I stopped crying on Calum's shirt. which was all wet.
'' What's Wrong Kendall ?'' he asked.
'' i just miss them, it's been hard... i just want them to come back" I said as i wiped my tears and looked up at him.
'' Is that all that's bothering you'' he asked, he was really worried about me. His eyes were mixed with anger but kindness.
'' Um" i didn't want to tell him about Luke.
'' Is it Luke ?'' he asked, ugh what's with him and questions i know he cares but.
'' It's... complicated'' was all i could say.Calum layed down on my bed and put his head on my pillow.
'' I've got time'' he said smiling, i rolled my eyes and stood up. I grabbed my chair from my desk and sat down. And i began to tell him.
Once i got home i went straight to my room and walked to my bathroom and took a shower. Once i got out of the shower i changed into some sweat pants. i didn't bothering wearing a shirt.I walked into my room and sat down on my chair.I ran a hand over my hair and took a deep breathe. I looked at my desk, and saw a piece of paper and a pen. I took the pen and began writing lyrics on the paper.
The Only Reason
Don't talk, let me think it over
How we gonna fix this?
How we gonna undo all the pain?
Some how they reminded me of her.
Of Kendall, i don't know why.
Why did i have to leave like that, why couldn't i just ignore it and just stay there with her ?
I'm a screw up.
I've always been one.
"Am sorry to hear that Kendall, but don't worry he will come around soon you'll see'' Cal said. i sighed. It was eight pm. we were both tried. From todays drama.
'' What if he doesn't ?'' i asked, Cal stood up and walked towards me.
'' he will you'll see '' Cal winked at me, i laughed.
'' Now I'm going to bed, i think you should too'' he said, i nodded.
'' Night Cal'' I said, he smiled and kissed my forehead.I closed my eyes as he did.
'' Night Ken'' he said and walked out of my room closing the door.
I turned to my desk and took out my songbook and a pencil.
Make You Believe
Down on your knees
She made you feel like you're worthless
You just don't deserve this, no no
How does it feel?
To think that you gave all you could
Wish you did but you would.
I don't know his whole story between him and Katie but one thing i do know is she brought him a lot of pain.
Why I'm i feeling this way ?
I don't want to but i want him to gain his trust in love again. I shook my head and continued writing.
I'll be the ears you talk to,
The doors you walk through,
The arms to hold on to,
You're safe with me
Your heart's been stolen
Eyes wide open
Trust is broken
But I'll make you believe again
Make you stronger
So we'll live longer
You've lost your faith in love
But I'll make you believe again.
I dropped my pen, I'm going to make him believe in love again if it's the last thing i do.I know i said, i wouldn't fall for him. But i cant stop myself.I closed my songbook and walked over to my bed. Rider walked in and climbed in bed with me. I laughed.
'' Night Rider'' i said as i layed down and turned off the lights.
'' Ain't it fun living in the real world,Ain't it good being all alone'' The song came blasting through my IPhone.
I turned it off and got out of bed.
I walked over to my book shelf and took out my iPod. I unlocked it and played the song The Only Exception by Paramore.
Then i walked over to my closet to pick out my clothes for today. I started singing along. I finally found something to wear.Then i walked to my bathroom and turned on the water to take a shower.
I got out of the shower, and changed into this.i put on some black vans. Then i blow dried my hair.
After that i brushed it out and styled it. I put on a flower crown or headband whatever you want to call it. I turned out looking like this.Last but not least i did my makeup. I went for a Smokey eye shadow look. It turned out looking good. I walked over to my iPod and turned off the music, then i got my IPhone and walked downstairs.