Today's moving day and I've been thinking about college. I have to go to college eventually and what other school would i be able to apply to close to where I live other than Columbia University? I need to apply there although I really want to go because of my moms death and me wanting to go there caused it I need to go somewhere and I don't want to go anywhere far away from my dad and Parker, although it may seem like they'll be fine they need me, especially Parker. Parker talked to me the other day, he asked me where dad was and when he was going to be home. Even though that's not exactly what I wanted to be our first conversation its something and it made me happy he decided to come to me about it. Dad thinks its a good idea to drive all the way to New York because he's under the impression that it'll be a good bonding experience for everyone, I disagree. We got into the car and started driving away. I looked back for the last time trying to remember all the good times I've had in that house and in this town. There was this one time me and mom went shopping and we saw these cute boys at the mall and i tried hiding behind anything i could find that would block me from their view. Mom thought it would be funny to give me a few things she wanted me to buy for her, she told me to go pay for them now and i went to the register and there they were right behind me. I took out everything she had handed me and at the bottom of the basket there was a pair of red and black laced thongs. I have never been so embarrassed in my life. I look behind me to try and spot my mom to and the boys were looking straight at me and then the thongs and smirked. I could feel my face start to turn red. There was also this one time when the whole family was over and we started talking about nonsense and all of a sudden a pie ends up in my face and i cleared the whip cream off my eyes and looked up to see Parker and my mom laughing hysterically, dad had smashed the pie in my face and Parker got it on video. We used to be so happy and none of us fought and me and Parker never got yelled at or in trouble It made me sad to think that i ruined all of these fun times by killing my mother. I killed her, I killed not only her but my whole family.