We went back to house , i wore my pyjamas and cuddled with jay ‘til we fell asleep ..
Me- what ? what the hell is going on !! “ I yelled while seeing justin kissing selena ..
Justin – baby its not like u think it is , I can explain ! “
Me- don’t explain justin ! what I’ve seen right now explains every thing !
Justin- but jade , I-I can’t live without you , I-I need you here “
I felt tears forming in my eyes “justin I love you, but I can’t take it anymore ! “ then I walked closer to selena and whispered in her ears “ you enjoyed the kiss huh ? ! “ I stopped because I started crying then restarted talking , to justin “ why are u doing this to me ! u know what I’ve been through I trusted you , I thought I was going to call u mine one day , but no …” then i ran away , because I was done with him ..
“baby ? “ .. I heard a voice whispering in my ears as I opened my eyes , it was justin “why are u crying baby ?? “ I hugged him tight , and whispered to his neck “don’t ever leave me “ he was confused , he didn’t understand what I was talking about
Justin- no i won't i promise , what was it about ?
Me- what ?
Justin- the nightmare ?
Me- oh don’t worry nothing ..
Justin- ooh come on !
Me- u were cheating on me …
Justin- oh baby , that will never ever happen ! I will be yours forever , okay ?
I nodded , and he kissed my neck …
I checked my phone ..
“ oh lord ! u're gonna be late , justin ,we have to get prepared!” he buried his head in my neck , so I could feel him breathing against it ,he is turning me on …
“u’re gonna miss ur flight ! get up !”
“no, lets just cuddle..”
“get up and get prepared, now! “
“uhmm ! okay ! u're gonna be a strict mother” he jumped and we both got prepared
We went downstairs holding each other’s hand … the breakfast was ready ..
Pattie-“ hey lovebirds “ and she did the kissy face
Justin started blushing .. we took our breakfast and drove him to the airport , I tried to not let my tears fall .. he did the check in and everything .. and now he’s going to leave .. he pulled me closer and hugged me , he didn’t let me go , and I didn’t either want to .. we hugged for five or six minutes … then he crashed his lips onto mine .. it was nothing but a passionate kiss ..
Then he hugged his mother so tight .. I could see tears in his eyes .. he was trying not to cry ..
He went to the plane
Me- “Pattie, I’m gonna miss him “
Pattie hugged me “ its just a month then he’ll come back for a break ! don’t worry sweetie! ”
We went back to our house , the room was so empty .. i hope he’ll go to France safely and come back safely…I laid on my bed , my face against the pillow , then I fell asleep…
“yeah justyy ? lemme sleep”
“ahhww sweetie its me pattie”
I woke up and looked at her , “yeah mommy ?”
Pattie- lets eat ?
Me- I really don’t want to..
Pattie- sweetie you have to ! “ she sat at the bed next to me “wow your pillow is wet , were you crying ?”
She hugged me and said that justin will skype with us when he’ll get to his hotel .. so I smiled and woke up .. we went to Mc Donalds and ate some burgers … when I felt my phone buzzing
Hi sweetie , its justin ,save this number .. I’ll call you when I’ll go to the hotel ! I miss you already .. I love you ! you’re my only sunshine !
I saved his new number and replied
Done , love you too , cant wait <3
A big smile appeared on my face..
We went back home , I skyped with justin for the whole night and he told me that we will skype everyday … he’ll begin the first show next day in Paris .. I was as excited as he is .. I wanted to be there so badly ..
He was tired so he went to sleep .. I wanted to sleep too , but I couldn’t , I got used to arms wrapped around me , I got used to his smell , to his hot breath against my neck .. I was searching for some pyjamas when I found his shirt , with a note on it
Hey jade, I knew that you’ll find my shirt , and I want you to know that I left it for you , because I’m pretty sure that you can’t sleep without me cuddling with you , so wear it and then you can feel my smell , I took your hoodie too (sorry for not asking before taking it tho) & now I can sleep wearing it , you’ll always be in mind whatever happens , promise me that you will never forget about me ! .. love you to the moon and back ,or maybe more than that! I know that you’re smiling with tears in your eyes right now honey , I know you very well , and now you’re grabbing your phone and writing a text for me aren’t you babe ? love you so much .. goodnight babe xx
He knew me so much , he was right , I was smiling with tears falling from my eyes I was grabbing my phone , and I texted him :
“Well yeah , you bet , you know me very well .. I love you more babe goodnight <3 “
I wore his shirt I felt more comfortable in it , I laid back down and I fell asleep …
I woke up next morning , and I was thinking about the events coming up , 3 weeks later is gonna be my birthday , I’m upset , so so so upset , because justin can’t spend my 18th birthday with me .. But I have to stay strong , and accept the truth as it is ..