"Mum!" I say as we enter my childhood home.
"Sweetie! I missed you so much! I don't know what I'll do with you and your brother both in England. I still have some arrangements to make so we won't be able to spend much time together at the moment but the three of you should catch up," my mum says to me when I walk over and hug her.
I know she's trying to put on a brave face for us but she's broken inside.
The man she loves is gone forever. I hope I never have to endure the pain she is going through.
I've always thought that I would die before my parents, I know it's odd but I just figured they would live into their hundreds and I would die first, or at leafs I hoped.
I've never suffered real loss until now. Distant family members that I didn't know very well had died but as awful as it is to say, it wasn't a big impact on my life.
I still have two grandparents, my mother's mum and my father's dad. My father's mum and my mother's dad died before I was born.
I wonder how mum got through her dad's death? It must have been sheer hell for her as it is for Matt and me right now.
What I need to do is not think about it. I need to do what mum said and spend time with Niall and Matt.
The rest of my family will probably arrive in town within the next few days so I need to spend quiet time before they get here.
"Okay mum, we will. If you need help with anything I'm here," I say rubbing her arm reassuringly.
"Thanks baby, I'm going to be out all day so you kids have fun," she says giving me a quick kiss on the cheek before leaving.
She's usually much more talkative but if she talks much more she'll most likely cry and she doesn't cry in front of people.
"So what do you guys want to do?" Niall asks setting his bags down.
"We should probably bring your bags over to your house," Matt says to Niall.
"No, I'm staying with you guys. Just in case the three of you need anything," Niall says smiling at us.
"Thank you Niall. Let's bring your stuff up to the guest room and my stuff to my room, then we'll decide what to do," I say and we head for the stairs.
"So what shall we do?" I ask as I join Matt and Niall in the guest room.
"Watch a movie?" Niall suggests shrugging.
"Frozen! Frozen! You still haven't seen Frozen! We can buy it on the Apple TV! Come on!" I say running down the stairs as fast as I can, which isn't very fast at all.
"Líadan you've seen it like five times," Niall says shaking his head as they join me down stairs.
"I also wrote a Sherlock version of Do You Want to Build A Snowman! Here look," I say showing them the lyrics I wrote.
DO YOU WANT TO SOLVE A MURDER
Sherlock: Mycroft? Do you want to solve a murder? C'mon let's go deduce. I wish you'd stop ignoring me, it's boring me. There is no excuse. With the help of John and Molly we can solve this case, it won't be that hard. Do you want to solve a murder? It doesn't have to be a murder.
Mycroft: Go away Sherlock.
Sherlock: Okay fine.
Sherlock: Do you want to solve a murder? Or play operation in the hall? I think some deducing is overdue, I've started shooting bullets at the wall. It gets so boring, all these normal people just waiting for excitement. Do you want to solve a murder?
Sherlock: Mycroft, I deduce you're in there, I know where you have been. They say be normal, and I'm trying to, I'm right out here alone, please let me in. It's always been the two of us, just you and me. What are we gonna do? Do you want to solve a murder?
"That's very nice Líadan, but since neither of us have seen the movie so it doesn't make much sense," Matt says and I blush forgetting the fact that they haven't yet heard the song.
"Let's watch then!" I say pressing play.
"Do you want to build a snowman-" I start to sing along with Anna but am interrupted by Matt.
"I want to enjoy the movie which means you shouldn't sing," he says.
"Shut up," I say hitting him with a pillow.
"As long as you do," he smirks.
"This guy is so sweet!" Of course Matt thinks Hans is cool.
"Don't you think they're moving kinda fast? He's obviously not the one for her," Niall starts to argue with Matt. I would've thought that Niall would share Matt's love of Hans, in the beginning at least. Most people start out thinking Hans is just a normal Disney prince but he's not. He's a dick.
"It's true love, when you know you know," he's right about that I guess. I just feel like Líadan is Anna, Matt is Elsa and Harry is Hans. There's no room for me in this scenario. I'll probably just end up being whatever guy Elsa marries because that's just how Matt and I are.
"Shut up and watch the movie," Líadan says laughing at our childish behaviour.
"Líadan! You're Anna and I'm Elsa! Because you're my little sister! And let's be honest, if one of us had super awesome powers it would be me," Matt says pretending to flip his hair.
"Nah mate, I'm Kristoff and Niall is Sven. You can be Olaf," Líadan counters.
"Hate to break it to you Lí but we don't know who any of those characters are," I inform her.
"Shit! Forget everything I just said and watch the movie!"
"Aren't these songs amazing?" Líadan asks marvelling at the movie.
"They would be if you would stop singing," Matt mumbles. Líadan is really an awful singer but I don't mind. There's something sweet about her off key voice.
"Shut up Matthew!" Líadan laughs throwing a pillow at Matt's head.
"Ow! Why do you always have to throw pillows? Seriously, pillows?"
"Well you said ow so they must work," Líadan sticks her tongue out and goes back to looking out the window.
"You're right, Matt is Olaf," I say after In Summer is over.
"Right? And we're Sven and Kristoff because we're best friends," Líadan says not taking her eyes off the TV.
"You do hate people so that definitely works for you," I laugh.
"That was a good movie, I'll give you that. Most girls are obsessed with it so maybe I can use it as a pick up line," Matt muses after we've finished the movie.
"What would you even say?" Líadan asks curiously.
"Open those gates so I may unlock your secrets and exploit your riches," Matt says wiggling his eye brows.
"Gross! I feel bad for whatever girl you use that on. They probably won't even realise the Frozen reference. What else you got?" She coaxes him.
"I won't be the only one impaled tonight," Matt winks at me and I crack up on the spot.
"Okay I've had enough! I'm going to my room! Goodbye my subjects!" Líadan says as she leaves the room.
A/N: Yes I realise that was terrible and took a lot of time but I had writers block. I'm sorry. I'll have better updates soon.