It's been two months since my last attack that day, and everything is going much better. I'm stable and my memories are coming back in small bites. The doctors told me I only lost about six months of my life. I have figured since then that a lot had happened in those six months. Like for example Aiden. I shuddered when I thought his name. I have known Aiden for.. a long time, and I knew what he was capable of doing. I just.. never knew he was capable of doing such a thing to my sister! Yes I now remember Selena and everything we've been through. I haven't tried to contact her though. I guess I'm just embarrassed and ashamed of what have happened the past year. I just don't want to drag her into all this again. It would be too much for me to handle. And for her too I'm sure. I can only imagine the state she's in right now. I really hope she's getting help.
I've decided to visit Rebecca today. Even if she wants me there or not. I have heard nothing from her so I assume she haven't gotten her memory back. I just really hope she has. I haven't seen her in over two months so you could say I'm feeling a little nervous.
"Good morning Selena! What a pleasant surprise!" The always preppy nurse Rebecca exclaimed once she saw me.
"Yeah yeah," I mumbled and continued to walk to my sisters room. I'm rude get over it.
"Miss Gomez you can't go in there!" She just won't give up will she?
"And why not?"
"Because she got a new room since the last time you were here. That's not her room," the nurse said. I blushed, but followed her nonetheless. "There we go! She's sleeping at the moment, but she should wake up soon!" I nodded and she walked off. I opened the door and saw my sister sleeping soundlessly on the white bed. I placed my butt in the chair beside her bed, and got as comfortable as you can in a plastic chair. It felt like hours before she finally woke up.
"Selena? Is that really you?" She asked and shut up from her bed. I was shocked to say the least.
"You remember me?" I said just above a whisper. Rebecca looked down at her hands.
"Yeah. Including some other.. Stuff." I knew exactly what she meant by ''stuff''. I grabbed her into a tight hug, and I felt something wet hit my shoulder.
"It's just so horrible!" She sobbed. I just held her tighter into me.
"I know. But everything is gonna be alright now. Aiden's in prison, and you are her alive." I said emphasising alive to make sure she understood. She pulled away from the hug and looked into my eyes.
"I'm so sorry Selena! I-I should never have made you do what you did! This it all my fau-" Rebecca started apologising but I interrupted her.
"Don't you dare say this is your fault! Because it's not, okay?! It's all my fault. If-if I hadn't been so damn nosy you wouldn't have been here right now! I never should have picked up your phone, I never should have gone to that creepy house, and I never should have been on the news! I started all this! Everything is my goddamn fault, okay?!" I sobbed. "I'm sorry Rebecca! I'm so so sorry! Can you ever forgive me for this?" It's okay if you don't. I'm not gonna forgive myself for this, ever.
"But-but Selena I- there's nothing to apologise for! None of this is your fault, but if it makes you feel better then I forgive you Selena. For whatever you have done, okay?" She said and gave me a look. I giggled lightly and nodded. I hugged her once again.
"Hey." I pulled away from the hug and looked at Rebecca. "Do you remember Louis?" I asked. A hint of something flashed in her eyes, but it was gone as soon as it got there. She nodded and a small smile played on her lips.
"What's the deal with you two anyway?"
"Nothing," she answered a little too quickly. She avoided eye contact. I gasped and caught her attention.
"Omg! You like him!" I squealed. Rebecca quickly covered my mouth and shushed me, but it was too late.
"You do! Aw it's so sweet!" My squeals were mumbled by her hand though. I licked her hand and she let go immediately.
"Ew Selena! Gross," she exclaimed and wiped her hand in the bed covers. "And I don't like him!"
"You're in denial. You like him. I can see it in your eyes. Plus, you're blushing when I say his name," I smiled triumphing.
"Okay what if I do like him? It's not like he likes me back or anything." I could see the disappointment in her eyes. Man she's like an open book!
"There's so much you don't know babe," I said smirking. She gave me a confused look. I shook my head and chuckled.