*1 year later*
Sunday mornings are the usual right.
You have nothing to do so you just chill
It feels so much better being by myself
Luke and I are still a couple it just doesn't feel right
I feel like I care more about him then I do myself so I really don't have a relaxing day.
Luke is coming home today from tour today and I'm kinda excited.
Maybe things will change around here
Luke: I'm home
Luke: you always act like that.
Gemma: act like what?
Luke: nothing, I should have stayed on tour.
By the end of his sentence I wanted to scream.
I got up and left, I was at the street, I could hear Luke behind me.
Luke: your acting like a child, you know I didn't mean that.
Gemma: I'm sure you didn't.
Gemma was acting childish, ever since the fans were loving her, she was happy. Now hate is coming towards her and it's like World War 2 is happening.
Luke: get out of the street
Gemma: no I'm walking away from you and I'm ending this convers...
She didn't get to finish that sentence.
That car surely ended that conversation for us
Someone called 911, I could not move a muscle. I don't quite know if it was the fact that she just got hit by a car or that it was my fault she got hit?
I was riding in the back of the ambulance watching them inject needles into her motionless body.
My heart was pounding harder each beat, I knew I couldn't be without her.
We arrived at the hospital and they took her to emergency room.
I was in the waiting room
Hours passed, silence filled the room.
All I could think of was the negative outcomes of this
I knew she would make it, she was strong.
*12 hours later*
I awoke to a doctor tapping me on shoulder
Dr: can we walk?
Dr: umm..I'm sorry to say that Gemma has passed
Dr: the car took a huge toll on her, the car broke her ribs and her spine was crooked and her brain was damaged as well. Also we did find some alcohol and some pills in her system. Was she in some depression?
Luke: not that I knew of, can I see her though
Dr: yes of course
The doctor took me to her room
I looked up to a pale Gemma
She still looked so beautiful, it seemed like yesterday I actually followed her.
Luke: why Gemma why? You could have stayed and lived with me for the rest of our lives. I'm so sorry babe. I'm so sorr..
Dr: sorry to barge in, but was Gemma on birth control?
Dr: okay when's the last time you two had sexual activity?
Luke: 7 months ago, why?
Dr: the nurses took out her baby. Gemma was pregnant.
Luke: is still alive? But how could it be?
Dr: it's very critical that it might live, and it's a girl.
Luke: please do everything you can to make that baby live it's the only think I have left of Gemma
Dr; we will do our best sir.
Luke: thank you.
She was pregnant with my child inside of her
I thought she got fat no offense to her
I fell asleep with Gemma's hand in my hand, wishing this baby will live.
Accidents happen, just I wish this didn't.