I have been thinking a lot lately now, more than I should.
I haven't had a proper sleep in about 2 weeks now.
Ariana hasn't seemed so worried.
I found it hard to pick between Gemma and her.
My point is they are basically the same and I have to basically choose between the love of my life and a girl I just meet 2 and a half weeks ago.
Ariana wants me to pick soon so they can get away from each other I don't blame her if I was stuck with someone inside of me I would go insane.
All I wanted to do is sleep today all this pressure was exhausting, believe me.
Every time I pass Ariana's room all I hear is "Is it almost time?"
"Luke we need to talk." I said
Luke came out of his room to mine.
"What is it?" He said concerned
"We only have 2 months left for both of us, until this wears off and she is gone for good." I said
He sighed and left without a word being spoken back.
I never have thought this was the coming to an end.
I haven't had some proper time alone by myself since Gemma is in my head 24/7 literally.
"2 months Ari." I heard her say
"Woo" I said sarcastically
"Trust me, it will be okay. No matter what happens." Gemma spoke.
"I hope." I responded back
I know this sounds bad but I really hope he picks me, I want to be with Mazz but Luke helps me through everything.
I knew I could never replace Gemma and I never will, but can't I have a second chance to make things right?
Luke has another chance too but he has a huge decision to make.
I could only imagine what he is going through, he doesn't want to hurt us, but he has to choose which one of us dies.