After another day of walking trough Paris I wanted to just sit on the couch but then I forgot Harry had other plans. 'Let's go outside.' He said as he pulled my arm. 'I actually just wanted to stay here.' I murmered. Harry pulled a confused face. 'But we were going to the field again.' Harry said. I sighed. 'I can't.' 'Why not?' 'I just don't want to do this anymore.' Harry rubbed his face and looked back at me. 'I want to be nice, is that wrong?' 'It's not wrong to be nice, but I don't like the thought that as soon as we go back to England you will just pretend to hate me again.' 'I won't, it's just...you have your friends and I have mine.' Harry tried to explain. 'Ofcourse I have Alice and Mark but...' 'But what?' 'Never mind.' I murmered and turned around. Harry put his arm on my shoulder and turned me around. 'Don't just stop looking at me, it makes it impossible to talk to you.' I sighed. 'I can't tell you.' Harry let out a deep sigh. 'Ofcourse you can.' 'No, because the only reason you are nice to me is because you are stuck with me anyway, as soon as we leave this place you will be a dick again.' 'That's not true!' Harry said with widened eyes. 'It is! And you know it! You've always been a dick to me ever since you arrived at this school, and only when we are alone you are nice to me, do you just expect me to just find that okay?' Harry looked at me, to the ground and back at me. 'You are right. And I'm sure you are not going to tell me what is troubleing you but if it helps I want to tell you what made me into what I am now.' I looked at him and nodded.
So we took place on the couch. 'Well...in my first school I was bullied, I was picked on, I had no friends, no one liked me. I swore that as soon as I would change school that I would change. So I did, I started to date several girls, started with football, and began picking on weaker people. But then my parents wanted my to swich schools because they thought it was because of the school I changed so much, but the truth is, I changed because people forced me to.'
'Why did they bully you?' I asked. Harry didn't answer for a moment. 'I don't know.' That was a lie, if you read people's lips all the time you get very handy in reading their expressions too. But I didn't want to force him into telling more. 'Thanks for telling me.' I said, and Harry showed me a half smile. 'Now you know my story, do you want to tell yours?' He asked. I looked at the ground and back at Harry. 'Promise me to never tell anyone. I don't want to change school.' Harry nodded. 'It will be our secret.' I smiled. 'I-I am...gay.' Harry's eyes grew big. 'Really?' 'Yeah...' Harry put his hand on my shoulder so I would look at him again. 'You shouldn't be so ashamed of it, I'm not going to judge you.' 'But other people do.' Harry rubbed my back.' I don't.' I smiled. 'You're not a bad guy at all aren't you?' I asked with a smile. Harry smiled back. 'No I'm not. I may look cool and stuff on the outside, but on the inside I'm just a sensitive little boy.'
'Let's go stargazing.' I jumped on my feet and pulled Harry's arm. Harry's smile made my heart race. His eyes made me forget my plan to not go hang out with him. I just couldn't resist, and that I might regret it later didn't come to my mind at that moment. We just enjoyed our walk in the long grass and searched for a nice spot t lie down.
suddently Harry tapped my shoulder. 'Do you see that bright start over there?' I nodded. 'That's your mom, she's watching over you.' He was so cute as he said that. 'Yes indeed. She will always watch over me, I just know.' Harry smiled at me. 'I really didn't want to hurt you.' He murmered. 'Don't mind it, when people are pushed far enough they will do things they regret later.' I said. 'Did you do anything you regret?' Harry asked. I pulled up my sleeve and showed him some scars. 'I self harmed but I stopped when I came here.' 'That's so sad, but what made you stop?' 'It's not a what, it's a who.' I smiled and looked back at the sky. Those stars are beautiful, I just wish I could lie here forever and just forget about my shitty life at home.' Harry rubbed my shoulder, knowing that saying anything wouldn't pointless.
I didn't remember to have walked back to the hotel but when I woke up I was in my bed. I got ready and joined Harry at the table for breakfast. 'Thought you would never wake up.' Harry said with a smile. 'How did we get back?' I asked. 'You fell asleep so I carried you back. I didn't want to wake you up..' 'Ohh...uhm...Thank you.' 'No problem. You looked kind of cute when you laid there sleeping.' 'Uhm I...' Was all I could say. 'Are you blushing.' Harry chuckled. I tried to hide my redden cheeks but it was no use. 'It's just...I don't get complinets often...Actually, I never get any compliments.' 'That's sad because you are a really nice guy.' 'But you are too, I don't get why you need to act like a bad guy.' 'I don't know what will happen to me when I don't, I'm too scared to try.' 'We have a day off today, do you have a plan?' I asked. Harry smiled. 'We could make a walk to the eiffel tower if you want to?' I had to say I really liked the idea but the fact that Harry's friends were around made me doubt the idea. 'What if your friends see us?' 'They won't, they are all going to the bar on the other side of fucking Paris. I know that because they told me they would go there as soon as we got a day off. I should go with them but I can pretend to be sick.' I smiled. 'If you want to do that.' 'Ofcourse. I much rather hang around with you than go drink myself completely wasted with some guys that like me because of my popularity.'
We got ready and took a cab to the heart of Paris. Around the eiffel tower it was very crowded. A bunch of people were taking pictures and there was a missive waiting line to climb the tower itself. 'I think it's a bad idea to go stand in that line.' Harry said. I nodded. It was to hot to go wait in a line. 'Why don't we get a fresh beer and sit down?' He suggested. 'I never drank beer before.' 'You will now, I'll go get you one.' Together we walked to a pub and while I took a place Harry got us a beer. 'Here, try it, you gonna love it!' I took a sip and he was right, this tasted really well. I told you you were going to like it.' After finishing our beer we went to a little restaurant to eat something. My cheeks turned red when I saw the prices. 'Harry...I can't efford this...' Harry smiled. 'No problem, this one's on mine.'
We got some very nice food and after eating we walked around the eiffel tower again. 'I really want to know what it is to be up there.' I said. 'Yeah me to. Stupid that our teachers didn't pay for it.' We walked the rest of the way in silence. Not that it's very different for me but I just enjoyed walking together. 'It's getting dark.' I murmered. 'Yeah, we should head back.'
'What do you want for dinner?' Harry asked as soon as we were back in the hotel. 'I don't know.' 'I can make spaghetti if you like that.' 'You can cook?' I asked with a playfull smirk. 'Yes...one of my secrets.' Harry chuckled. He got the all he needed and started preparing the meal. I decided to take a nap on the couch, I didn't need to worry anymore.
Harry gentely shook me to wake me up. 'Dinner's ready.' We took place at the table. 'This is delicious.' I said. I swore I could see Harry blush. 'Thank you. It'm my mom's recpect.' After finishing dinner we took place on the couch. 'I really don't want to do this thing in groups tomorrow.' Harry sighed. I tiled my head. 'Tomorrow we need to split up in groups and fill in a stupid list with questions.' Harry explained. I got a lump in my troath. That's not going to be a fun trip.