The Nerd 2

It's been 9 agonising months since Tori set her eyes on that heart breaking tape of Justin cheating,9 months since she left without an explanation. Justin is no longer an important person in her life,but that doesn't mean she's still not over him...but that can all change when an unfortunate accident leaves her wondering if he really cares,and after everything she's been through,she want's an explanation on why he cheated,and most importantly who was the heartless idiot who recorded it,and why were they out to ruin Justin and Tori's lives. This book is filled with heartbreak and trust issues. You may think that Justin and Tori's relationship was perfect,but secrets hide underneath the truth...are you ready to discover them? Original work of Shawtyyymane_

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29. I've loved and I've lost

 

AN/ Hi my little shawtyyy's (is that still a thing idk lel)

So before you dive into this chapter I'm going to dedicate this chapter to a good friend of mine and a very loyal reader Amy_Bizzle (her username here on movellas) She contacted me yesterday I think on twitter and was extremely adorable once she realised I followed her back,she has been reading my book for a while now and deleted the movellas app a little while after I took that massive break,she told me how upset she was that I sorta abandoned that book for half a year but was over the moon once she realised quite recently that I'm frequently updating now. She has been a loyal reader since 2013 and I would just like to say thank you Amy,you are amazing and adorable and so sweet and your messages make me motivated to write,and thank you for showing your friends my book too...some of them don't even stan Justin and they seem to like it,Im flattered! I hope you're not freaking out right now in Dubai lol:) much love from Shawtyyymane_ xo

AND YALL JUSTIN'S SONG WHAT DO YOU MEAN IS BEING RELEASED ON THE SAME FUCKING DAY I SEE JUSTIN AT THE FUSION FESTIVAL...I HAVE VIP FUCKING TICKETS THAT MY DAD SURPRISED ME WITH BACK IN MARCH AND I SWEAR TO YOU I THOUGHT THAT WOULD BE AS GOOD AS IT GETS..BUT JUSTIN MAY PERFORM WHAT DO YOU MEAN FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER TO HIS UK BELIEBERS AND IM CRYING THINKING ABOUT IT LIKE SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME CHILL THE FUCK OUT I CANT BREATHEEE

IF ANYONE IS GOING TO THE FUSION FESTIVAL ON FRIDAY 28TH AUGUST AND IS READING THIS BOOK TELL ME AND ILL TRY AND MEET YOU!!

Now onto the chapter!

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Justin's POV:

It must of been the early hours of the morning when I finally became aware of my surroundings,Sleeping in an all body cast was extremely difficult and drained me. I was so used to moving around and shuffling in my sleep but I couldn't even itch my nose if it was itchy..It was pure agony. 

It was almost as if the Tv was playing a cartoon as the room was silent,I let my eyes rest for a while before I was ready to open them and become fully awake.

I let out a sigh and blinked my eyes open,slightly in my sighting range I could see the top of the door frame and the bright light illuminating the hospital halls outside my door. 

My door was cracked open a smidge and I could hear machines all the way from down the corridor. 

I had a emergency button just below my hand so I could easily press it without hurting myself. A nurse rushed in and smiled at me ''Why are you up so late huh? couldn't sleep?'' She smiled sympathetically. 

I cleared my throat. ''If I could nod my head I would.'' I sadly replied. ''I hate this damn thing'' I whined.

She smiled at me sadly. ''Just hang in there Justin,you'll be out of there before you know it.'' She chimed.

I sighed. ''I called you in here cause I'm really thirsty,and do you know what the time is?'' I asked politely. She rushed over to the water dispenser outside my room and hurried back in holding the cup for me as I let the cool liquid slide down my burning throat. ''The time is 4:32am.'' She called out,glancing at her watch. I smiled weakly and thanked her before she collected my cup and went to walk out the room. But she suddenly stopped in her path and I heard her speak as I stared confused looking at the ceiling. ''Miss! The visiting hours passed ages ago! what are you doing here still? I'm sorry but you must go.'' She politely stated,walking over to somewhere I couldn't see from my point of view.

 

''Please let me stay.'' The person whispered. 

''I'm sorry but you have to leave..the next visiting hours are in 6 hours,by all means come back then,but right now no visitors are allowed.'' The nurse replied more sternly this time.

''Who is it? Mom?'' I called out,trying to move my head. 

 

''Unless you are mediate family you can't stay here,are you related to Justin?'' The nurse asked.

''Um,n-no.'' The other person whispered before it sounded like they got up out of their chair. 

Suddenly out the corner of my eye I saw that gorgeous long brown hair flutter on their shoulders as they went to walk out the door. I knew who it was instantly.

''Tori?'' I called out. ''No! Don't go..please let her stay!'' I called frantically,I couldn't move but I tried to make myself sound powerful.

 

''She can't be in here.'' The nurse stated,ushering her out the door. 

''P-Please..I'll do anything..she doesn't live here so she has no where to stay tonight!'' I cried out,I tried to move but instant pain travelled up my body. ''F-Fuck.'' I growled.

I closed my eyes in pain and as I opened them The gorgeous brown haired girl stood over me with a worried look plastered over her flawless face. 

 

''Shit,are you okay?'' She whispered,not looking me directly in my eyes as she worriedly checked over my cast.

''Tori.'' I whispered. She ignored me and frantically asked me what was wrong. ''T-Tori.'' I spoke a bit louder this time,instantly catching her attention. 

She bit the inside of her cheek as her eyes traveled down to my lips,I licked them and her eyes averted to the chipped paint on the wall above my head. ''You're here..you came to see me.'' I smiled. 

She hesitantly placed her hand on my cheek. ''Of course I did.'' She smiled back,brushing my stray hairs out of my eyes softly as I closed my eyes at her comforting touch. 

''W-Why?'' 

''Justin..you don't have to be alone,I've always been here,even if it wasn't physically..I still care about you.'' She reminded me shaking her head as a tear slowly dropped out of her beautiful eyes.

''The way I feel like now I just wish that fall killed me,this cast is agony..I can't do anything,I can't touch you.'' I whimpered,looking away from her as a tear fell from my eye too. 

''You're here for a reason,remember that.'' She stated. ''I have to go but if you would like I could see you in the morning?'' She asked,stepping back a little. 

''No!'' I cried out. ''Please don't go..don't leave me again.'' I pleaded,looking her dead in the eyes as her gaze quickly switched to something else. 

''Justin..'' She shook her head,looking back at me. ''I think you fail to realise I left you for a reason.'' 

''Come closer.'' I demanded. She obeyed and stood over the bed so I could see her again. ''Hurting you was the worse thing I could do,you meant- mean everything to me...I'm so lost without you,I miss you so much it hurts.'' 

Tori's body began to shake as she looked up at the ceiling,trying to hold in her tears. ''I miss you too.'' She admitted,shaking her head in the process. ''I feel like I've made a big mistake leaving you,you meant everything to me and I feel so lonely without you.'' She continued,closing her eyes as her head moved. ''I still love you.'' She whispered,opening her eyes to look down at me. 

My heart skipped several beats as I looked up at her longingly. ''I love you so much.'' I smiled,it was the only thing I could do.

She sat down on the side of the bed and grabbed my hand gently,running her thumb over my cold hands soothingly. ''I came here as soon as Pattie rang me,she told me everything and within an hour I had already booked my flight..it took me a while to get here obviously but I left mid-day yesterday,I was so scared to even walk in here and see you like this..it broke my heart,If I we're still here this would of never happened.'' She sobbed letting go of my hand and bringing her knees up to her chest. ''Its all my fault.'' 

''Bab-Tori..please don't think like that,I'm here...I'm alive,I'm okay..at least I think I am.'' I chuckled. 

She shook her head. ''I feel so bad,I'll make it up to you,anything you want I'll give you...'' 

A small smile slowly creeped up on my face and I motioned for her to come here,she got up and leaned over the bed,staring down at me questioningly.

''I want you to kiss me and take all the pain away.'' I whispered,watching her glossy eyes as she nodded slowly. 

She placed her hand on my cheek and leaned down,her lips hovering over mine as I desperately waited for her to kiss me. 

''I love you Justin,I've never stopped.'' She spoke,her words seemed so true and sincere. 

A small smile formed on my face but it instantly vanished once she pressed her plump lips onto mine. I craved her kisses. 

Tori pulled away slightly but our lips were still attached,I used all the strength in my body and moved my head up trying to kiss her better,but a surge of pain shot all the way down my back. I fell back on the bed in agony as I hissed under my breath.

Tori smiled at me sadly. ''Didn't take the pain away huh?'' She whispered,running her hands through my hair. 

I shook my head as I couldn't even speak with the pain I was experiencing right now. 

''I hate it here..why me? why did I have to pay the consequences..I fucking hate myself.'' I grumbled,wanting nothing more than to go home and overdose on pills. 

''You've got me Justin,don't hate yourself for something you had no control over.'' 

 

I was so upset I couldn't even kiss her properly.

''I'm just so sick of constantly being in pain,weather its physical or mentally.'' I admitted,averting my eyes away from Tori's. 

''You've had a tough yeah..but I promise I'm here for you now...I won't let you fall.'' 

''Tori,I want to finish this journey together..I don't ever want to loose you again.'' I whispered sadly,I was so done with loosing the people I loved

''Every time we spend time apart we always come back stronger...I know we can do this.'' She reassured me,taking my hand in hers.

''Together?'' 

''Together.'' 

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so im not sure about this chapter I thought it would be cuter tbh but i got tired and I was on oovoo till like 2am so yaa hope you enjoy..

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