8. Should I Tell Her?
I woke up at like 6 am today. I never do that! I decided to just go outside and watch the sun come up. I sneak downstairs and go outside. To my surprise, I see Brianna splashing her feet in the pool. I walk up to her and sit next to her. She looks at me and says a simple, "Hi." It was pretty quiet too. "Hey, are you okay?" I asked. "Yeah." She said even quieter. "Gurl, you realize I know when you lying right?" I asked in a sassy tone. She giggled. "Ok, well last night I talked about my dad." She trailed off. I knew about her dad already. I was the first to know. I pulled her closer to me as she started crying. "Shhh, it's okay." She nodded and stopped crying. The sun started coming up. It was beautiful. I looked over at Brianna. She was so beautiful, but she has Connor. I promised him I wouldn't get in the way. But I should confess my feelings to her right? But then it may be awkward. I won't. I hope I'm not saying this out loud. "Ricky?" Brianna asked. "Yeah?" "Do you want to come up with the ship name for me and Connor?" She asked. I smiled. On the inside I wanted to cry but I didn't. "Of course, how about…… Bonnor?" I asked. She smiled. "Perfect." She looked at my eyes. Then she turned away. I don't know if she was blushing or not.
I looked into Ricky's eyes. I just get lost in them. Wait I have a boyfriend! I can't be thinking this. I looked away and blushed. We sat there for a few minutes. Then my stomach growled. I laughed. I got up and Ricky followed me. I made myself a bowl of popcorn and put on Supernatural. Ricky smiled and said, "My favorite." We watched for an hour. Connor finally came down.
He looked at us. Then he looked at me. He gave me the death glare. I got up and ran upstairs. I locked my door and started crying. I couldn't help it. Connor and her are perfect for each other. I'll never have her. I wish I could hold her. I know someone who will comfort me. Jc. I'll call him and tell him everything.