i wake up to the sound of ringing in my ears. What the fuck is going on? i think. the smell of smoke hits me almost instantly. I'm on my feet straight away, my eyes trying to find their way through the thick smoke.
then i remember the macaroni. i pull the top of my jumper over my nose and try and get towards the kitchen. i see the flickering of a yellow light and know there's a fire in there. its not a small one either.
i hear the faint sound of sirens in the background and try and find my way towards the front door. my eyes are stinging from the smoke and its making me cough.
i finally find the door and swing it open. i can see Johanna and a few other neighbours looking frantic in our garden. When Mrs Fraserson - the sweet old woman next door - sees me she's rushing over to help me.
through my stinging eyes i can see several fire engines and an ambulance. Johanna is now by my side helping Mrs Fraserson guide me towards the ambulance.
one of the paramedics - a short blonde girl - shines her little torch light thing in my eyes, and then wraps something around my arm. she's trying to tell me stuff but i cant concentrate on her. i cant help but look at the house. I'm sure the fire has spread from the kitchen.
before long Dean is right next to me, asking me if im okay.
"I'm fine" i say to him.
Johanna walks over to us with a pitiful look in her eyes.
"I am so sorry about your house." she says.
"well, at least no body got hurt" Dean replies.
they both start making small talk until an incredibly fit fireman walks over to us, covered in ash.
"I'm afraid the fire spread very quickly, there were few things unharmed by the damage the flames made." he says.
"what does that mean?" i ask.
" it means you wont be able to stay here for a while. do you have any friends or family who would let you stay with them for a while until this place is sorted out?" he asks.
before i can even think, Johanna says " they could stay with me. our house is big enough for two extra people. I'm sure Louis and the girls wont mind"
wait. hold up. I've met 'the girls' and they're fine, but Louis! I'd rather be back in that house than live with Louis.
"Johanna, are you quite sure? we wouldn't want to intrude" Dean says.
he knows this would be hell for me. but if him, Johanna and 4 other people are there then maybe he wont try anything.
"we will gather up the remainder of things in your house and bring them to you, Mr Sanderson." the fireman says.
"are you sure that's a smart idea with Louis?" i hear Dean whisper.
"Dean, i'll be okay with Louis. he do anything as long as you guys are there." i say.
he gives me a questioning look before accepting Johanna's offer.