Sorry for the wait guys...I had a bunch of homework to do over this week so I had no time to upload these past 2 days:)
heres the long awaited chapter including Jazzy's pov.
I was angry at Biebz,Daddy told me he would take me to ballet.
''Jazzy sweetie.'' Someone whispered in my little ears.
I had just finished ballet when Chloe,my best friends momma came up to me.
I looked up at her.
''Justin is busy as you know,but I'm gonna take you home.'' She smiled,bouncing Chloe's younger brother on her hip.
He was called Felix and had bright blue eyes. I loved him.
I nodded my head,running over to Chloe. ''Chloe were going home together!'' I squealed,jumping up and down with her.
''Yay! we can play my little pony in the car!'' She smiled,taking out her pink pony out of her purple bag.
''I want the purple one!'' I yelled,running after her as she ran over to her mommy.
''Let's go girls.'' Chloe's mom chuckled,taking her hand and waiting for me to hold Chloe's.
I did and we skipped over to their car.
I yawned as I played with the small purple pony. ''My name is violet..and I like Chris Castro.'' I giggled,blushing as I mentioned my crush.
Chloe's mommy turned around and chuckled. ''Is that your crushes name Jazmyn?'' She asked,glancing back at the road as we drove down the free way.
I nodded my head sheepishly.
I was actually dating him...but don't tell Justin or he will scare him away.
He was real cute...blue eyes and brown floppy hair..he always held my hand and shared his sour patch with me,I loved him.
''That's cute.'' She stated,looking at me through the rear-view mirror.
I looked over at Chloe who was playing peek-a-boo with Felix.
''Peek-a-boo!'' She yelled,uncovering her eyes and leaning forwards tickling his small stomach.
Felix giggled and sucked happily on his pacifier.
''Ew...Mommy when was he last changed?'' Chloe murmured after a second,she scooted away from the stinky baby and looked at me.
I giggled and leaned over looking at Felix.
All of a sudden the pacifier popped out of his mouth and fell to the floor of the car.
''Oh shoot.'' Chloe's mommy sighed,face palming herself.
Felix started to scream and cry,the smell getting worse as he wriggled around in his car seat.
All of a sudden Chloe's mom leaned over and began trying to find the extra pacifier in the pocket of her back seat.
I knew this was dangerous but I didn't want to be rude,I was told better.
I sighed and looked out the window.
I just wanted to see Biebz,he always made me happy when he let me put lip gloss on him,and how he would watch barbie movies with me.
I frowned once I saw a car spinning around on the road.
Was it a trick? I want Chloe's mom to do it!
It was getting closer to our car and it began to roll.
''Um.'' I murmured. ''There's a-''
''One second Jaz,I'm just getting the pacifier.
She seemed kind of snappy so I didn't want to make her mad.
''Where's that damn pacifier?'' She hissed,glancing at Felix who was crying hysterically.
I gasped,she shouldn't say a bad word.
I looked back out the window and screamed when the car in front stopped.
Chloe's mom looked horrified and snapped back to the road,and she swerved out the way,hitting another car in the process.
And that's when I felt my head hit the seat in front.
I felt the tears well up in my eyes and I wanted daddy to hug me before I did,but I knew that wasn't going to happen.
I looked out the window again to see a giant truck hitting on it's breaks as it quickly approached our car.
''IZZY!'' I screamed,begging her to move the car.
But she was too busy rubbing her head as she looked at the front of her car.
She had gotten out to speak to the person she crashed into whilst me Felix and Chloe were still in the car.
I couldn't undo a seatbelt otherwise I would be saying sorry to the man too.
''IZZY!'' I screamed again,waving my arms as she looked up towards our car.
And suddenly,something hit me from the side,flinging my body across the car.
I screamed but it wasn't heard,everything was in slow motion and blood was everywhere.
And then I hit the floor,my body falling onto the my little pony's and the pacifier.
It was so hard to keep my eyes open,and I began to scream desperately.
But I felt tired as I continuously called out Justin's name.
''Justin.'' I whispered,finally as my throat closed up and air wasn't able to pass through my body.
I was left lifeless on the floor whilst Izzy,Chloe's mom's screams were heard,and that's when I knew it was bad.
That person spinning their car wasn't good...they were going to kill people,and so they did.
****** (sorry for the big word's she's using..I wanted to make the text better instead of 5'year oldy so just ignore that..It sounds better using better description instead of the basics you learn when your 5)
I walked into the room,seeing her lifeless body sprawled on the pure white sheets.
She still looked like a princess regardless of the bruises and scars covering her body.
She was my little princess,and I hurt her.
I had found out from the nurse that The carer of Jazzy wasn't even in the car when the second crash happened.
Therefore there was no one there for Jazzy.
It had been confirmed that Felix had died on impact as his fragile body couldn't take the pressure of the truck.
Jazzy was found crippled on the floor...
And Chloe...her body had somehow been found in the part of grass at the side of the free way.
She is now in a coma..fighting for her life.
I didn't want to know what condition Jazzy was in...I don't want to hurt any more.
I've been hurt so many times over the past couple of months and it's right about now that I'm the most vulnerable..I don't know if I can take all of this pain any more.
Tori was right by my side as I looked down on Jazzy.
Her hair was all tangled with blood,she had a stitched up cut on her forehead,bruises all over her arms and face,a black eye...and don't forget the leg cast,suspending her led in the air.
She was 5 for fuck sake...
Every injury was caused by me..
I shouldn't even be receiving sympathy from nurses...if they knew I did this they wouldn't give me a second glance.
I hated myself for this...absolutely hate myself.
All of a sudden Tori had placed her arm on my shoulder,I shrugged it off like hot rocks and gave her a look.
Why is she touching me when I've done such a thing.
''Justin...Jazzy's just got a broken leg,hip and wrist...and a cut on her forehead..''
''Just? JUST? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? THAT'S WAY TOO MUCH FOR A LITTLE GIRL TO GO THROUGH...I PUT HER THROUGH IT.'' I growled,picking up anything I could find and throwing it to the floor.
''IF IT WASN'T FOR ME THIS WOULDN'T OF HAPPENED...IF I DIDN'T JUST GET UP OFF MY LAZY ASS AND TAKE HER SHE WOULDN'T BE GOING THROUGH THIS PAIN...I DON'T CARE IF IT'S ONLY A FEW BROKEN BONES..SHE SHOULD NEVER HURT LIKE THIS TORI! SHE'S A FUCKING LITTLE GIRL...MY LITTLE SISTER! THE ONLY BONES BREAKING SHOULD BE THE BOYS SHE TRIED TO DATE WHEN SHE'S OLDER..I-I CAN'T DEAL WITH THIS!'' I screamed,walking straight for the door.
I'm so done with everything...first I loose Tori and now Jazzy? who next? mom?
I'm just so done,I'm not risking it...I need to get outta this situation fast..and I only had one option.
I would do it...
I'm gonna do it...
for all the pain I've caused...
What's the point in being here when everything I love gets taken away from me?
I'm not sticking around much longer..I just cant.
It may cause a little heartache..
But not as much as I've experienced this last year...you would of thought my heart has broken by now.
well your right...but much worse,the pieces from my heart were too small to even fix...it was just a pile of dust by now..and that's not healthy for anyone.
So putting myself out of my own misery would do the job.
And this time I won't chicken out...I'll cut deep enough,I know I will.
so this was't a decent written chapter..I feel like I could of done better..but I'm so tired and I have 'Surfboard- Cody Simpson' on replay,it's amazing and so catchy..if you haven't buy it from itunes..it's amazeballs:p
~so come on,let the ocean take me away~