It was getting harder to explain to my parents where I disappear to all the time. I tried only going over when they were gone, but I really love being around Jack. I just kept up the act that I was at the gazebo everyday drawing. I drew up a bunch of stuff and pulled out my old stuff because occasionally my parents wanted to see what I was working on. They were all really shit drawings, but they were better than nothing.
About three days later, I found myself at Jack's again. We never kissed again, hell, we never even spoke of it, but occasionally I would catch him looking at my lips like he really wanted too. I stayed back though, still believing that he was just in a weird coping place. At the same time, I almost didn't care if I was his rebound, I just really wanted to kiss him again.
We were on his couch, Jack was deciding between a couple jobs that he got offers for. I told him he could just be a male stripper and everything would be great for the both of us, he didn't find that too funny though. Jack groaned and leaned back on the couch. Who knew that looking for a good job could be so hard. He was between a well paying job and job that he might actually enjoy.
“Go with the one you enjoy more.” I suggested and turned my whole body so I was facing him.
“I want to, but… This house a kind of expensive.” he said, looking at me. He looked kind of sad.
“Don't you have extra money from wherever you go it from?” she shook his head. “Where did you get the extra money?” I asked, he sighed again.
“My parents passed away when I was 18 and in college and they left me a lot of money. Not enough to hold me over forever, but enough to get me through a few years in a decent apartment. Devon and I used all of the rest from it when we moved up here. I paid for the house and then Devon and I split the bill. I was looking for a job, but only using this money to tie me over. Now that he’s gone…” he said, trailing off.
“I'm sorry about your parents.” I said to him. I couldn't imagine not having mine. Yeah, mine weren't exactly the most open about everything, but they are still my parents and I loved them.
“It’s fine. I’m over it.” he said. To the average person, he probably sounded really insensitive. I could hear the hurt in his voice though. It was quiet for a second before he started talking again. “It just kind of sucks how fast I blew through that money.” he sighed.
“Go with the job you like better, it’ll probably pay off better in the end.” I said again, and he nodded. He packed up a few of his papers and put them all in a pile. I'm not looking forward to growing up at all if this is what its like. “Can I ask you something?” I asked, and he hummed in response. “Umm… The first time you kissed me, you know, when we were sober… Why?” he sat his paper down and pushed them to the center of the coffee table.
“I don't know.” he looked at me and shrugged. “I guess I just really wanted too.”
“But why? You just broke up with Devon and…”
“ I know, I know.” he said, cutting me off from my sentence. “I'm sorry I did it. I was just so used to kissing Devon when he left or when he helped me through something. I guess it was just natural.” I nodded. It made sense, I guess. In a way. “But the make out session the other day was completely on you.” he smiled, and chuckled.
“Yeah, sorry. Again. Hormonal teenager remember.” he just laughed to himself and nodded in agreement.
“You should have seen me as a teenager,” he laughed. I gave him a questioning smile. “Let’s just say I'm surprised I don't have kids.” I laughed at him shaking my head.
“Did you just sleep with everyone?” I asked, laughing. I could definitely see how he could be a ladies man, or a mans man in this case too. He shrugged it off like it was no big deal.
“I got around.” He got a little more comfortable on the couch so he was slouching anymore. “What about you? You see like you could get around. From what I know you're a pretty fun kid.” I just shrugged my shoulders shaking my head, feeling a little embarrassed. “Really? I would expect a cute kid like you to… you know.” I shrugged again.
“I guess I haven't just found the right person.” I said.
“Yeah. Well, you have your whole life. If I can say anything, wait until its someone you love. Whether you're in high school, college, married; it’s always better when you love someone. Even if you don't stay with them forever.” I nodded.
“Did you love Devon?” wow, I'm stupid. You don't ask a guy after his break up if he loved his boyfriend.
“I thought I did.” he said, nodding. “Misleading feelings, I guess. Love makes you blind to certain things. Some of those are bad things.” I was going to talk more before my phone went off. I groan picking it up seeing a text from Rian.
‘Come over I'm bored. We haven't hung out in a while’
I was really considering it, but I also just wanted to be around Jack. “Go hang out with him.” Jack said next to me, I didn't even know he saw it. “You're a teenager. don't hang out with a boring adult all day.”
“You're not boring.” I told him
“Just go. I gotta call that job anyway.” I rolled my eyes getting up. “Bye, Alex.”
“Bye, Jack.” was the last thing I said before leaving his house. I walked down the street a few minutes until I made it to Rian’s house. I noticed that his parents were home so he was probably getting high or something and that's why he called me over.
I didn't even bother knocking, I just walked right in. I used to do it all the time, so why would this be any different. I walked in and closed the door behind me. No one was downstairs, so i went right up to Rian’s room. I knocked on the door, I waited for a ‘hmm’ and walked in. Rian was sitting on his bed with his bowl and a lighter. I chuckled a little going over to him and sitting on his bed in front of him.
“Hey, stoner.” I greeted him. He let out a puff of smoke and glared at me. I just smiled. He handed me the bowl and lighter and I took it from him. I rarely ever smoked, but I felt like smoking a little since its been a couple months. I put the bowl to my mouth and burnt the weed inside. I breathed in holding it for a second before slowly letting it out. For some reason, I really loved the look of smoke. I sat the bowl down.
“How are things?” Rian asked, taking the bowl back and hiding it in his night stand.
“Good. Its been a very… interesting summer so far.” I said trying to leave all this all open ended. I didn't wanna give too much away about being a little close with my neighbor. Rian was cool and he would never say anything, but just in case.
“What's so interesting about it?” I shrugged. “Is it a boy?” he asked, wiggling his eyebrows and dragging out the ‘o’. I rolled my eyes at the kid, but never giving him an answer. “So it is!” Rian shouted like he just struck gold. “Tell me! Who is it? What's he like? Do I know him?” damn this kid was annoying why he’s high.
“You know, you're really fucking nosy when you smoke.”
“I don't care. Tell me who.” I took a deep breath and started to talk.
“Fine,” I groaned. “It’s my neighbor. Jack.” he gave me a confused look.
“Do I know him?” I shook my head no. “Does he go to our school?” I shook my head again. “Then who is he?” I sighed, know that there was no way to get around this.
“He’s my neighbor.” I said again. “He’s 22. He moved here with his boyfriend in the beginning of June, but they recently broke up.” he was looking at me with a strange look, like he was still trying to process everything.
“And you're already after the D?” he looked at me with wide eyes and a small smirk tugging on his lips. I rolled my eyes and sighed staring at the floor. “So do you like him?” I nodded. Rian just looked at me for a second.
“He’s really nice and funny. He’s just a really cool person to be around and loves music like I do. I can't be with him though. Thats the sucky part about stupid teenage crushes.” I groaned, and flopped my body back against the bed.
“Why can't you be with him?” he asked.
“Because he’s an adult, it’s all Illegal, he just broke up with his boyfriend and lastly, my parents would fucking kill me.” I told him, and gritted the last one through my teeth.
“I think you should go for it.” he told me. “You always act older than you are, you can just keep it a secret from you parents and you know… the law. You need some excitement in your life, Alex. Maybe this guy can help your boring ass with that.”
“Hey!” I exclaimed and sat up. “I'm not boring.” I grumbled.
“Alex, you always play by the roles because of your overprotective parents. Do this one thing for you. I can tell you like him just by the way your talking about him.”
“I guess, but the last time he kissed me was because he just wanted that closeness.” I told Rian, sighing some more. It was kind of a sad thought. Anyone could tell you that its sucks when your crush doesn't actually like you back.
“Wait, he kissed you? When?”
“Umm… The first time, I kissed him and we were drunk. The second was because he wanted that closeness thing, and the third was just a make out session because I really wanted to kiss him.” I stopped and looked at Rian. he was looking back at me with a surprised look. I knew what he was thinking. “Yeah, yeah. I made out with him. It’s… Whatever.” It was silent for a little bit, right before I was going to talk, my phone went off. Every damn time.
‘You left your phone charger at my house. I have to leave, but I’ll put it on the table that's on the back porch.’ - Jack.
I smiled at the text. It wasn't really a smiling text, but i just liked hearing from Jack. “Ohh, you’re blushing. Is that Jack?” I nodded. “What did he say?”
“He just said I left my charger at his house.”
“oh. We go over and ‘thank’ him for finding it.” he said winking at me. I just shook my head and texted Jack back saying thank you.
“I'm leaving.” I said, getting up from the bed.
“Use protection!” Rian shouted as I left the room. Damn that kid. Hes annoying, but I can't hate him because hes too nice and hes one of my closest friends.
I left walking back down the street a little ways going back to Jack's. I went around back grabbing my charger for my phone and snuck back over to my house. Thinking about it, I wanna go for it. The worse that could happen is Jack rejecting me.
Blehh, I don't like this chapter, it feels really boring. Its kind of just a filler chapter I guess. I'm getting back into writing mode. I hope you guys at least like it. Thank you for reading and please let me know what you think c: