I woke up in an daze, not knowing where I was until it suddenly hit me, all the shit that happened yesterday suddenly flowed back to me. I look around and spot lyric laying on the floor, she must fell off of the bed in her sleep, I nudge her with my foot "lyric, get your lazy ass up, We have school." I said sleepily and she stirred in her sleep and quietly whispered "noooo, let's play hooky." I sighed and shook my head "no lyr...we can't skip, now hurry up, if you're not up in the next minute I'm coming back with cold water" I told her smugly and left to go get ready.
Once I was ready I went back to lyrics room to see if she was awake and getting ready, "you're lucky, cuz bitch I would have came in here with a bucket of cold water and we would have filmed your ALS ice bucket challenge right here right now" I said jokingly, and she giggled "I would have murdered you...you may think I'm joking but I'm not..." She said laughing...I think she was joking but you never know when it comes to her...she may have been serious. I smiled at her, "okay, to school we go then?" I asked and she nodded and we went on our way.
*****skip to school*****
When we entered the building that looked like a prison, we both said our 'see ya laters' and went our separate ways. I went to my locker, which is near Luke's locker, I grabbed my books for my first class, which was with Luke, and I walked towards Luke, who was standing at his locker. "Hey Lucas" I said cheerily and he looked at me like I was on drugs "really? Lucas...I'm pretty sure we've been through this before...it's Luke" He said laughing a little and I smiled "fine, hello Lukey." I said while blushing a little, I looked away and he chuckled "okay you dork, let's get to class" and he grabbed my arm and pulled me to our first class.
Luke and I sat next to each other in class, like always, but it felt different this time, it wasn't awkward or uncomfortable, it felt good, i could feel something, but I can't figure out what it is. Luke and I are partners for this chemistry project that Mr. banks assigned, I'm just glad it's with him and not anyone else, no offense to lyric, Michael and Calum who are also in this class. This means I'll be able to go to his house more often.
So lately I've been thinking about telling my brothers and father about me being gay, I'm terrified and I think it would be great to have support, so since ash and I have a project to do together, he will be over at my house more often...so maybe he can be there for me. "Hey ash, can I ask you something?" I asked and he smiled and said "you just did" I chuckled a little and said "I've been thinking about telling my father and brothers about my sexuality, I was wondering if you would like to be there with me when I do..." I said quietly
Ashton looked at me shocked and nodded "of course I'll be there for you Lukey, just remember though, no matter what happens i'll always be here for you" he said smiling and that smile was enough to give me butterfly's, no fuck that, there's a fucking tornado in there. I smiled back at him "great, we can do it today after school...if you can come over after school that is." I said chuckling a little.
*****skip to Luke's house*****
Ashton arrived to my house about 20 minutes ago and we started our project, we were only halfway through when ash wanted to take a break and I agreed, "Lukey?" Ash said and I hummed in response "are you ready to tell your brothers and your dad about...stuff" he said nervously and I looked up at him with scared eyes and he instantly comforted me "there's nothing to be afraid of Lukey...everything will be fine." And I nodded and we walked downstairs to greet my parents and siblings.
We walked into the kitchen to find my family eating, when I spoke "dad, jack, Ben... Can you join me in the living room? I have to tell you guys something." I breathed out and my dad spoke "this better be good." And I could hear Ashton scoff, I looked at him and smiled and he smiled back, I think he's more nervous than I am.
They were now all sitting on the sofa as Ashton and I sat on the sofa opposite to them and I took a deep breath and Ashton tried to comfort me by rubbing circles on my back, I brought up the courage to speak, "I know for sure that you guys will be disappointed in me, I know you guys will hate me, and I know that you will never look at me the same way ever again" I was now breathing heavy, trying to hold back tears "get to the point" my dad said harshly, and I breathed in and just let it out.
"I-I'm gay" the whole room fell silent, all I could hear was my heavy breathing and then my father spoke "I think it's time for your friend to leave" he said a bit too harsh for Ashton's liking, he stood up "I'm not leaving unless Luke comes with me" he said defensively and my two brothers stood up "so what are you his boyfriend?" Said jack, and Ashton shook his head, "no I'm not but I am his very protective friend and it's pretty obvious you don't like the idea of him liking boys" he said angrily and then Ben spoke "I knew you two weren't anything but fags" and that's when Ashton punched him in the face.
Ben stumbled backwards and fell onto the couch, and before anyone did anything else I grabbed Ashton's arm and pulled hi to the front door, "ash you should leave, I don't want you getting involved in my problems" I said and he looked at me worriedly, letting out a huff of breath he said "are you sure, Luke? I just don't want you to get hurt" I nodded, "I understand you're concerned but there's nothing to worry about ash, I'll be fine" I reassured him and he nodded and gave me a hug and left.
I knew it was a mistake telling my father when he started yelling, "YOU'RE A FAG? DOES YOUR MOTHER KNOW THIS?" He yelled and I hesitantly nodded "and what does she think of this?" He asked and I let out a shaky breath and spoke "she's proud of me" I said shakily and he shook his head in disappointment, and he walked into the kitchen, I stood there scared to move until I heard a scream and the sound of breaking glass, I ran into the kitchen and found my father holding my mother by her hair and he yelled at her "YOU APPROVE OF YOUR SON BEING GAY?!?" He screamed and I was fuming, no one touches my mother like that.
"STOP IT" I screamed at the top of my lungs and my father turned to me and said "maybe if you were NORMAL then None of this would be happening!" And he threw my mother to the ground and walked over to me and slapped me, I fell to the ground holding my face, tears were threatening to spill from my eyes, but I couldn't let him see me cry, I stood up when I heard the door slamming, he left and I scurried over to my mother, "are you alright?" I asked her worriedly and she nodded. "I'm sorry" I sobbed into my moms shoulder "stop it, you've done nothing wrong" she whispered in my ear as she stroked my head "it's okay baby boy, we'll make it through this" she whispered. I wish I wasn't such a fuck up.
Alright my little penguins, I suck at writing :/ this is just another shitty chapter...I'm trying, I really am...I've been writing this chapter for like 2 days but I couldn't think of anything to write, this was difficult for me to write, it will get better soon though...I hope....okay we'll bye bye for now my little penguins 🐧🐧🐧