We sat there playing FIFA and all I could think about is the way lyric acted when I asked her where Ashton was, she looked worried and now I'm worried...I sat there in silence watching Calum and Michael one handedly play FIFA, all though they were failing miserably they still tried, lyric and I had the same blank expression on our faces. She must have sensed that something was wrong because when she realized that I was deep in thought she was quick to react, "are you okay Luke? What's wrong" she asked quietly, and I just shook my head dismissing her concern.
"you know what, Fuck you guys, really fuck you, because of you we can't fucking play FIFA." Michael said sounding pissed off, lyric smirked "it will wear off eventually...I hope." Lyric said still smirking slightly and I giggled a bit, "you hope?!? What the hell did you use?!?" Calum said raising his voice, "I think it was gorilla superglue." I said quietly, "WHAT THE HELL?!?" Michael and Calum said in unison "THAT SHIT IS NEVER GOING TO COME OFF!" Michael yelled and I laughed quietly, "good luck with that." Lyric said slightly laughing and lyric and I stood up and left the lounge and went into the kitchen we both instantly got quiet, "are you okay Luke?" Lyric asked me and i decided to return the question, "no lyric, the question is are you okay?" I said silently, "obviously not, I'm worried about Ashton." Lyric said which surprised me, I though she would have lied and said everything's fine even though I know she's not. "Why are you worried about ash? What's wrong with him?" I asked sounding more concerned, she looked at me like she was about to cry but instead she just whispered "I don't know..." And with that she walked away and went upstairs to what I assumed to be Michael's room.
I walked back to the lounge and sat down next to a inseparable Malum, my face once again had a blank expression and I just sat there staring at the wall thinking, until Calum pulled me out of my trance, "bro, what's up with you?" I looked at him confused "huh?" I said and I looked over to Mikey and Calum and they looked at each other confused, "he's been waving his had in your face for like 2 minutes" Michael said sounding worried, "are you alright mate?" Calum said, and I shook my head "I don't know...I'm not even sure what's going on, I'm worried about Ashton but lyric won't tell me what's up." I said with my voice cracking at the end. "What?" Michael asked, "yeah, I don't know what's happening." I said now tearing up. The rest of the time that I was at Mikey's house I stayed quiet.
I was now laying on Michael's bed thinking about ash, I decided to call him again, I heard three rings before he answered and I immediately jumped up from my spot "Hello? Ashton?" I said a little too loudly, I heard breathing on the other side of the phone and then a response that I didn't want to hear, "no, it's his father, that emo faggot is probably trying to kill himself." And with that Ashton's drunk sounding father hung up...and I was on the verge of tears. Why the hell would his father treat him like that! He doesn't deserve it! I was now getting angry as I felt hot tears streaming down my face, I didn't know what to do, I don't know how to help him, I feel so useless! The only way I can get my anger out is by screaming and hitting things...so I did. I screamed as loud as I could, I threw my phone against the wall watching as it smashed into pieces then I started hitting things and throwing things and then Michael, Luke and Calum ran into the room and that's when I realized that this wasn't my room...I didn't care...I threw all of Michael's CD's off of his shelf and Luke ran up to me and grabbed me and hugged me tightly trying to get my to stop thrashing around and then threw myself to the floor and started to cry uncontrollably in Luke's arms, I looked up at a very confused, worried and scared Michael's and Calum, they've never seen me like this before. I soon enough stopped crying and I slowly stood up and got away from Luke and lied down on Michael's bed.
Luke came up next to me and whispered in my ear "he's not fine at all is he?" And I shook my head and started to cry again and Luke lied down next to me and just hugged me and I felt hot tears on shirt, he was crying too, "can you tell me everything that happened?" He said with a shaky voice and a sniffle. I nodded and told all of the boys to come sit on the bed next to me, "okay, so as you know I was freaking out about Ashton, I called his phone and I thought he picked up but it was actually his father, he...he told me that his emo f-faggot son was probably trying to k-kill himself...he's not fine...he's a damaged boy and he needs help, so I'm asking you guys to be gentle with him and Luke...I need you to help him." I said with my voice trembling, the boys were now all silently crying and Luke was shaking his head slightly and he got up and walked out of the room, I followed him and we ended up in the lounge and I sat him down and talked to him, "he's going to be okay Luke, you just have to take care of the damaged boy." Luke shook his head "no...no th-this can't be h-happening...he can't be this damaged" he said still shaking his head in disbelief I just sighed and whispered "Luke, you have to help him" "I will...I will help my beautiful broken mess...my beautiful disaster" he whispered to himself
Hey my little penguins, I'm obviously not a very good writer...well I hope you like this crappy chappy...I'm just not happy with the way this story is going so I might not even continue it...I might start writing preferences and imagines though...well bye bye penguins 🐧🐧🐧