"Once I heard a knock on the door I ran to the door. My heart was racing fast, I could feel it pumping blood. Am I that nervous?
I opened the door and saw him look up from his shoes and smiled,"Hey Violet."
I smiled back like always,"Hey Justin, come in!"
I stepped back, holding the door to let him in. He looked around scanning my place.
I nodded,"Yeah. Thanks."
He sat down on my leather black couch and looked up at me.
"Would you like anything to drink?"
He shook his head,"No thank you." He smiled.
I sighed and sat beside him.
"So. I want to get to know you more."
I shook my head and smirked,"There's nothing to know about me. I'm just an ordinary girl."
"You're not just an ordinary girl. You're more then that.. Please.. Tell me anything about you.... how about the basics?"
I shrugged and looked at the picture of me and my friend Brian.
Brian and I were best friends since kindergarten. He committed suicide in 9th grade because he thought he wasn't good enough.
My eyes started getting watery.
It startled me when Justin put his hand on my back.
"Are you okay?" I nodded and smiled. Trying to hold back the tears,"Y-yeah. Just..."
"Hey.. I'm here for you. Want to break down? Cry on my shoulder. Want to rant? Rant to me. Want to open up to someone. Im here.."
I smiled and gave him a hug. He smelt really good. I put my left cheek on his shoulder and looked at the wall.
We stayed like that for awhile until I got up to grab something to drink.
"When do you want to have dinner, Justin?"
He shrugged,"I was kind of thinking maybe I should make it? This is considered a date." He winked at me and I rolled my eyes and shook my head.
"This is not a date.. We're just friends.."
His smile went to a frown.
What am I thinking? I'm always messing up these things.. Should I sit by him and look him in the eyes..? Maybe he'll make a move... If you can't tell I get nervous when I like someone so I say the wrong things..
I went with my plan and sat by him. I took a sip of the Cranberry Juice and looked at him.
He was staring at me..
His face got closer to mine and I was still looking at him straight in the eyes..
He was about to close the gap between until I heard my phone go off.
He squeezed his eyes together and turned his head the other way.
I sighed and pulled out my phone from my pocket.
I looked at who was calling and it was Mandie.
Mandie was my close friend from rehab. Well she isn't CLOSE but we hang out sometimes. I dont really have any friends so..
"What are you doing tomorrow?"
"Uhh.. I dont know.. Probably stay in my apartment alone. Why?"
"There's a party tomorrow night and I want you to come! Invite anyone you want over okay?"
"Ugh fine. What time?"
"Kay. I'll be there."
I looked at Justin,"There's a party tomorrow at 8:15pm, wanna come?"
He smirked,"I dont think you'll want me at a party. I get kind of crazy."
I scooted closer to him so we were face to face,"C'mon! Please?"
He sighed,"Fine." He looked me in the eyes.
This is it. This is the time where we're going to kiss.
The time I feel his lips on mine.