3. The scars...
I strolled into class three weeks after I had met Sinead, I was really looking forward to science that day, I never thought I would ever say something like that but it was true. I REALLY like her but I have a slight problem. I have been going out with this girl for ages now, and I haven't told Sinead. I don't really know if I should or not, it's not really her business who I go out with but I feel like I should tell her just in case. Sinead is coming over tomorrow to sleep round so I will tell her then. I sat down in my seat waiting for Sinead to walk in but she didn't. I waited 10 minutes before getting worried. I knew she was there, we had walked to school together this morning. Class without her was sooo boring. I had nobody to talk to so I just started writing down Pierce the veil lyrics on my book.
---------pierce the veil: king for a day lyrics---------
*Dare me to jump off this jersey bridge bet you never had a Friday night like this keep it up keep it up lets raise our hands I take a look up at the sky and I see red for the cancer red for the wealthy red for the drink that's mixed with suicide everything red, please won't you push me for the last time lets scream until there's nothing left so sick of playing I don't want this any more the thought of you is no fucking fun you want a martyr I'll be one because enough's enough we're done you told me think about it well I did and I don't want to feel a thing any more I'm tired of begging for the things that I want I'm over sleeping like a dog on the floor.....*
Half way through the lesson she walked through the door looking at the floor. She walked over and put her bag down and told me she needed to talk. I looked into her eyes, which weren't shining any more but were dull. I knew she had been crying. I flung my arms around her. She pulled away soo quickly.
'Babe, what's wrong?' I asked trying to get her to say something instead of get even more upset. 'Talk to me?' She stared out into space almost like a flashback. I hugged her, even tighter then the last one but still nothing.
He hugged me so tight, I really wanted to hug him back, to tell him what had happened but I just couldn't. The words wouldn't come out of my mouth. I just wanted to tell him. I wanted him to know who I actually was, what happened. *I get abused by my dad. I self harm* I repeated it over and over in my head. But the words wouldn't come out. I felt a tear roll down my cheek and brushed it away with my sleeve. I saw him looking at me from the corner of my eye. He looked upset and scared yet shocked, I wondered what he was looking at. Then I realised, I had let my guard down, I had let it slip, literally! My scars were on full display and he noticed. The bell rang, filling the room with the noise. It pierced my ears like a needle. He stayed staring at me. I could see the anger in his eyes. I quickly grabbed my stuff. I walked out stuffing my stuff into my bag, tears fell as I walked. Someone grabbed my wrist and pulled me into a locker. 'GET OFF' I shouted
'Not until you tell me why!' Cruz shouted back at me, a tear running down his face.
'I cant but I'm sorry'
'We have known each other for months, we are best friends and I love you!' He sighed 'I don't want you to hurt yourself because you have no idea how much you mean to me!' he hugged me as tears streamed down his face.
'you love me?!' Omg he said it but I know he means only as mates but I wish it was more than just mates. I wish he loved me more then anything. But I know he doesn't. He pulled me closer to him and hugged me, his hands on my waist but I could feel something on my leg. Oh my god was that his--! Oh my god! I pulled away a bit but he pulled me back. His lips crashed into mine. sending shock waves throughout my body. His tongue explored my mouth and I didn't stop him. I let out a small moan. His hands caressed my body, all the way from my back down my waist and around my hips. He moved his fingers up and down my thighs. He bit my bottom lip and picked me up. I wrapped my legs around his waist. I pulled away, remembering that we were at school. I smiled at him.
'Am I still sleeping round tonight?' I said whilst winking.
'Of course' he said hugging me tightly around the waist and kissing my neck.
That bitch, she deserves everything she is going to get, she will pay for what she did. I can't believe she did that to me, I thought we were mates, but apparently not! I am going to make he regret the day she ever messed with my boyfriend!