I have never pictured any of this. Where I am now. On the verge of 16, pregnant and my 17 year old baby daddy is dying of stomach cancer. It's like if there's a God out there, why he would put me through this life experience so young?
It's been a month since I went to Trey's doctors appointment with him, that means I'm 6 months pregnant; or 24 weeks if you want to be specific. It's all getting harder to deal with. Trish met a guy from Trey's old band, and I think they're great for each other. If there's something I miss, it's being able to go to school and socialize with friends. But that's enough with the negative, I'm tired of being sad and upset, Trish wanted to hangout tonight and I'm super excited. We haven't had real time together since before I got really pregnant, like as big as I am now and I'm not even close to being done. The female body is incredibly freaky.
Sometimes... Well, all the time now; I wonder how Trey will be doing in a couple of months. The doctors don't have a specific time left estimated for him but they said he doesn't have much time left. I want him here with me and our baby forever.
As I'm walking to Trish's house, I remembered I'm not suppose to be walking a great distance. Hmm, but what's the harm just this once right? Trish lives 2 and a half blocks away from me, and I'm about half a block away and my feet are hurting badly, I should keep going just because it's not that far away.
I got to Trish's house and I need to lay down, I feel so bad because of it but it's not my fault. Damn it Trey.
"So Trish, how's the new guy friend?" I asked. Trish just smirked, "His name is Jayson, Olivia. And he's so sweet, I just always want to be around him." I can see it her eyes, she really likes this guy. "As long as you're happy Trish, that's all that matters." I told her, and we just lay'd in bed and talked for hours like best friends do and it was great.
When you're cooped up in once place with the same people for so long it gets really depressing and you just want out. I love my family but getting to see other people even if it felt it was for 30 seconds was great and I enjoyed every second. I need to try to drain negativity from myself because it's not healthy for me or the baby and especially for Trey, he's the one I'm worried about most. I'm trying so hard to make him happy but it's hard, he told me to stay a distance for a few days because he got real sick. I'm just sitting with Trish, listening to her High School gossip that I'm no surprisingly apart of. "-but anyway, Jenny said she'd text me the lab notes and she never did and that's why she's the biggest bitch I know." Trish ranted. "She might've forgotten." I implied. "Hmm, well maybe but she's still a bitch. Take my side, that's why we have these talks." She said, we both laughed. "Maybe so." I said.
I went to check my phone, and there's 7 missed calls. "That's weird." I said. Trish looked confused, "What is?", "My mom, and Trey's mom called a bunch of times. I hope everything's okay." I pressed redial and the phone rang twice before someone answered, "Hello? Olivia?" Trey's mom. "Hi, sorry I didn't answer my phone, please tell me everything's okay?" I asked. There was a pause... A longer pause than there should've that made me panic, "Uhm, yes. Olivia, Trey's in the hospital."