Back to school commercials make me cringe. It was only the middle of August and there were commercials about all things school. It actually really irritated me, I just wanted to have my whole summer to have fun and not worry about the next school year. It always reminded me that I spent my whole summer doing nothing except for flirting with my neighbor. I was done flirting at this point. I was thinking about what Rian said. I needed some fun in my life, I almost always played it safe. The next time I see him, I'm going to kiss him, again.
I was at the store with my mom picking school things already. I don't know why, she always thought it was better to get things early. I didn't want school things at all, but I'm only going into my senior year so this is the last time I going to do this. Shopping seemed like it took forever. No matter what we were really looking for, my mother somehow veered off into a different direction, buying a ton of other stuff that we didn't really need. I was never a shopping person. I just wanted to get home and sneak over to Jack's. I really wanna let him know about my little crush, I thought it was about time to stand up for my feelings and go for it.
My mom finally got us home about three hours later. I helped her carry the stuff into the house and put it in a tote upstairs. I waited until my mom and dad both left. They were going to some kind of stupid diner for their work and wouldn't be home until really late, maybe even early morning again. I slipped on some shoes and walked over to Jack's house. I went to knock on the door, but it opened first. My jaw dropped at the man standing there. Tall, dark haired just like Jack's, but way less attractive. It was Devon, where almost the same thing I saw him in last time. A red t-shirt and black jeans. He was still cute, but I knew he was an asshole.
“Wow, the kid is still coming over?” he smirked. “You must really like them young, Jacky.” I saw a weird, evil glint in his eye. I looked at Jack behind him, he rolled his eyes shaking his head. “Think about what I said.” he smiled at him and pushed past me. I walked in the house and closed the door behind me.
“What was all that about?” I asked him as he sat on the couch and slouched.
“Nothing. His fucking girlfriend that he was cheating on me with broke up with him a couple days ago and he came to ‘get me back’” he said, adding air quotes around the last half. I mumbled and ‘oh’ and sat down next to him.
“Are you going too?” I asked, and sat down too. He just shrugged. He can't be seriously thinking about this. “Are you really thinking about taking him back, Jack?” he sighed.
“I don't know. Like… I still like him.” he looked at me, he seemed almost sad. “Today he used his same charm and the way that he talked when we first met. It’s getting a little hard to tell when he’s lying or not.” You know when they say that older people are smarter? Yeah, that's not always the case.
“Jack come on. You can't be thinking about this. I get it, you like him, but hes hurt you and hes been hurting you. What if he’s just lying again because he wants gay sex or something?” I kind of hurt me to say that to him, but I can be right. Jack looked like he was on the verge of tears. “Jack, I'm not saying this to make you feel bad, but I don't wanna see you hurt if he lies again. You’re a nice guy, you need someone to treat you nice too.”
Jack blinked away his tears before he talked. “I know…” he sighed. “I just… I don't know… I haven't been with anyone else in two years. He was my world for a long time.” I sighed too.
“I know, find someone knew. Make them your world. Jack you're really young, just like me. This one guys isn’t everything. He broke your heart, don't risk that again with the same person. Find someone knew.”
“What, like you?” he asked and chuckled a little, obviously saying it as a joke.
“Yeah.” I said seriously. My heart rate picked up, I felt like I wanted to just run and hid under my bed like a little kid. His eyes changed once he realized that I was actually being serious. He looked kind of shocked. His lips moved like he wanted to say something, but he couldn't quite find the words to say it. Be he was able to say anything, I leaned forward, in a slightly uncomfortable position. I pushed my lips against his, I stayed like that for a second before I pulled away. Jack was looking at me weirdly. “Please say something.” I whispered, my voice straining a little. This was actually the first time I’ve ever told someone that I liked them, well, kind of said it.
“A-Alex,” he started. I kept looking at his eyes, trying to figure out what he could be thinking. I sighed sitting back. I can make out with him, yet I can't actually kiss him. It’s all just fun and game until feelings are involved. I felt Jack shift beside me, I looked at him. He was finally completely sitting up and looking at me. He smiled and pulled my body closer to his. He caressed my jaw with his hands before bringing my face closer to him and kissing my lips. I didn't hesitate to kiss him back at all.
“When do your parents come home?” he mumbled against my lips.
“Not till really late.” I said back, continuing the kiss.
“Good.” he said, and pulled my into his lap so that I had a leg on either side of him. My hand rested on his neck and his held my hips and my lower back. It was actually turning me on a little, I’ve never really been in a make out session that was like this before. The way he kissed and touched me, everything he did was filled with passion. I guess he was just a passionate guy, but that didn't bother me at all. I really liked it.
We eventually had to pull away, since for some reason our bodies needed air to live. Both of our breathing was slightly heavier than before. Jack's lips were plump and pink from the make out. I rested my hand on his chest thinking about this whole thing. “Is this like… A thing now?” I asked him. For all I know, this just could have been another make out session.
He thought for a second. “If you want it to be.” he said.
“Do you want it to be?” I asked him. I didn't want it just for my benefit. I wanted thee to actually be something. He thought for another second, like he was debating whether to yes or no. Finally, he nodded. I smiled and bit the inside of my lip and little. I felt like a girl inside, I was giddy and shocked out of everything.
“But if we do this,” he said, running his hand back down my hips and resting them there. “We have to be quiet about it. This is really illegal.” she swallowed hard and chuckled a little. I nodded, sighing a little. “Hey, I have an idea.” he said, making me look at him. “Since I can't really take you out on a real date, how about you come over here this weekend since you said your parents work, and I can make you a really nice dinner?”
“Yeah, yeah. I’d love that.” I replied back to him. He pulled me closer and again and kissed me. I was trying to stay as calm as I could on the outside, but on the inside, I was freaking out and jumping up and down. We made out for another couple minutes before I pulled back.
“You’re not just doing this with me because I told you that you should try moving on right?” That was something i still worried about. I was completely ecstatic that he asked me out and we were this, thing, I guess, but I didn't want to be the backup.
“No,” he said, he sighed a little. “I do wanna get over him, and yeah, you're helping, but I also do like you. I wouldn't play you like that. I'm taking a huge risk doing this with you.” I nodded. That was true. Why would he risk, pretty much his life, just to ask some stupid kid out? I smiled again and pecked his lips. It was starting to get dark out so I figured that I would go.
Jack walked me to the door, which was really only about three feet. He spun me, making me stand on my toe so he could kiss me again. I left with a huge smile on my face. I walked back hope, using the front door since my parents still weren't home. I walked up stairs, still smiling like an idiot.
“What are you smiling at?” Kenadie asked me when I past her door. I didn’t even know she was home. I just looked at her and smiled more. “Do this have anything to do with Jack?” I nodded. “Oh, tell me.”
“I can't its… a secret.” I said, and continued walking to my room. Her being my nosy sister, followed me into it.
“Tell me!” she yelled lightly, and sat on my bed. I rolled my eyes.
“Fine,” I groaned. “but you can't tell anyone, okay?” she nodded.I took a breath and sat down next to her. “Jack and I have a date this weekend.” she looked at me with wide eyes.
“You and Jack? Really?” why does she seemed so surprised.
“Why are you saying it like that?” I asked her, she shrugged before giving her answer.
“I don't know. Aren't you afraid of getting caught? Like by the police or something, or worse, our parents?” I sighed and nodded.
“Yeah, of course I am. But we wanted to do this. We aren't going out out, just his house. Hes making dinner.” I tried to explained to her.
“Is he over Devon then?” I shrugged. “How do you not know?”
“He told me hes over him, but not completely. I told him to try something new to help him get over him and it lead to… us, I guess.”
“Well, be careful. I've already said it, but I didn't think you would actually get with him.” I just chuckled and rolled my eyes.
“I will.” I told her and she left the room. The second she left closing my door, I fell back against my bed and sighed in complete content. I couldn't wipe that stupid smile off my face, I was was too happy at the moment.