3 days without talking to Cameron.
I wish i was strong enough to talk to him about this, but i wasnt.
I loved Cameron, and i was sick and tired of all this drama.
I had to let him go, or atleast tell him how i felt.
I needed to talk to him, but it was to late.
I didnt mean to kiss him at the first place, i never ment to fall inlove....
I never ment it to mean this much...
He was to perfekt for me.
I was a mesh but i had to tell him how i felt and that i wanted to be with him.
I took the courage i had left and walked towards Cameron's room.
I got to the door and took a deep breath.
I knocked and waited.
I heard someone come towards the door and it opened.
In that moment, my heart broke.
I swear i could hear it break into 1 million pieces...
Julie smiled at me.
"Hello Sam" I felt the tears coming.
but NO i wasnt going to cry infront of her, i wasnt going to be weak not now.
"Oh, hey Julie. Uhm is Cameron here?" I tried to look behind her, but i couldnt.
"Uhm, no i think he went to magcon downstairs"
I fake smiled. "Oh great, i'll see you later then"
I ran downstairs.
I could hear the screaming girls, but i didnt hear the guys yet so i guess they were still backstage.
I ran towards them and walked inside.
Cameron was standing infront of a mirror, fixing his hair next to Nash.
I walked behind him, so he could see me in the mirror.
"Ava" He smiled and stopped touching his hair.
He turned around and looked at me.
I looked at him but i just couldnt hold the tears back anymore....
He held my right hand.
"If this is about our fight, then im truly sorry Ava, i wasnt suppose to be such an asshole"
I wipped away some tears and looked up at him.
"Why didnt i know Julie was here?"
"Oooh, Ava. I can exp" He didnt get longer before Julie ran towards us and kissing the crap out of him.
It just broke my heart even more.
The tears rolled and rolled and rolled down my cheeks.
"10 Minutes guys" A man came into the room.
I shoke my head and ran out of the room.
I ran upstairs to my room.
"Ava!" I heard Cameron running after me.
I ran towards my room and locked the door behind me.
I heard Cameron run towards the door and knocking hard on it.
"Ava, please let me in"
I didnt response.
i stood up against the door and i finally let all my tears out.
"Ava, please. i can explain"
He kept knocking hard on the door.
I slowly slided down the door so i was sitting up against it.
I could feel all Cameron's hard knocking.
"Ava, i love you. Please let me explain"
I took a deep breath and got up.
The door got unlocked and it slowly opened.
Ava was all wet in her face and her eyes were red.
She just stood there, she didnt even blink.
"Cameron. I never even ment to kiss you in the first place. I never ment to fall inlove. I never ment to hurt you or Julie, i never ever ment for any of this to mean as much as it does"
She pushed her hair away from her face and wipped away a tear.
"What is wrong with me? I dont get it. How can i feel this way about you, youre my best friend"
She took hold of her chest right on the heart and ripped a bit in her hair.
I walked closer and held tight around her.
"Nothing is wrong with you Ava"
I couldnt do this anymore.
I had to let Ava know how i really felt about her.
I took hold of her and got her to sit down on her bed.
I sat down next to her, and held her hand.
She looked at me.
"I would do anything for you, you light up my entire world just by smiling. You make me laugh and i feel so good around you. You can do nothing wrong, anything you do i perfect and so are you. i love you Ava, i love you so much it hurts to think about it. There is so many questions i have wondered, but i dont ask why. I just need you to know how i feel about you. I would do anything for you. I love you so much, so much"
She smiled and looked at me for a minute or something.
I coudlnt handle all of this, i was going to end it between me and Julie.
Ava was the girl for me.
I didnt know how i couldve been so blind and stupid for this long.
Why didnt i realise that Ava was my one true love?
I guess that sometimes life just didnt make sense.
Ava let go of my hand and moved her head closer to mine.