"So I've been talking with Matt," Niall says entering my room, without knocking I might add.
"I could've been naked Niall!" I shout throwing a pillow at his head.
"You think I care?" He says sitting at the edge of my bed.
"I have a boyfriend," I remind him and his face hardens.
"Anyway, Matt told me you have a tumblr. How did I not know this?" He asks grinning at me.
"It's not like you're ever going to see it. It's very well hidden," I stick my tongue out at him.
"It's a good thing a have millions of people to find it for me," he then pulls out his phone showing me his most recent tweet.
*@sleepingwithstars has a tumblr ! First one to find it gets a follow !*
"Niall! I don't want people seeing my tumblr! It's just for me. I only have like 25 followers."
"You're about to have a whole lot more," he grins.
"It was the one social network where people didn't know who I was. I'm not even following a lot of people. A few fandom accounts, John and Hank Green, Felicia Day and that's about it. Oh and my favorite accounts thegreenpickle awkward-potato-king they don't have lots of followers but they're best friends and they always post funny stuff," I explain.
"Well I will tell my followers you like those accounts and maybe they'll have an easier time finding you."
"Fuck off!" I say shoving Niall out of my room and slamming the door. I hear him chuckle as he walks away.
"Wakey wakey Lyle," Matt yells as he enters my room. He's always enjoyed calling me Lyle for some odd reason, he's even gotten Niall to do it a few times.
"What do you want Matty?" I ask knowing the name bothers him.
"I told you not to call me that," he says sternly.
"If you didn't want me to call you Matty then why is all your social media @mattyabbott?" I ask him smirking.
"I hate you. Anyway, Niall is taking you to see a movie," Matt changes the subject.
"Really? It's not Divergent is it because I already saw that with Harry."
"Wow Líadan you're behind. Divergent has been out of theatres for a while," he laughs and leaves the room with no explanation.
"Líadan! Put some clothes on I'm taking you to see The Fault in Out Stars!" Niall says barging into my room. That's an odd choice. I love the novel and have been talking about the movie for months but it's very sad and my dad just died so I'm not sure I can handle it.
"You sure about that Niall? I'm going to cry," I inform him.
"I know but in the end you'll be happy you saw it, you love that book. Plus you can criticize how it's all wrong compared to the book," he says smiling at me. Why does he have to have such a beautiful smile? He's making this so much harder for me, I have to stay with Harry for another 5 months, I don't know if I can do that and stay sane. I know Niall has Rose and he proably doesn't even have feelings for me but I can't help but hope that he'll want me, love me.
This is why I don't write romance novels, they're not at all realistic. In fact, I hate them. They're rubbish, plain and simple.
"Fine. We'll go. Let me put some clothes on," I say in a monotone voice shoving him out of the room and closing the door behind me.
"Hurry up!!!!!!" Niall calls from behind my bedroom door. I throw on my "I don't have friends I've just got one" shirt and some jeans beforing leaving the room to meet him.
"You can't wear that shirt anymore. You have more than one friend now," Niall says after reading my shirt.
"It's a Sherlock reference so yes I can," I say crossing my arms.
"Why are you in such a bad mood? You seem pissed," he says before quietly adding, "At me..."
"I'm not. Let's just go to the movie," I say without looking at him.
I cried the entire time. I knew I would. I even leaned into Niall a bit when Augustus died.
I laughed at parts but onl through my tears. How to Train Your Dragon 2 probably would've been a better choice.
"Are you okay?" Niall asks looking at me worriedly which only makes me burst into tears yet again.
"Shit, wht did I do wrong?" he asks searching my face.
"You said okay!" I say sobbing.
"Im sorry, I'm sorry," he rubs my shoulders.
"It also doesn't help that you're quite a bit like Augustus. Fun, carefree, not all that good at writing," I laugh.
"Yeah, also in love with a college girl who can write and refuses to love me back," he mumbles.
"What?" I say taking a step back. He can't be talking about me right? I mean I'm not in college anymore I just graduated. He's not talking about me. He's not.
"Líadan, haven't you figured it out, you're just like Hazel too, and I'm in love with you. Always have been, always will be," he leans in to kiss me but at the last second I turn my face.
He can't do this. Not now. He's playing with my feelings. I'm emotionally unstable right now.
I could've easily just become a cheater, not only a cheater but the other woman. I know it wouldn't really hurt Harry but I can't do that to Rose. How could Niall do that to Rose and Harry? He thinks Harry and I are serious so why would he do that?
"Niall I-I can't," I say backing away, hands shaking.
"Líadan, please justt let me explain," he looks like a hurt puppy but I don't stare long enough to see the tears fall. Soon I'm out the door running.
Niall was my ride so I need to call Matt. He'll be able to tell me what to do.
A/N: So this was kinda crap at the beginning but I liked the ending, we weren't supposed to get to that point for another two chapters but it was in the moment and I just couldn't resist. I hope you like it. Please vote and comment. Also check out my new story Dolly Hanks, it's about two YouTubers.