5. 7th Grade Confessions
I'll tell you my reasons for why I was an Atheist: •My parents •My family •Didn't seem logical. Why I was bisexual: I... Don't exactly know what to say about it. I just- had feelings for girls. That's it. But I'm straight now. XD My parents would fight. They fought a lot when I was little, and smoked. My dad drank beer. My Mum lost her singing voice because of smoking. I vowed to never smoke or drink. My family... When I was young, for years I was sexually abused by my Aunt's boyfriend. I couldn't talk about it- I was too scared; also, I couldn't talk til' 2nd Grade. I ha speech class and the state of Tennessee wanted to label me mentally retarded; Mum wouldn't let them. I tried telling my aunt when I finally had the courage, but she didn't believe me; said that I was ugly. That caused my knowing of my ugliness. My whole family believed in Jesus Christ, even my Aunt's boyfriend. My mum told my therapist all about this, but over-exaggerated the details: she said I couldn't talk til' 4th grade and that's when I told them. I didn't know, because I didn't remember my childhood. Just my aunts boyfriend's hungry smile, and his boy part. I had drawn flowers based on it..... So you can see why I was messed up? I still am messed up. And struggling with my faith ad loyalty to God.