I pulled away from him and looked up.
He had a huge grin on his face.
What did i just do?
She kissed me, she actually kissed me!
Take that Collin.
She looked surprised.
"I'm not sure why i just did that." She said.
"Maybe I'm growing on you." I said.
She looked scared.
"I have to go." She said turning to leave.
How come she always runs off?
What was i going to tell Collin?
Should i even tell him?
When i approached my house i found myself walking up Collin's walkway.
I knocked on the door.
"Hey Em, what's up?" He asked opening the door.
"I need to talk to you." I said.
His smile disappeared.
He lead me to the couch.
"What's wrong?" He asked.
How do i say this?
"I think i have feelings for Kyle." I blurted out.
He just stared at me.
"Say something." I said getting nervous.
"I don't know what to say, I'm shocked, especially because of everything he has done, he's trouble." Collin said.
"You don't know anything about him." I said.
"I know that he tried to hurt me and YOU and that he committed suicide, he's not right in the head." Collin said.
"Collin he told me about his life, and it wasn't pleasant." I said.
"No ones life is perfect." He said.
Which was true, his life was certainly not perfect.
"Just because his life was screwed up doesn't mean he can take it out on everyone else!" Collin said.
"I know that, but he just snapped." I said.
"And what if he snaps again." He said, "then what?"
I was silent, what if he were to snap again?
"Thats what i thought, i don't want you to get hurt by him." Collin said.
"I know, but i don't think he would so that to me, people change." I said.
"People only act like their different, when really they are still the same person." Collin said.
"Where does this put us?" I asked.
"Well you need to be fully committed to someone when your in a relationship." Collin said.
"I have to chose don't i?" I asked.
One of them is going to be left broken hearted.
"Okay, i just need some time to think, so its probably best if i don't see either of you for a while, so you two wont influence my decision." I said.
"Alright, just be careful." He said.
I nodded and left.
How was i going to choose?
I needed Jakes advice.
I knocked on his door.
A girl opened it, she had long black hair and dark brown eyes.
"Hi!" She said.
"Um...hi is Jake there?" I asked.
"Yup, come in!"
"Hey Emily!" Jake said as i came into the living room.
"Hey." I said.
"Oh this is Scarlet, by the way, she's a friend of mine." He said.
"I was wondering if you could help me with something." I asked.
"Of course!" Jake said.
"I'll go make some lemonade." Scarlet said leaving the room.
"What's up?" He asked.
"Boy problems." I said.
"I like both Collin and Kyle..."
He looked shocked.
"I don't know who to choose."
"Who treats you better?"
"Well they both do-"
He cut me off "didn't Kyle strangle you?" He asked.
"Well yeah but..." I didn't know what to say.
"I guess Collin does." I said.
"To me it sounds like you don't want to choose Collin, did something happen between the two of you?"
"I found out something about him and its kind of been bothering me, i understand why he didn't tell me but i just couldn't believe it." I said.
"Ask him about it."
"But then he'll know i was snooping."
He looked confused.
"Kyle brought me to the Document Centre to show me his file and then i came across Collins file and Kyle said i should open it-"
"Wait Kyle told you to open it and how did you even get in there?!" He asked cutting me off.
"Yes and he knew someone who worked there." I said.
"He probably wanted you to find something about Collin, i would still talk to him if its bothering you." He said.
"So i should chose Collin?" I asked.
"It really is up to you, Collin does treat you better but who makes you happy?" He asked.
"They both do."
"Okay i got an idea, who can't you live without?"