Today was the day that the rink was finally finished with all the renovations it was doing. I wanted to say that I was excited to get to go back, but I didn’t think I could. When the break started, I was happy to have it, but was looking forward to go back. So much has happened since then though, and I was just nervous about how it was all going to be.
I had talked to Gabrielle last night and she was telling me about how worried she was to go back because she just knew that this was the time that coach was going to use to tell everyone about us being together and everything with us coming to my aunt’s house while he was there.
Thinking about that though made me a bit excited to go back to the rink. I felt bad for Gabrielle with how worried she was and with how much was probably running through her mind right now, but thinking over all the arguments we’ve had about her telling her dad or not telling her dad, I was hoping that coach was going to tell people about us, and I hoped someone would tell her dad too.
I was sick of getting into arguments and I knew she was annoyed with me for constantly bringing it up, but her dad not knowing was just causing her too much stress and too many conflicts between us. I was dreading the moment when Bella was going to find out. Just the thought of it was getting under my skin and I was not looking forward to it.
Bella isn’t afraid to speak her mind so depending on how she feels about it all I might receive some interesting words from her. I don’t know if she’ll be mad that I agreed to go on a date with her while I was with Gabrielle, even though she was okay with it, or she might just me mad at me in general for all of it. At least I’d be able to tell her that I was just being a jerk to her to get her to stop liking me because it was bothering Gabrielle.
I had hated acting like that and treating her like that, I knew I could’ve done worse, but what I did was enough because even the smallest thing that someone does that annoys her will turn her off of them. I was so tempted on that night just to tell Bella everything so I wouldn’t have to do the plan that I had came up with and stupidly said out loud, thinking at the time that it was a good idea and that Gabrielle wouldn’t have agreed to it because it would involve me being pretty rude to her best friend.
Once I got a better feel for Bella’s personality though, I knew I couldn’t have told her because even if I did say to not tell Gabrielle that I told her, she would agree at the time but then later on wouldn’t be able to keep it in. She would end up telling Gabrielle because she would have so many questions and be expecting a ton of answers and an explanation from her best friend.
It felt different having to go to the rink today though. I had to wake up at a different time than usual, I didn’t have to worry about what to do today because my day was basically planned out, hockey, buffet, and then back home, and those three things take up the majority of my day. I had gotten so used to just waking up when I wanted to, or when Ben wanted me to, and then having the day to myself.
My day would just consist of occasionally taking Ben to the park, and then going over to Gabrielle’s house, or ever since my aunt found out, going to pick up Gabrielle to bring her to mine. I was beginning to really hate that we had this break since now.
At the beginning it was fun because I got to hang out with Gabrielle a lot, but now since we’ve let all the drama and stress of other people finding out about us, it’s not longer as fun as it used to be. Also, I should be excited to get to go back and play my favorite sport again everyday, but I’m just not. I’m not really sure that I like this skating environment as much as I did my last one.
Taking that into consideration, I wondered how I was going to be treated once everyone on the hockey team found out. They were sure to judge me, especially Zack, so I wasn’t really looking forward to that, and maybe I didn’t really want coach to tell anyone now as much as I did just a few minutes ago. The only good thing that came out of this break that I could think of at the moment was that I got to tell my aunt that I was dating Gabrielle and I didn’t have to hide it from her and lie to her anymore.
I still lying in bed from when I had woken up from my alarm about twenty minutes ago, and I hadn’t bothered to get up yet. When I grabbed my phone and looked at the time I decided that I should probably start getting ready or else I was going to be late to practice.
I had set my alarm on my phone fifteen minutes earlier than I needed to because I knew I was going to end up doing what I did which was stay in bed until I actually felt like getting up, or until I knew I really had to. I just changed into the first things that I grabbed out of my dresser just a pair of dark sweat pants and a light grey shirt.
I headed out of my room and down the hall to the bathroom to brush my teeth and everything, and then after that I went back to my room to grab my shoes and my hockey bag, and then walked to the kitchen where my aunt was making breakfast.
I came in and sat down on the barstool that I always sit at next to Ben, and set my hockey bag and shoes down on the ground next to me.
“Are you ready to get back to hockey?” my aunt asked me as I had been sitting down, and then she set a plate of pancakes down in front of me.
“I guess,” I answered and began to cut into the pancakes.
“Well you don’t sound very excited,” she told me.
“I know, I wish I was but I’m just nervous about today,” I said.
“Why would you be nervous?”
“Gabrielle told me that there is a possibility that today or sometime this week is going to be when coach tells about what happened last week,” I explained.
“Why does she think that it’s this week that he is going to tell people? I honestly don’t think that he is going to say anything,” she told me, even though I knew she didn’t fully believe the last part of what she said, she was just trying to stick up for him.
“She told me that now would be the perfect time to say something about it since we’re all going to be back at the rink, and she said that gossip spreads around pretty quickly there,” I said.
“Well she’s right about the gossip part, but I don’t think that he’s going to tell anyone anything, at least not today,” she said, and now I knew for sure that she was thinking that he might say something about me and Gabrielle.
“If bad things are spread about you Harry, just ignore it,” Ben said, deciding to take part in this conversation now.
“I wish it were that easy, buddy,” I told him.
I wish I could just ignore it all and that all the problems that were occurring in my mind that will most likely become reality today, would just all go away.