my first night in the Tomlinson household wasn't as bad as i had imagined. Lottie gave me some of her clothes to wear until I get money to buy some of my own. me and her are sharing a room whilst I'm stuck here, but Lottie has been super nice to me so it wont be that bad. i haven't seen Louis, Fizzy, Daisy or Phoebe yet, though.
Lottie yell asleep about an hour ago, leaving me alone with my thoughts since i cant sleep. i decide to get a drink of water. i silently get out of the spare bed in Lottie's room and open her bedroom door. i sneak down the stairs and find my way to the kitchen. i grab a glass from the cupboard and fill it was water.
i hear a keys rattling and the front door opening. a second later the kitchen light comes on and i turn around, only to be faced with Louis.
"what the fuck are you doing in my house?!" he yells.
I'm struggling for an answer, but am luckily saved by Johanna and Dean walking down the stairs.
"what's going on?" Johanna asks.
"mum, why is she here?" Louis says, pointing a finger towards me.
"Louis, don't be so rude! Jena and Dean are here because there was a fire at their house and they had no where else to go so i invited them here." she says.
Louis gives me a disgusted look before he yells "I'm going back to Niall's house." and then walks back outside.
"c'mon Jen, go back to bed" Dean says.
i follow them back upstairs until they walk into Johanna's room. i quietly sneak back into Lottie's room and sit down on the spare bed in the corner of the room. i sit with my back against the wooden headboard and my knees brought up to my chest, my arms wrapping around them.
Why does he hate me so much? What happened to the days where we thought we'd always be friends? Without noticing a small tear escapes my eye and roles down my cheek.
Hours pass and i don't move from my place. i don't realise its morning until Lottie rises from the bed and looks at me.
"are you okay, Jena?" she asks.
i wipe my cheeks dry, look at her, and say "yeah, I'm fine."
"well, Mums probably making breakfast, why don't you pick something out from the closet and come down to the kitchen."
i say okay and then she leaves the room, still wearing her pink and white Hello Kitty pyjamas. i stand up from the bed and walk towards Lottie built-in closet. i open the door and am faced with about a million different shirts, shorts, jumpers, and jeans.
i look for the biggest jumper she has, which unfortunately, is a size too small. i continue looking through Lottie's closet trying to find something that will cover all my body, but she only has skinny jeans, crop-tops and short shorts.
i'm starting to think i'm fucked before i realise Louis might have some clothes. surely he wont mind if i take some of his, will he? who am i kidding? its Louis. of course he'll mind. my subconscious says.
i argue with myself about weather or not i should borrow something of his, when Johanna's voice interrupts me.
"Jena, are you going to be long? your food will get cold" she shouts.
"I'll be down in a minute" i shout back.
i quickly sneak into Louis' room and go towards his closet. i open in and find a taped up picture of a girl in a bikini. ugh, he's disgusting. i search through his clothes and hear something drop. i look around at my feet and notice a piece of folded up paper. i pick it up and unfold it, revealing a small photo.
there's a little girl with 2 pigtails in her hair, sitting next to a small boy, both grinning widely, with there arms interlocked in each others. It's hard to believe that i used to smile like that. i don't notice im crying until the first tear hits the photo.
heck, i don't even notice Lottie standing right behind me until she speaks, "are you alright?"
the sound of her voice makes me jump and i turn to face her. "yeah, everythings fine" i say, wiping both my cheeks.
"I know I'm not a therapist or anything, but last time i checked, when someone's crying there normally not okay. do you want to talk about it?"
i shake my head softly and say "no, its fine."
"I know Louis can be bit of a dick sometimes, but he wouldn't do this for no reason."
"I'd feel so much better if i know why."
"I'll talk to him if you want?" she offers.
"Thank you so much." i say, walking over to hug her.
she hugs me back and says " i wont tell him that you know about it."
we stand there for a few moments hugging before she steps back and says "you better get ready soon. Louis messaged mum saying that his friends were coming back with him." and then leaves the room.
i grab a large grey hoodie with the Puma logo on it and black sweats. i i place the photo back in the closet and go back to Lottie's room. i quickly change and then go down to the kitchen.