The last few days were some of the worst. Even though Jack finally admitted that he loved me, maybe not to my face, I was still so broken, so lost and hurt. My parents were taking Kenadie’s death better than me, or maybe they were just pretending. They weren’t around much, but she was still their daughter, my sister.
The funeral was heart breaking, like they all were. I wanted Jack to come, despite what my mom told me. She wasn't the most welcoming of mine and Jack's relationship, but I was her only kid left. I think that she would risk my happiness for some belief and a stupid rule. Jack stayed in the back of the crowd most of the time. Since the age thing was still technically illegal, I couldn’t kiss him like I wanted too so many time. We all gave our speeches about Kenadie. I tried my hardest not to cry, but my rock was gone. At the end of the funeral, I convince my parents to letting Jack drive me home. She was skeptical, like any parent would be, but finally agreed to it when Jack said he promised to get me there safe and sound.
I didn't want to go home just yet, I still didn’t want to face the fact I would be going home as the only child. I've never been the only child. Jack drove us to his house, only next door. He opened the doors letting me in form the cool air. There was so much going on, I hardly even noticed that it was winter. I took my shoes off and laid my jacket over the arm of the couch.
“How are you holding up?” Jack asked and did the same thing that I did. I just sighed and shrugged. I sat on the couch biting my bottom lip. Jack sat down next to me and wrapped his arms around me. I choked out a sob and he held me tighter. “Shh, its okay.” he said and kiss my head. I was hysterical like I was the other day, but everything still hurt.
“I just can’t believe shes gone.” I said and pushed back from Jack, looking at him. “Is this how you felt when your parents died?” I asked him without thinking, but he didn't seem bothered by the question.
“Yeah,” he nodded. “I know exactly how all this feels. Losing someone that you care about, someone you loved so much. Having all the just ripped from you. Its sucks, but let me tell you something,” he stopped and make me look at him again. “Everything is going to be okay. No, things won't ever be the same, but things are okay.” I few more tears ran down, but I nodded. Jack pulled me to his chest, rubbing my other shoulder. I rested against him, closing my eyes. I was lucky to have him.
I woke up laying on the couch with my arm slung over Jack's stomach. He had one arm around me and one arm under his head. I watched his chest rise and fall with his breathing. Its was a dark day, but I could help but notice how attractive he was. I remember him dressed up for Thanksgiving, but this was a fancier suit. Its fits him well.
I moved up a little and kissed his cheek, succeeding in waking him up. His eyes fluttered open and he smiled at me. “Hey,” he mumbled and sat up a little and so did I.
“Hey,” I said in a quiet voice.
“You okay?” he asked and yawned. I nodded. “Are you sure?” I nodded again. He smiled and leant in, capturing my lips in a sweet kiss. I really did love him, a lot. Every time he kissed me, my heart felt like it was going to explode. I could only hope that's how he felt too. “What did your mom say about us? You know, once I left.” he asked. I chuckled a little shaking my head.
“She fucking hates it.” I told him. He gave me a sympathetic look. “Shes been trying to talk me out of it since she found out.” he just kept listening and I kept talking. “She keeps telling me that this is just a mock feeling or something. She tells me I'm going to find a girl that's going to change my mind and show me what real love feels like.” I sighed and looked down.
“She’ll come around.” Jack said.
“I hope.” I muttered.
“She will. Maybe not now, but one day. She’ll realize that who her son is and his happiness, is the most important thing in the world. Whether she realizes it now, or if we break up and you meet a new guy. She’ll come around.” I smiled and nodded.
“Were you planning on breaking up with me?” I asked, chuckling a little bit.
“No. Not any time soon. I want to keep you around, that is, only if you still want me around.” The smile on my face grew even bigger. I nodded and bent in kissing him. I placed my hand on the back of his neck, keeping him close. We pulled back after a couple minutes, my hand still on his chest.
“I love you,” I said to him. I looked up searching his eyes for something. He has a mall smile on his lips, I could practically feel his heartbeat from outside his chest. If he didn't say anything soon, my heart would fall out.
“I love you too, Alex.” he finally said. I grinned widely and kissed him again. “You should go home. I'm already on bad terms with your parents.” I nodded. He kissed me again and I got up putting my shoes on and grabbing my Jacket.
“Bye,” I said and he said bye too. I got back home with my parents standing in the kitchen. We made eye contact before I went upstairs and sat on my bed. A few minutes later I heard a knock on my door and my mom walked in.
“Hey, hun.” she said.
“Hey,” I said back. She stood there for a second. I patted the bed next to me and she came over and sat down. “What's up, mom?”
“I just wanted to see if your okay?” I means a lot that she was asking, but It hurt to hear that strain in her voice.
“Yeah, I'm okay.” it was awkward again for a little bit.
“Can I ask you about Jack?” I looked at her looking back at me. She didn't look angry, so I guess it wasn't something bad. I nodded and she took a deep breath. “Why him?” I gave her a confused look. “I mean like… Why a boy? You have so many opportunities and… just…” she stopped. I guess she was trying not to to sound me. I knew she wasn't meaning too, but its still hurt.
“I don't know. I wish I knew, but I don't and I'm okay with that. Nothing is going to change, I’m still me, mom,” I stopped and made sure that she was looking at me. “I just like guys. I like Jack.” she looked sad. She looked like she wanted to scream at me, but at the same time, I could tell she was trying to understand.
“Did I do something wrong to make you-”
“No,” I said cutting her off. “You didn't do anything wrong. You're a great mom, this is something that’s been on my mind since… as far back as I could remember.”
“Oh,” she muttered under her breath. “Did Kenadie know?” I nodded. “Great, I was never around, too stupid to even know who my own son was.” she sounded really hurt not.
“Its okay, mom.” i told her and hugged her. “You just have to know that I'm still me. I never changed. I just like guys.”
“Do you love him?” she asked me. I nodded again.
“It would really mean a lot to me if you supported me. I know, its hard to accept it, but I really do love Jack. He loves me, too. I know there the law thing and-” My mom nodded.
“I’ll try.” she said cutting me off. “You're my son and I just want you to be happy. I already lost my little girl, I can't lose my last baby. I don't care how, but I'm gonna be a better mom.” she was almost crying at this point. He wrapped her arms around me and held me. “I'm so sorry it took this long for me to come around. Please understand, Alex, this isn't going to be easy for me.”
“I know mom. Thank you for trying.” she nodded and kissed my forehead.
“Night, baby.” she said and left my room. I laid down closing my eyes, smiling to myself.
A few hours later I got up looking at me clock. It was around one am, but I couldn't sleep. I was just in my pajama short and a white t-shirt. I slipped on some shoes and a small jacket and quietly snuck downstairs. I walked past my parents room, making sure they were asleep. I opened my back door and walked over to Jack's house. I got his eye from on top of the door frame and opened the back door. I closed it and took off my shoes.
I walked to his room upstairs and opened his door. He was laying almost in the middle of the bed sleeping. He looked so cute and peaceful sleeping. I walked over to the side of the bed and moved the blankets crawling in. Jack woke up quickly, but relaxed when he saw it was me.
“What are you doing?” he asked tiredly.
“I just wanted to cuddle.” he made a humming noise and pulled my body close to him. I snuggled into his chest, listening to his heart. “She accepted it,” I said happily. “or well, at least shes trying.” I finished.
“Thats amazing.” he hugged me and kissed me. It was quiet for a little bit before I had another thought come to my mind.
“Where do you think she is?” I asked Jack.
“What?” he mumbled into my hair.
“Kenadie. My mom keeps telling me she’s in heaven or something, but I don't know if that's where she’s at. I don't really know if I believe in a heaven kind of place.”
“Somewhere happy. Whether that is heaven, or Hawaii,” he said joking. “She wa- is a good kid, wherever she is at now, shes happy.” I nodded and put my arm around his waist. He kissed me again.
“I love you,” I said against his lips.
“I love you too, Lex.”
Yes, this is it. This was the end. Sorry it wasn't spectacular ;-; also, no, there will not be a sequel. Its possible way way way in the future there might be, but I'm not planning on it. But thank you to everyone who took the time to read this stupid story and I hope that you enjoyed it. Thank you so much for all the comments and follows.