Back to Nash's POV
"Bro, come to the party with us." Brent begs.
"No." I say firmly. I don't want to be in the same house as all those assholes.
"Fine, suit yourself." He shrugs and walks out of my room.
I don't get the point of a party. So you get people together in one house and you have fun to early hours in the morning, get drunk, get high, have sex, I get it have fun. But what happens the next day? What did you benefit from it? Losing your V card? Getting wasted? Throwing up your insides just because you chose to have fun? Possibly getting pregnant or an STD because what? You wanted to enjoy yourself?
It's all stupid. "I'm not going to that stupid party!" I yell as there's another knock at my door.
"Bro, can we talk? Please." Cameron begs.
I glare, but don't reply.
"Look, it wasn't fair of me to tell Skylar who at the moment doesn't know right from wrong that you bullied her. I should have stuck to the truth about Taylor but I just couldn't do it. I couldn't crush her like that. She was just so innocent and oblivious. I'm sorry, okay. Please just stop being mad at me."
"So that's it? You just expect me to forgive you and stop being mad at you because you're sorry?" I ask, I can't believe this.
"Basically." He nods.
"Skylar still thinks I bullied her and now she's twice as pissed with me because I was acting like a dick."
"You know what Nash? You expect so much from people because you think you're better than everyone else in the school! But you're not! You're just as bad as everyone here! I admit it was my fault that Skylar thinks you were her bully, but it's not my fault that you were being a dick to her! It's not my fault that she doesn't like you anymore! And it sure isn't my fault that Christina died!"
His whole rant surprises me, but the last part shocks me.
"I know Skylar reminds you of Christina, she reminds everyone of her. You wanna be there for her but Nash you just gotta understand that being around certain people has consequences, and you hate the fact that Skylar has got you so worked up because she doesn't know that's she's a ticking time bomb just like Carter was, you're counting down the seconds, minutes, hours, until she blows. Until the school tears her down. Look and all you can do is try and help her so she doesn't go to the same resources that Chrissy did. Okay, Nash. I'm upset she died too, but you couldn't d-"
I cut him off. "I could have prevented Christina dying! I saw her get bullied, heck I dated one of the bullies! I didn't say anything! We talked, I showed her around school before the problems started! We were kinda friends and then she came to me one day, and said and I quote 'They call me names Nash, can't you make them stop?' and you know what I said? I told her 'The world is not a wish granting factory, suck it up. It's just fucking names' That's what I told her. I hate myself Cameron! I told her. They're. Just. Fucking. Names. I could have stopped it, they would've listened to me! I was Captain! I ruled the school! But I didn't say one damn word. Now she's dead! D-E-A-D! I could have stopped it! So don't damn well tell me I couldn't stop it! Cause I had so many opportunities to stop it and I didn't." I tell him, tears streaming down my face.
"Look Nash, I gotta go, we'll talk later okay?" He asks.
Cam, I really need my best friend. "Yeah." I nod.
He smiles and walks out.
I'm just not too sure I'll be alive for that Cam.