I was on my laptop
'Nialls new mystery girl'
"Damn it" I whispered to myself
Niall horan was seen yesterday carrying mystery girl.
Of course they would. I never get peace but that's being famous for you. Whatever.
Is horan trying to make recent ex Demi lovato jealous?
"Those son of a bitches"
I was so into the article I didn't hear the door open
"Hey mister no cussing I'll call your mom"
"I'm a big boy now" I said sticking my tongue out at her
"Even big boys shouldn't cuss it's wrong" she said pointing her finger at me. Like my mom.
"Oh god you look just like my mom"
"Good maybe you should stop cussing" she said smiling
"Oh my god okay fine I'll stop just don't be a cuter and prettier version of my mom" I laughed and winked
"Whatever" she rolled her eyes
"Hey missy don't roll you eyes" I said copying her
"Im a big girl now"
"Big girls shouldn't roll their eyes it's rude"
"Whatevs so anyways who or what were you cussing to or about"
"They are this evil group of people who follow you around and take pictures and destroy your privacy. Literally"
"Yeah it is and they caught a picture of me and you"
"What? Niall what if she sees them? Ni what if she finds me.. Sh-she will hurt me" she was on the edge of crying
"Don't worry pumpkin I am here now she won't hurt you" I took her hands and looked her in the eye "I promise you Katie Marie Ross I promise to protect you because I.. I" should I say it? I have my chance stop being a coward and say it "I"
"You.. You what? Niall are you okay? Just say it"
I nodded and looked into her big blue eyes. "Katie I'm in love with you" she stared at me in shock
"Ni your the only person who has been there for me, your my best friend, I love you too but I'm not in love with you I'm sorry" lie. Lie lie lie. I'm a liar. I hate this I am in love with him. I love him so much. I never stopped loving him from the start. I'm in love with Niall James horan but I can't tell him. He will be sucked into my problems with my 'mom'
"Oh okay I understand Katie" I sighed. I hurt him. I'm sorry Niall I love you but I just can't. I thought. I'm soo soo sorry
"I'm sorry nialler" he nodded and I excused myself to go shower
In the shower I cried and cried and cried the whole time. I will have to leave soon that's why I couldn't tell Niall that and I don't want him getting hurt by anyone. Yes I hurt him but he will be okay. He deserves better than me anyway. So I have to leave, but to where? Hmm I have no where to go. Shizznizz this is harder than I thought.
Leaving my first and only love and my only friends is going to be hard. I don't want to leave them but if I don't there is no doubt she will find me and I know she will kill me or hurt one of them with no hesitation. Why can't my life be better why does it have to be so shitty. I miss my dad. He left me with.. Her. Alone. To say and do whatever she wants to me.
Those were some of my thoughts during my hour long shower. I was relaxed to think about everything and cry it out it helped me. Now I just have to come out of my relaxing zone and face the real world. The one place that scares me.
I went out to see an empty room. I sighed.
"God I'm stupid I wish he would just know and understand" I thought out loud
"Who would understand what" I jumped a little and saw Louis by the Open door. Damn my bad. I sighed
"Come on you can tell tommo" he said taking a seat on the bed
I thought about it. Should I? Yeah I should
"Okay fine it's niall" I sat next to him and he nodded
"He told me he is in love with me and I told him I love him too.."
"Then what's the problem you love eachother bam. Done"
"Lou let me talk. I told him I love him but I'm not in love with him"
"But that's the problem I am in love with him I've been in love since we first met and I-I still am in love the feelings never left"
"Then why?" He had a questioning and thoughtful look on his face
"Because I'm in love with him and if I tell him I can't leave" my eyes widened and I covered my mouth with my hands. Oops I wasn't supposed to say that..
"YOUR WHAT?!!??" Louis started screaming
"YOUR LEAVING THATS THW STUPIDEST THING IVE EVER HEARD" he was now standing and clenching his fists
"Louis calm down"
"I KNEW YOU WERE DAMAGED BUT I DIDNT KNOW YOU WERE STUPID TOO" that hit a nerve. The worst part he kept yelling stuff exactly like that.
"Louis stop" he kept yelling. "Louis that's enough stop please"
"DONT YOU KNOW HOW MUCH THAT WILL HURT HIM OR ME OR ANY ONE OF US WE CARE ABOUT YOU BUT NO YOU JUST HAVE TO BE SELFISH AND STUPID"
I was crying what he was saying was extremely hurtful
"Louis stop please stop"
"THE BOY LOVES YOU FOR CRYING OUT LOUD. BLOODY HELL HE'S IN LOVE WITH YOU ITS SO.."
"I GOT THE FUCKING POINT LOUIS I GET IT IM A STUPID BROKEN GIRL WHO HURTS OTHERS I GET IT AND I DONT FUCKING MEAN IT IM DOING IT FOR YOUR SAFETY HAVENT YOU THOUGHT ABOUT THAT LOU HUH? BUT NOOO ITS ALWAYS MY. FUCKING. FAULT. YOU KNOW MAYBE I CARE ENOUGH SO YALL DONT HAVE TO GO THROUGH MY PAIN. MAYBE I DONT WANT YOU GUYS GETTING HURT BUT NO ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT"
"Katie I'm s-"
"Save it tommo. Just just stay away from me please just stay away" I couldn't look at him I needed to be stronger I needed them all to let me go. I don't want them to get hurt
I heard the door shut then footsteps going down the stairs
"I'm so sorry Lou and ni I love you guys please understand I'm so sorry" I was crying hard after about 30 minutes I fell asleep.
I heard everything. She wanted to leave and she's in love with nialler.
I went downstairs and saw Louis in the kitchen eating away.
"Hey Lou" he looked up and his eyes were lighter then normal. They were also red and puffy. He had been crying
"She hates me"
"No she was just hurt and so were you"
"She hates me HAZZA"
"No Lou nobody hates you you were both just hurt and angry and you let It out on eachother I know she doesn't mean what she said like you didn't mean what you said"
"I know I've barely known her but she is already one of my best friends. I just I want to help I hate how such an innocent girl has such a terrible life and Niall ha.. He is in love with the girl and he is crushed and wait till he finds out about her leaving" I looked at him
"He won't be finding out" he looked up from his food in disbelief
"You've got to be kidding me"
"Lou don't you think"
"DONT I THINK NOTHING HARRY that poor girl needs someone by her side to protect her she is breaking and we can all see it"
"But she's made it this long"
"Without running away if her mum finds her she's dead she needs us like we need her damn it Harry we need her more then she needs us"
"Now you've got it now let's go get our girl"
"You needed to admit to yourself that you need her and you needed to admit that she needs you too but in your own way"
"Oh wow did you just"
"Yup" I smirked
He smirked too and we went upstairs to find a sleeping Katie
Just then the others came and we went downstairs
"Woah okay guys who has been eating all the food" zayn said and glared at Niall "Niall?"
"What it wasn't me I was with you guys" he said in disbelief
"It was this guy" I said patting Louis back
"Wait Louis you did this?" Liam said a little concerned
"Why did something happen" Lou looked down and shook his head
"Are you sure I know your an upset eater"
"I'm fine" he said and he turned and walked upstairs with not another word