"How could you be so stupid?! So clueless as to what you have done!?" Kelly, my manager, have yelled at me the past hour because of what I did at the interview last week. She was completely right, though. It was a really stupid and risky thing to do.
"I know, but I didn't know what to do! I didn't want to break down in tears on national TV, so I just did the first thing coming to my mind and I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I just interrupted the interview like that, I'm sorry that I ran off, I'm sorry that I'm such a crybaby, I'm sorry that I'm a failure at everything I do and I'm sorry that I can't do anything productive with my career okay!? I just- I just can't!" I exclaimed and wiped my eyes, sniffing. My voice cracked multiple time as I was yelling. I heard Kelly sigh and saw her sit down in front of me.
"I'm sorry I yelled at you sweetie," she started and held my hands in hers, looking me in the eyes. "It was a stupid mistake but I understand why you did it."
"You-you do?" i asked sniffing. She nodded, smiling.
"Yes, I do. You feel like it's all your fault, that you could have done something to prevent all this from happening. But Selena, sweetie, you couldn't have done anything! Something is not right in Aiden's head that's making him do things like this, okay? Nothing you could do would have made much of a difference!" She said softly while forcing me to look at her. Tears were running down my cheeks like Niagara Falls.
Kelly is like a sister to me, so I have told her what happened when we were trapped with Aiden. Well, most of it. Actually only the beginning and the end, she doesn't need to know about the horrible things that happened in those dreadful weeks.
Before Kelly could say anything else, my phone rang.
Saved be the bell, I thought.
I excused myself and walked out of the room. I looked at the caller ID before answering the call. I didn't bother to making it sound like I wasn't crying. Everyone is used to me crying all the time anyways.
"Hey Lou, what's up?"