4. Not gonna lose you
I had realized what I had done and ran to Lacy's bedroom. I ran in to find her cutting herself! I grabbed the knife from her and kissed her hard, "I'm so sorry! I didn't mean it! I love you!" I said between kisses. She kissed me back letting me know it was okay. I picked her up and carried her downstairs.
I laid her on the couch and cuddled her. I kissed the scars and cuts on her arms. She cried as I did this, "I'm sorry Kellin," she whispered.
"Wrist are for bracelets not for cutting, Lacy," I said, "no more okay?" She nodded. I kissed her lips once more," I don't know what I'd do if I lost you," I kissed down her jawline earning a giggle from her. I looked into her bright green eyes and smiled. I realized I was still shirtless. I blushed and she giggled.
"Don't worry. I like you like this," she flirted running her fingers down my torso. I smiled and kissed her roughly. I ran my tongue across her bottom lip asking for entrance. She complied. Her hands went to my neck. I pulled away and she frowned.
"Not yet babygirl," I said. I wasn't thinking about me. I was thinking about her and her emotions. I didn't want her to go through what I did. By that I mean losing her virginity to someone and then that person hurting her. I wasn't gonna be that guy. I was gonna love her more than anyone could. I got up and walked upstairs to her room. She followed, "Where are they?"
"Your blades." She walked around and got them. One in the closet, one in her drawers, one under her bed, and one in her bag. She placed them in my hand and sat on the bed. I sat next to her and pulled her into my arms. I laid us down. I started singing a song I was working on. It was called Someone else. She slowly fell asleep.