I was extremely excited for Jack and I’s date this weekend. I spent almost all week freaking out about it. It was really stupid, but I liked him a lot so I didn't really care. The only person I was able to talk to about this was Kenadie. She was completely accepting of all of it, but she always told me to be careful since he was still so much older than me. I told her not to worry though. Were weren't going out in public where we could get caught and I would say something if I got too uncomfortable.
I was really freaking out about our date. This is actually my first date, I've never been asked out, or really ever asked anyone else out. I’ve kind of been out with friends on their dates, sounds weird, but this was my real first one. I guess I'm a little behind for a 16, almost 17, year old boy. I just got out of the shower and I was standing in front of my bathroom mirror. I blow dried and my hair and started to straighten it. I was always really self-conscious about how I looked. I never thought that I looked bad, but I was still really afraid of what people thought. I was still getting used to the lighter blonde that I had now, every time I looked in the mirror, it would scare me a little, I'm not used to it yet.
I fluffed the back of my hair with a little bit of ‘ruff putty’ I stole from my sister, and fixed my fringe a little. I fixed the clothes that I was wearing so that I looked half way decent. I was just wearing a simple black and white t-shirt, blackish gray skinny jeans and my converse. I really didn’t own anything fancy. I took final look at myself and sighed. It sucked I wasn’t more attractive, I always thought my face looked weird, but I couldn’t actually change that.
I walked into my sisters room, knocking on the door frame, she looked up and told me to come in. “Do I look okay?” I asked her, feeling really self-conscious again. She got up and walked over to me looking at me.
“Yeah, you look good. Not too overdressed, but not under dressed for dinner either.” I let out a breath feeling a little better.
“I just wanna look good for him.” I told her, looking at her through my lashes. She always looked really good on dates, and I never had the experience.
“Don’t you usually look good on date anyway?” she asked me. I just shrugged.
“I’ve never been on a date before,” I mumbled under my breath. She gave me a shocked look. “I know, I know. I’m a loser and I’m behind everyone.”
“No, I wasn’t going to say that. I’m just surprised that you haven’t been out before. You’re a cute kid so it’s weird. I guess its understandable though. Being interested in guys, but can’t tell anyone.” I nodded at her. “Well, since this is your first date, make it count. Bad first dates suck.” she chuckled. I laughed with her and turned to walk out the door. “Good luck, don’t stay over too late. Mom and dad will kill you. I’ll call you if their plans change.” I nodded and left her room.
I made my way downstairs and over to Jacks. I was a couple minutes early, but I don’t think that he’ll mind. Its only about five minutes early. I knocked on the door taking a really deep breath. I’ve been over here so many times, but this was different, it was a date. A couple of seconds later, Jack opened the door smiling at me.
“Hey,” I said to him.
“Hey,” he replied back and let me inside. “I have everything in the dining room.” he said leading the way. We turned the corner and I saw the whole set up. I smiled like an idiot at everything. The lights were slightly dimmed and the table was all nicely set up. “ I realized right before I was going to cook that I had nothing to actually cook, so I hope that spaghetti is okay.” I nodded. “It has some spices in it to change it up a little.”
“It looks great. I spaghetti is my favorite, so thanks.” I smiled, and went over and sat down. Jack got the giant bowl of food and brought it over putting some on my plate and then some on his.
“What would you like to drink?” he asked, I shrugged. She silently laughed to himself and turned to the fridge. “I have water, milk, juice,” he laughed at himself.
“What about wine?” I asked, with a cheeky smile on my face.
“Alex, I don’t know if that’s a good idea.” he told me and sighed a little.
“Oh come on, this is a date, we have to have wine.” she smirked and rolled his eyes.
“Fine, fine. You win, but don’t tell anyone.” he said, and turned opening a cupboard and pulling out a bottle of wine. “I was saving this, so you’re lucky.” I just smiled at him. He mocked my smile and came over opening the bottle and pouring some in both of our glasses. He sat the bottle down and sat down across from me. We started eating, kind of awkward, I didn’t know what to talk about.
“This is really good. You’re a good cook.” I told him after I swallowed my first bite. He mumbled a thanks through his food and we kept eating. By the time we were done, we were both on our third glass of wine.
“So,” I started a little awkwardly. “Tell me about yourself and your family. I’ve never really hear too much about them.
“Okay, well, I’m Jack Barakat,” he said and started laughing.
“I’m being serious,” I laughed with him. “I wanna know more about you.”
“Okay, okay. Serious time.” he smiled. “You know about my parents. The passed away when I was 18 and going into college. I miss them, but I know they’re better now. My dad was sick for a long time and my mom passed shortly after he died.” he looked down then back up changing who he was talking about. “I have an older sister named May. Who is ten years older than me. I also have an older brother named Joe, he’s nine years older than me. I haven’t seen them in a long time. Three years maybe.”
“How did your parents react to you being gay?” I was a pretty personal question, but I was curious. He thought for a second and started talking again.
“They were never against it, but they were never for it. It was pretty mutual thing between us. I told them when I was sixteen like, ‘hey, I like guys.’ They never said too much about it, they kind of avoided it, same with my siblings. It wasn’t until I was 17 and I got my first serious boy did they really come around and accept it 100% because they saw how happy I was.”
“You’re lucky. My parents would flip shit and probably send me to bible camp or one of those programs that ‘turn you straight’” I said rolling my eyes.
“You never know, maybe once your parents see you happy with someone, they’ll come around. You are their kid after all and they want you to be happy.” I nodded.
“Maybe. I don't plan on telling them until I move out. So I can’t get it off my chest and not have to deal with them.” Jack nodded understanding.
“Are you done? We can watch a movie or something?” he suggested. I nodded and he got up taking the food and dishes off the table. I helped him by taking the bottle of wine to the living room. “Haha, very funny.” he said sarcastically when he came in to where I was.
“What?” I laughed at him and sat down. “It’s a date right?” I asked him, and he nodded. “Then we can drink.” I smiled and he just rolled his eyes. He bent down opening a small cupboard under the TV where some movies were. I couldn’t help but check out his butt a little. He has a really nice ass. He turned to me with two movies in his hand. I didn't really read what they were and just told him to put whatever he wanted in, it took him a while before deciding on a movie, but finally did. He put in to movie and sat down on the couch next to me. I didn't really want to watch the movie, I just want to make out with him again.
“Why are you staring at me?” Jack asked about 20 minutes into the movie. I didn't even notice I was staring at him, for for that long until I looked at the clock.
“Oh, sorry. I didn't mean too.” he chuckled to himself and took a drink of the wine. We went on watching the movie. Turns out it was Home Alone. I had never actually seen it before, but Jack told me it was his favorite movie and that I was a demon for never watching it, he was joking of course. The movie was okay, but I guess I wasn't that into it.
I was starting to get sleepy and swayed a little bit. I eventually rested my head on Jack's shoulder. At first I thought that he was going to push me off, but he didn't. Maybe he felt to awkward or didn't want to be mean, but I was tired, so I didn't care all that much. I tried to stay awake, but Jack was really comfortable, a little boney from being so skinny, but still comfortable. My eyes slowly started to flutter close until all I saw was black and the distant sounds of the TV where the movie was still playing.
I woke up to the light bouncing off the TV and hitting me right in the eyes. I tried moving slightly, but realized I was between the back of the couch and another body. I let my eyes adjust to the bright room and look at the sleeping boy next to me. I smiled and awed at how cute Jack was when he slept. His eyes closed lightly, mouth open just a little bit and his hair poking in all different directions. Somehow we were both laying down on the couch sleeping, the TV still on from last night. Last night. shit.
I squirmed a lot trying to get out of the hole I was in. Jack groaned and opened his eyes. “What are you doing?” he mumbled, and rubbed his eyes looking at me.
“I stayed over. I need to get home.” I tried getting up, but Jack held my arm keeping me close to him. “Jack!” I groaned still trying to get out of his hold.
“I already talked to you sister. She said your parents aren't coming him until Monday night.” he yawned and loosened his grip. I stopped squirming. “Just lay down... Go back to sle-” his sentence was cut off from him closing his eyes and going back to sleep. I sighed and laid back down, resting my head on his chest. It was so quiet, I could hear, and feel, his rhythmic heartbeat inside of his chest. I really liked it, I’ve never actually been this close with someone before.
Another few hours later, I woke up again, this time with no Jack next to me. I got up rubbing my eyes and pushing the blanket on the other other side of the couch. I guess Jack put it on me after he got up. I looked at the look noticing it was only lunch time. I smelled food coming from the kitchen, so I got up walking to the room. Jack looked really cute with his pajamas on and his hair still all messy while he cooked. I sat down at the bar as Jack turned to me. He smiled when his eyes landed on mine. He came over with a hamburger and sat it in front of me. I mumbled a thank you and took a bite.
“You know, you're a really good cook.” I smiled at him, and took another bite of food.
“Thanks, again.” he said, went in the living room. I picked up my plate and followed him. I sat on the couch next to him. We finished eating and it was kind of an awkward silence.
“So,” I chuckled. “Thanks for last night. I had fun.”
“No problem,” he said looking at me. “I had fun too. Usually I sleep with people on the first date, but I decided not to do that with you.” he laughed.
“Aw, maybe I wanted to do it.” I joked back.
“Nah, I don't wanna deflower you on our first date date.” he chuckled a little sarcastically. “maybe another time.” Jack winked at me. I felt a blush come to my cheeks, so I looked away. “Aw, don't blush. It’ll happen one day.” he can be a dick sometimes, but hes a cute dick. I looked back at him looking at his lips. I wasn't ready to sleep with him, but I didn't really want to make out with him. So I leaned forward attaching our lips.
Jack didn't hesitate to kiss me back. I put my hand on the back of his neck to make sure that he stayed in place. His hands went to my waist and hips. “You're gonna get me in a lot of trouble one day kid.” he mumbled against my lips. I chuckled and pulled back replying.
“But I’m worth it.” i laughed and kissed him again. This really felt right. I felt like a 14 year old girl that just figured out her crushed liked her back. I really don't want this to end.
Sorry this update took a while. I’ve been really busy and these past couple weeks for me have just felt really exhausting and I don't know why. Updates are probably only going to be once, maybe twice, a week. Thank you for reading, let me know what you think c: I miss the comments.