I haven't really got out of bed the past couple of days. It doesn't seem to get any better.
I grabbed the paper on my night stand an poked in the numbers
Luke: hey, are doing anything tonight?
Ariana: no, why?
Luke: do you wanna maybe hang out?
Ariana: sure, I will text you my address.
Luke: okay, bye
Ariana: bye love.
What the hell did I just do?
Why did I do that "hey your love of your life just passed away let's move on with this new girl. Woo Hoo! Dick of the year" that's how I felt.
I stepped in the shower to boiling hot water, eating my flesh but soothing at the same time.
I grabbed my towel and dried, put some clothes on and headed out.
I took me 20 mins to get to Ariana's
"Looks nice" I said to myself
I knocked at the door, no answer
I knocked again, still no answer
I turned around to leave when I heard the door open.
Ariana: sorry I was putting my socks on
She laughed and covered her face, she reminded me so much like Gemma.
She led me to the living room, filled with paintings and photographs.
She never struck me as a painter.
*****2 hours later*******
The movie finally ended, it drug on and on
We said our byes and I headed outside
Ariana: wait are we gonna hang out again sometime?
Luke: sure tomorrow? Is that okay with you.
She nodded her head and waved at me.
I got in my car and went home.
I went to bed and laid there thinking, I felt Gemma at my side.
It sounds weird I know feeling your dead girlfriend beside you.
It was weird for me too, but it was the best feeling in the world.
I could hear faint whispers now and then.
"You know you aren't Casper the friendly ghost, you are a creeper Gem, but I love you. Hope heavens treating you nicely babe. I miss you a lot" I said
I was fighting tears back, it was still such a sensitive subject to bring up.
"I know if we never would have fought, you would be alive. That's should have been me." I whispered.
"I miss you."
Nothing ever felt so real in my life, it was daydreaming about Gemma every single day. I could not live with an incompletion in my life.