I drug my sharp middle finger from my elbow to my wrist on the inside. I did that repetitively. "You should be dead." I growled to myself. "You're a monster. An ugly, fat, stupid monster."
Those were such simple words! I could never truly express how terrible of a.... thing....I am. I sighed as I continued to harm myself.
"No one will ever love you." I muttered. "Why would they? Look at yourself! No, don't. You''l be blinded by hideousness. Since when do you care? You're gonna kill yourself any day."
I had on my headphones, with the volume at its maximum with two songs on repeat. Both by Imagine Dragons, Monster and Demons. I hated that the described me so much.
"Damn it, that's it." I spit. I started walking faster, my head to the ground.
Not even ten steps later, I had walked int someone. "I am so sorry." I gasped
I looked up and saw these piercing emerald green eyes and thick brown curls. I gasped again. "H-h-Harry?"
I pulled out my phone and turned off the life describing songs. "You're Harry Styles, aren't you?" I asked again
He looked at me once more. "Would you scream if I was?"
"No. I'd probably just ask two simple questions.....no. I'd probably just yell at myself for even becoming a damned Directioner and falling in love with that stupid Tomlinson kid and walk away before you could think twice about me."
"Then....." he trailed off, unsure of what to say because of my answer.
"Are you him or not? That's all I'm asking."
He sighed. "Yes."
"Okay." I nodded. I looked at him, but couldn't keep my gaze set on his eyes. My eyes trailed down his body to soon get to the ground. But I saw his shirt was a button down, and some of his skin was showing. I saw black ink and a smile curled onto my lips.
"What?" he asked, smiling
I slapped myself, right in front of the famous celebrity. I was furious with myself. "How dare you fall back into that trap again." I growled to myself
"Are you talking to yourself?" he asked. He heard my voice, but not my words. Thank God.
"Yes. You can talk to yourself, just don't answer yourself back." I smiled, quoting one of his tweets. I then, without thinking, slapped myself again.
I was so mad at myself for remembering this. "Wait...are you a Directioner or not? And, Love, why are you slapping yourself?"
The fangirl in me blushed because he called me, "Love." But the monster in me fought back.
"Just, please." I managed. I raised my arms and my sweatshirt's sleeves feel down to my elbows. I gasped, for my scars were showing. "Oh my chapstick."
He saw them. "Love...."
I couldn't think. So, out of pure shock, I took his hand and ran into the nearest dark alley.