I couldn't take it anymore! I'm tired of everything.. I ran until I got to the cliff that I went to last time. I hunched over and tried to catch my breath. I didn't realize I was crying until I felt a tear fall onto my arm.
This is all too much for me! Why can't I be happy..? Why is the world against me..? I pulled my knees up to my chest and wiped my tears away.
I like Justin.. Not enough to marry him. Maybe if we were together a little longer and he proved that he loved me.. But he didn't. He was only a distraction for me.
It was quieter than usual.. Not in a bad way though. It calmed me down. Suddenly I heard footsteps behind me. I turned around quickly to see Niall there. I didn't feel like speaking, well I guess I just didn't know what to say..
He sat next to me with his legs crossed. We sat in silence until Niall finally spoke up.
"I'm so sorry.." He whispered.
"I can't do it anymore Niall.. I can't." I cried.
"You can't do what..?"
"Be in pain constantly. I've been in pain for 2 whole years.. No matter what I do, I can't shake you out of my head."
"That wasn't supposed to happen.. The point of me leaving was supposed to help you move on, and be happy. I was afraid I'd hurt you again.."
"I didn't know what I did to make you leave me. I just thought I wasn't good enough anymore.. It killed me inside." I cried out.
"Autumn.. That wasn't it at all. You're too good for me. You didn't deserve all the stuff I put you through."
"I didn't care Niall! All of that hurt less than you breaking the engagement and leaving me!"
"I'm so sorry. I thought it was the b-best for you." Niall stuttered.
I glanced at him and saw that he was crying. He had endless amount of tears falling freely from his eyes.. Just like I did.
"Just being away from you made it worse." I sighed.
"Do you think it was any easier on me!? Letting the person you love the most go, just so they could be happy!
"Well look where that got us, Niall!" I felt bad after I said it.. But it's the truth. "I'm sorry.. I just don't know what to do."
"Tell me you love me.." Niall whispered while putting his finger under my chin and tilting my head up to make me look in his eyes.
At that moment he kissed me. Not just a regular kiss, a kiss filled with passion. I missed the feel of his lips on mine.. The feel of his hands running through my hair. I missed the sparks of just his simple touch.
"Do we still have a chance..?" He whispered after pulling away from my lips and staying inches away from my face.
"You tell me." I whispered looking at his lips.
"I want you.. So bad.." He spoke softly before crashing his lips onto mine again. Let's just say, things got carried away soon.
The dark stone of the cliff was cold on my bare back. It felt good though since my body was warm. I looked at Niall and put my head on his bare chest.
"So things should be back to normal between us..?" Niall asked drawing circles with his finger above my collar bone.
"We'll see." I smiled.