"I'm going to the hospital," I said the moment I stepped into the living room. Harry opened his mouth. "Alone," I added looking directly at him. He furrowed his eyebrows but said nothing. I smiled sadly with a few tears running down my cheeks. I put on my shoes and walked to the hospital since Rebecca drove away in the car. I sighed and blinked the tears from my eyes.
"Hello Miss Gomez. Right this way." The nurse I spoke with on the phone was waiting on me by the front desk. I didn't smile back, I just followed her down multiple hallways with many doors on each side. "Your sister is in here. She's asleep at the moment, she should wake up at any moment." I nodded and she shuffled off. I draw a deep breath and carefully opened the door. I strangled a sob at the sight in front of me, Rebecca all bruised up, cuts along her arms and face, deardly pale. I sniffled and took a deep shaky breath. I sat in the uncomfortable plastic chair beside her bedand took her hand in mine.
"We have been here quite a lot recently haven't we?" I laughed a little at myself. "I'm so sorry, Becca! I've got you in the hospital and into trouble far too many times in the past year and I'm feeling horrible with myself for it." I broke down sobbing in my hands. "I know you can't hear me but you really don't know how much you mean to me. You are like my other half, my better half, that piece of myself I've been missing for god knows how long. It's really breaking me every time I see you in a hospital bed, I wish I could take away all your pain and make it my own, I really do. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry," I sobbed. I few minutes later I felt a soft hand rest on my left shoulder.
"Are you okay?" Louis asked. I snorted mockingly and got up from the chair.
"I'm perfectly fine." And walked out the door.
I need to stop with the lame questions. I sighed and sat in the chair. I rested my arms on my knees and looked at the girl in front of me. I tear escaped from my eyes at the sigth of her. I grabbed her hand and started tracing the many tiny scars on her arm all the way up to her face. I traced her closed eyelid and thought about the dull brown eyes underneath.
"Rebecca I'm so sorry, it's all my fault that you're even here. I know you probably can't hear me, but I have to get this off my chest. You mean everything to me. I've been close to losing you so many times I can't count them anymore, and to think that I'm the reason you almost got killed earlier I.. I can't bear the thought of losing you." I was crying now. "I'm sorry I told you about Eleanor, I just thought you deserved to know. I know it's not really any of your business who I'm dating, but you're my best friends, I want there to be no secrets between us." Did you just friendzone her? "I mean Harry and the other boys don't even know yet, neither do Selena. I don't know how to tell them about it." Why are you even talking to her about this? She can't even hear you.
"Tell us what?" A small voice sounded from the door. I looked up to see Selena, Harry, Liam and Niall. I furrowed my eyebrows and looked down at Rebecca again. I stood from the chair, I reached down to kiss her cheek and I whispered a small 'I love you' into the eyes so quiet only the to of us would hear it even though I know she wouldn't hear it. Then I walked out of the hospital room followed by the other guys and gal.
"It's nothing. It doesn't matter," I replied to their previous question when I finally reached the outdoors. I took out a pack of cigarets from my pocket and grabbed one and a lighter. Selena came up to me and ripped it from between my lips and for a moment I thought she was gonna throw it away but she put it between her own lips, grabbed my lighter from my hand and lightened it. I got it back and lit another smoke. "When did you start smoking?" I asked Selena as we hid on the side of the building.
"Since now." I smiled sadly and took a drag. "It's unhealthy for you, you know that right?"
I looked at her. "Yes." and took another drag. We just stood there talking about the problems and smoking the night away.