Numbness is all I feel. Darkness is all I see. No sound penetrates the state I'm in. I walk, aimlessly wandering. Where am I? I don't know. Do I really care anymore? No.
Then, out of nowhere, light. It explodes around me in blinding rays. At that moment, I think to myself "I'm dead", the bright, angelic lights easily mistaken for heaven.
Blurs of pictures flash by me within the clouds. Some of them, memories of sweet kisses and long hugs. Showing love and making love. Harmonie saying yes to me in front of the whole school when I asked her to prom.
Others, memories I have not experienced yet. Me standing at the end of the isle, a wide smile growing on my face as I watch Harmonie walk towards me, long flowing white dress trailing behind her. Harmonie and I laying in bed, me planting sweet kisses in her bulging belly, whispering how much I cant wait to meet the little bundle of joy.
The images come and go, bringing along others. The more I see, the more I realize how much I have to look forward to, how much I have to fight for. My life can't end now. I've just started living.
I'm going to find Harmonie. I'm going to live. I'm not giving up.
With that thought, the light begins to grow stronger and stronger, the images of my future with Harmonie fading away. I feel as I am being pulled towards the light, the darkness now far behind me. I don't know where I'm going, but I know for a fact that I'm never going back to where I once was. I am no longer lost.
A swoosh of air swallows me, the light blinding my to the point where I have to cover my eyes with my hands. I feel as though I'm being pulled out of water, no longer drowning.
Gasping loudly, I finally meet the light, beeping sounds and a mix of voices filling my ears. I can't see a thing, my vision blurry and unfocused.
"He's back! We've got him back!" An unfamiliar voice explains, removing an air pump thing from my face. I don't even try to assess what is going on around me. All I want right now is to get out of this place and start living my life with Harmonie.
And that is exactly what I'm going to do.
I've been sitting on the floor of the hallway for what seems like a lifetime. I can hear the doctors frantically working on Liam's lifeless body on the other side of the door, the head doctor calling out words that I couldn't even begin to repeat.
This is all my fault. If I had just...I don't know what I could've done to prevent this. It's too late now to change anything. Liam's gone.
I hit my breaking point, violent sobs erupting from my body, literally shaking me to the ground. My body curls up into the fetal position, me not caring if anyone sees me
"Mr...uh...Horan?" A females voice pulls my gaze up to meet hers, her kind brown eyes and sincere face reminding me of my lost best friend.
"Yeah...that's me..." I mumble, sitting up slightly off the ground. I try wiping the tears from my eyes but they just keep coming, streaming down my face in rivers.
The girl drops down to a squatting position, her bright pink scrubs wrinkling slightly, brown hair piled up on top of her head. She attempts to smile at me, bright white teeth appearing behind her plump pink lips.
I can't even fake a smile, my body slumping down even lower, my head resting on the tiled floor.
"We have some news about the patient...Mr. Payne..." The young nurse explains, glancing down at her clipboard with a sad expression.
"We tried every-" she is cut off by the uproar of voices in Liam's hospital room.
"He's back! We've hot him back!" The head doctor yells out on the other side of the door. My eyes go wide, as does the girl sitting next to me. The two of us glance at the white door.
"Liam's back..." I whisper, a smile spreading on my face.