I couldn’t feel my feet any longer , my knees became jelly and I almost fell on the floor . I’m not letting her give up . I’m not giving up ! I stood up slowly trying my best not to fall. I walked the fastest I could to her room. “sir , sir , you can’t get in” “go away!!” I yelled “no sir , you can’t !! “ “I said fucking go away” I pushed the nurse and walked past her. there was a lot of them . they wanted to kick me out of the room. But no ! I’m not letting them do.. I pushed all the nurses on my way . I walked to her bed and sat on my knew. Took her cold hand in my hands“jade , listen to me ! you can’t give up!” I yelled hoping she could hear me at some point “sir , you have to go out!” I ignored him and watched the doctor and the nurses in front of me checking the machines. I looked at the pulse machine , and there was a firm line , indicating that there was no heart beating . is it over ? it can’t be over ! we can’t be over ! “jade ! I know you’re hearing me ! baby girl you can make it ! you can survive ! and then we will go to Tunisia and eat your favourite traditional plate. We will travel all around the world. Please jade wake up, so I can take you in my arms and make you feel safe. Jade please, we will get married and have a lot of kids. Baby girl , don’t give up. I know you’re strong. Remember when you said ‘I’ll do anything to be in your arms forever’ ? it’s now or never to fight. Jade I know you’re hearing me. I can feel it ” and I started sobbing uncontrollably “jade I love you” I whispered loud enough for anyone to hear.. I couldn’t move from the floor which I’ve already fell on . a nurse led me outside. I didn’t mind this time because I knew I had nothing to do. I’ve done what I could do but nothing changed.. it’s over … Our fights. Our hot nights. Our magical kisses. Our cutest moments. Our crazy memories.. everything is over. I am over .
I was on the ground my head in between my knees . crying my eyes out. Scooter sat next to me and put his head on my shoulder , I could feel his warm tears on my skin. He was crying too , who wouldn’t cry? The most beautiful , caring , loving ,big hearted girl in the whole world left ?.. she is gone ? but I promised to keep her safe, to keep her away from all the danger. To keep her confident. She wanted me back , and I kicked her away! I’m such a jerk ! I let go a fairy tale that easy !
I remember how cute she was, and how much she loved to dance and sing . how much she cared about broken people . I remember when she found a little boy crying in the street, I ignored him, but she didn’t! she had almost cried with him . I’ve never seen someone as caring as her. I’ve never wanted our story to have an end. I wanted her to be the mother of my children , the woman that will cook dinner to me every night. I wanted her to call me her husband. I wanted her to be the one for me, I wanted to spend my life with her.. I didn’t even have the apportunity to ask her for forgiveness. I let go of such a pearl , a diamond . how can such a beautiful girl be gone that fast... I should’ve killed that jerk ! anthony ….
“mister bieber? A minute please?” I heard a thick voice , I looked over it and it was the doctor, I stood up and walked over him, already knowing what he’s going to say.
He swallowed and took a deep breath “I just wanted to-“ “I-I know sir, I’ve s-seen the machine.. he-her heart stopped , she died, s-so please no need to tell me that a-again. I can’t take it anymo-“ “no sir I wanted to ask you what have you done?” “what do you mean?” “when you got in and said the few words you’ve said , her heart restarted beating !” “w-what?” “it’s a miracle ! no one expected her to live. We gave up . but sir you made her survive. You’ve said things that made her heart speed! ” I smiled the widest smile ever. “oh-oh my god.. I-I don’t know what to say” “I do not believe in fairytales , but this is a real one !” I hugged the doctor , I can’t control myself in these situations . I walked, no I didn’t walk I RAN , over scooter . he was waiting for me to explain what the doctor said. “SHE’S ALIIIIIIIIIIIIIVE !!!!” “what?” “she’s breathing she is alive ! “oh my god justin ! are you kidding?” “I’m not!” and I started jumping and screaming . “what happened?” I heard a worried female voice from the back of the hall, it was my mom I ran over her and hugged her “she’s alive , she’s alive” “wait? Was she even in danger? Oh my god ! justin why didn’t you tell me? “ “I-I am sorry mom , I was worried and-“ “okay okay , explain what happened to her!” .. I told my mother about all what happened and she was really surprised. i stayed in the waiting room, for two or three hours. My mom and scooter left a long time ago, but I couldn’t, I will feel really guilty if I’ll leave even though I have nothing to do with what’s happening. “mister bieber?” it was the doctor again I stood up and walked over him “is she alright?” “yes , she will probably wake up in few weeks” “thank you so much”
I was giving up , I felt weak, lost and broken. I could hear the machines beeping, which means I wasn’t breathing, but I didn’t care. I had nothing to live for. I was about to let my soul fly away, but when I heard his voice, The person that made me the happiest girl ever at some point. And the most miserable at another point. “jade ! I know you’re hearing me ! baby girl you can make it ! you can survive ! and then we will go to Tunisia and eat your favourite traditional plate. We will travel all around the world. Please jade wake up, so I can take you in my arms and make you feel safe. Jade please, we will get married and have a lot of kids. Baby girl , don’t give up. I know you’re strong. Remember when you said ‘I’ll do anything to be in your arms forever’ ? it’s now or never to fight. Jade I know you’re hearing me. I can feel it” he’s always a SmartAss ! ..
something made me want to stay . his words made me want to survive and to keep breathing . “jade I love you” these three words that I’ve never expected to hear again gave me all the strength I needed to breathe again. But, Then I heard nurses’ noise and I knew they kicked him out. i was trying to breathe so hard. I can make it , I can make it , I can make it …
‘tit tit tit tit’ was all what I heard. A machine’s beeping indicating a heart’s beating. I made it ! “oh my god , doctor , she’s breathing” “give me the oxygen”…
I think,it’s time to ignore their voices . I closed my eyes , oh wait they’re already closed, as I didn’t open them yet, and fell asleep.
I woke up, and decided to open my eyes slowly and carefully so I can adjust the light to my eyes. I opened, then closed them .again , again and again . to finally get used to the feeling of opening my eyes. Ouf , it feels like thousand years without opening my eyes. I looked around me , I was in a white room . still in the hospital room. My arms attached to machines. And so my chest. I noticed a chair in the back of the room. I wanted to say something, but it was pretty hard at first. “who are you” I said with a soft little voice. “oh jesus Christ ! she woke up!” they turned to face me. And it was the biggest shock . I’ve never expected to see his face again. There, stood in front of me, justin drew bieber! I wanted to fangirl and cry. But I was too weak. He walked over me “baby you woke up!” did he just call me baby ? “did you just call me baby?” “yes.. damn, I miss you so much! “ he leaned and kissed my cheek “am I dreaming?” “baby , you’re not!” “oh ..” “jade listen to me, either you’re thinking about the past or not, we got over it , and now I’m here okay?” “okay..” he hugged me closer. I nuzzled my head into his chest.. I miss that feeling . “I love you” I whispered “I love you more baby girl !” “what happened ? are you here since yesterday?” “no , I’m here for more than 3 weeks ” “but, it was yesterday when I heard you encouraging me right?” “not it was 24 days ago, and oh did you hear me?” “yes! ” “didn’t you hear me the first time I came here ? before you get operated? Or any other day after that?” “no, it was the only time I could hear and think . oh my god ! you have a moustache ” “aha , this is my little friend stache” “you look older with it” “and you look pretty” he sat on the bed next to me. I looked in his eyes, then to his lips. Kissable as always, then in his eyes again. i can’t focus with these pink wet lips in front of me . i licked my lips .“justin?” “mhm?” “i want you to kiss me” without saying a single word he leaned over and kissed me gently . nothing changed , i still love him as much as before ..