I feel like I've just woken up but I know I haven't been asleep I just blacked out. This why I try not to get angry why I don't fight. I hold everything bad in things that have made me mad,upset,etc. until I snap and this time I snapped on Samuel. I look and see an arm around my waist I look up into Jace's face.
I look over and see Susan crouched over Samuel. His face his bloody and my hands are bruised cracked bloody as well. I know I did this but like every time before I don't remember. All I remember is that scared look in the other persons eyes and the murmurs of the people around us and like every time I feel sick.
I stand up still with Jace clinging to me like child to his mother except he's afraid I'll go off again. I break into a run out of the door I don't know when Jace let go but when I finally stopped to catch my breath he wasn't there. I look up and I see I'm hanging on to a tree look around I see multiple trees and birds. I ran all the way to the park 12 miles from the house,maybe I should have done track but then again my lungs are screaming for air so scratch that.
Instead of being the normal person iam,ha! And finding a park bench I fall on the ground under the tree hitting a tree root on my butt "ouch."i mumbled to myself rubbing my hip so I didn't look weird rubbing my butt. I pulled my knees to my chest and put my head between my legs and started taking deep breaths to slow down my beating heart and to get my breathing to normal again.
I say there for a few minutes holding back tears, my breathing had long since returned but my heart was still beating at it's intense rate. I raises my head and put it on the tree behind me closing my eyes. I immediately regretted not grabbing my headphones so I could listen to music while I stayed on the down low for a few hours.
I woke up not even realizing I had fallen asleep and it was dark I checked my phone and saw that it was near midnight an I had 40 unread messages and 60 missed calls. But sadly before I could make a phone call my phone died from not being charged in a very long while I can't even remember the last time I charged it,is that sad?Sighing at my stupidity for falling asleep and my dead phone I stood up,stretched, and made the long trek home.
When I walked into the house I was engulfed by 4 pairs of arms Samuel and Jace's dad on my sides, Jace behind me, and Susan in front of me. The 2 on my sides let go first,then Susan, but Jace held on for a minute or 2 and honestly it felt nice but let's not make that known shall we.
"Where have you been!? You never called or text or anything!"Susan flipped.
"I fell asleep in the park and my phone died I didn't mean to worry you." I apologized.
"What do you mean you fell asleep in the park it's midnight." Jace asked.
"Yea." I said cuz I didn't feel like repeating it.
"What if you were mugged or kidnapped or worse." he went on freaking out a bit himself.
"They would just bring me back,besides I'm here aren't I." I said and laughed but immediately stopped because of the look he was giving that look could kill if possible.
Samuel and Jace's dad had left leaving me,Susan, and Jace standing in the foyer. Susan hugged me again crying and going on about how she thought I was dead in a ditch somewhere, no confidence in me whatsoever. "Well I'm tired so I'm going to bed." I said slowly and Susan pulled me to the third hug since I walked into the house and then left.
I walked up the stairs and heard someone following behind,figuring it was Jace going to his room I escapes to my own thoughts and forgot he was there. I walked into my room and tried to shut the door but got stopped by Jace's foot. "May I help you? " I asked very rudely.
""Yea I wanna know what the hell happened." he answered me pushing fully into my room and sitting own my bed. Well then there goes my relaxing night.
"I blanked out." I said slamming my door and turning around to stare intently at him.
"What does that mean?" He asked staring back at me.
"I have this thing to where I hold all of my anger and problems in don't let it go don't discuss I jut keep it all in. Till one day I snap and well you what happened when I snap." Sighed and sat down at the window seat and out my head in my hands.
"An you snapped on my brother." He stated.
"No shit! I didn't mean to it just happens." I said straightening back up looking at him.
"It just happens." he mocked me getting closer."That doesn't just happen Kate."
"What do you care anyway Jace?" I questioned standing up.
"I don't I just wanna know what happened." he looked surprised that I asked that question.
I scoffed,"Yea ok whatever you believe to help yourself sleep at night." I shouldered past him to get my clothes to sleep in and started toward the bathroom.
"Hey Kate." Jace called out, An against my better judgment I turned around to face him. He walked toward me and hugged me,"Im glad your ok and home don't ever scare me like that again please." he looked in my eyes and smiled before hugging me again and leaving the room. Did that really just happen and why do I have butterfly's in my stomach from that hug?
The next morning I was awaken by Samuel who just came in my room no knocking or anything red much. "Morning I didn't want to wake you up but mom made me." he said looking sheepish.
"Ok." I mumbled still trying to get awake. I yawned and stretched while he crossed the room an sat at the edge of my bed.
"I'm sorry about yesterday you had every right to hit me like you did." he laughed out but stopped when he saw my face. "Anyway I didn't mean anything I said I was just trying to get a rile out of my brother." he admitted.
"Why?" I asked.
"Don't tell him I told you this or he will be the next one to kick my ass. But I still think he has a crush on you like when you guys were kids." he said.
"He didn't like me like that when we were kids." I pointed out.
"Yes he did who do you think he always told before I left." he said looking at me.
"Jace the same guy that put bubble gum in my hair and I had to cut my hair cuz we couldn't get it out?" I asked making sure we were talking about the same guy.
He laughed and nodded his head,"Tge same guy that took my favorite Barbie doll and lit her head on fire?" I asked. Again he nodded his head,"The same that took my live goldfish and flushed down the toilet cuz we watched finding memo and he wanted Goldy to find his family again?"
"Yes that same guy." he laughed out but stopped when I kicked him. "Oww. He had feelings for you when you guys were younger. But when they moved I don't know if they went away or became dorment."
"How come I don't remember you?" I asked racking my brain for a sliver memory that had him.
"No I got sent away to boarding school. But when I got older I rebelled got kicked out and my parents sent me to boot camp. I snuck out of camp and made my own life. I'm currently in college to be a art major." He explained.
"That explains it." I said sitting down on the floor from where he earlier was laughing on.
"You make my brother a better person though."he said thinking out loud.
"Well mom has said he's a man ho but since you came to stay there hasn't been a girl in sight that she knows of." he explained.
"Really?" I asked puzzled.
"Yea she also said that he doesn't seem as cold to people like he lightened up and is warm, her words not mine. So do you have feelings for him?" he asked raising an eyebrow.
"I don't know honestly I always thought he hated me." I confessed playing with my hand in my lap.
"How about I talk to hi-"
"What?! No you can't tell him." I squeaked out.
"Haha no I'll talk to him about being nicer to you and getting to know you more." he explained.
"O-ok." i stuttered out looking at him.
"I would totally try to get you if you hadn't of kicked my ass or if you and my brother isn't my OTP." he smiled.
"OTP?" I asked.
"One true pairing. An ex of mine was a big girly girl." he rolled his eyes.
"Wow now get out I'm hungry and I need to get actually clothes on." I said gathering my day clothes an going to bathroom.
Today's outfit is black converse, no makeup, black shorts, and a white shirt that goes off the shoulder and says Bad Wolf, it's a Doctor Who reference for those that don't watch Doctor Who.
I walked downstairs and into the kitchen when I stopped I saw Jace shirtless with some blond hair girl. I turned around and went to look for Samuel. I found him in the living room and grabbed his arm.
I drug him to the kitchen and pointed,"Yea I've changed him alright." I yell whispered before running upstairs and grabbing my wallet. When I came back down the stairs Jace and that girl was coming out of the kitchen.
"Oh Kate your awake." Jace said surprised. I mumbled unpleasant things while shouldering my way past him accidentally hitting his still bear shoulder and slamming the door shut.
Guess I'll go eat breakfast somewhere else.