're trustworthy, you're honest, you can do anything you put your mind to, and your still strong after all you've been through! All I've put you through! You're my hero." His voice spoke rough like he was about to burst out into tears.. He just put me into tears.
I stood up and gave him a tight hug wrapping my arms around him and pulling him close. "Thank you, Niall." I sniffled.
"We have a lot to talk about.." He sighed rubbing circles on my back with his palm.
"Let's wait until we get home.." I said pulling away from him. "I'm gonna go sign the release papers cause just being in this f**king prison of a hospital is making me sick." I groaned making Niall laugh at my choice of words.
"Wait, I brought you some stuff you may need.. I doubt you wanna walk out wearing that hospital gown." He said pulling stuff out of his bag. He pulled out yoga pants, one of my old tshirts, a brush, and a ponytail holder.
"Thank you so much.." I'm so thankful for him. I started to walk out the door but he stopped me.
"Love the hello kitty undies." Niall's voice spoke from behind me. I could already picture the smirk on his face.. I turned around slowly to see exactly what I pictured.
"You could've told me earlier that people could see my underwear.." I chuckled blushing a deep shade of red.
"They're cute.. Just change in here. I'll leave." He said and I nodded. He walked out of the room and I changed into the clothes he brought me and threw my hair up into a messy bun.
I grabbed the lovely flowers and met him out in the hallway and to my surprise Niall signed the release papers, so I was free to go. We made our way out to his black range rover and were finally on our way home. Thankfully, the fans didn't mob us. They must finally respect our personal space.
I walked up to a Niall and I's shared bedroom. Everything was just how I left it.. Some stuff was packed up, some stuff was laying everywhere waiting to be packed. I looked around and sighed. What am I going to do? I heard the door creak open behind me.. I looked over to see Niall walking in.
"I think we should talk now.. We can't put it off anymore.." Niall said sitting down on the bed.
"Yeah.. I guess." I replied sitting down on the floor.
"So what happens from here..?" Niall asked worriedly. He grabbed a pillow and hugged his chest with it.
"I honestly don't know.. You know I love you more than anything.. But-"
"But.. The most dreadful word in history." He sighed ruffling his hair with his hand, making my heart melt.
I sighed. "I can't do it anymore.. This isn't like one of those fairytales where everything ends perfectly.. We've both screwed up quite a few times.. It's not fair to either of us." I said pulling my knees to my chest and glancing around at all my things scattered across the room.
"I understand.." He said pulling at the ends of his blondish brunette hair. That's one of the things he does when he's nervous, I only know about it. "I got released from my contract.." He said after the first round of silence.
"You- you did?" I asked, taken aback by what he just told me. He nodded.
"I originally came to win you back.. Doesn't look like my chances are too well." He whispered and I shook my head.
"Let's just give each other some space and if we still are willing to try again, then we will. I'm going home for a week and when I get back, we'll see." I gave him a small smile and he nodded as to say 'fair enough.'
"You know, Autumn.. Real feelings don't just go away." He said looking at me from across the room with his bright blue eyes.
"That's what I thought too, until it happened to somebody close to me." I sighed. It's him I'm talking about.. He doubted his feelings for me.. He didn't think he loved me anymore.
"You know I love you." He said more as a question instead of a basic fact.
"I know.. I'm just unsure of it." I said finishing up my packing. I'm just going to stay here and catch my flight to the states early in the morning. I won't tell Niall what time or even when I'm leaving.
We stayed silent to end the conversation. I guess I should go through my phone and read all the text messages and listen to the voicemails. I grabbed my phone off of the charger and listened to my voicemails first. Most of them were from my parents saying to call them back or else, or from one of the guys asking if I was ok, finally the last one was from.. Brandon? How could I forget about him! I pressed the call back button and waited for him to answer.
"Autumn! I've been trying to get a hold of you for days! Are you okay? Did you get hurt? What's going on??" He let out quickly leaving him out of breath.
"Sorry.. I kinda just about got murdered." I chuckled at his gasp of a reaction.
"Are you okay??" He practically yelled into the phone.
"Yes, I'm fine!"
"My god! What's wrong with you?" He laughed.
"I don't know! Well anyway-" I looked around to make sure Niall wasn't anywhere near. "I'm flying back home in the morning and staying there for a week. I can already feel the sand on the beach." I bragged just to annoy him.
"Can I come!? I'd love to meet your family and I'm up for a little vacation." He chuckled.
"Sure, why not. The flights at 7am tomorrow. I'll meet you at the airport?" I asked.
"Sure! See you in the morning beyotchhh!" He yelled making me pull my phone away from my ear so my eardrums didn't burst.
"Bye, duck face!" I hung up stifling my laughter.
This should be a nice little vacation just to get away from everything.. The only thing I'm going to miss is Niall.. His words aren't leaving my mind.. "Real feelings don't just go away" Exactly how true is that?